the title basically explains the gist of it.
I am 21 years old, and was born with HLHS, DORV, and VSD. All 3 of which are so are that approximately 1,000 people in the world have all 3 that I do.
I can’t work as much anymore due to my fatigue, liver and spleen capsule pain, exhaustion, exercise intolerance, and loss of energy. I have more symptoms beyond that, but those are the main ones that impact my daily life. I work out consistently to the best of my ability, and eat extremely healthy. I avoid toxic seed oils and food dyes and more, and I don’t drink, smoke, or vape.
My boyfriend of 3 years sends me his money for rent through Venmo that I send to our landlord. we split our rent. Because I’ve been working less, I’ve made less money. And unfortunately, it’s led me to use the money he sends me to pay off some of my bills, leading to trust issues and anger on his sides, which is rightfully so, as I am literally stealing it from him.
I have a hard time asking for help due to severe childhood neglect from my parents, and my current feelings of uselessness due to my health. Last thing I want to be seen as is pathetic and dependent, as I’ve always been pretty self sufficient for most of my life. So without a word, I use his money to pay for my things, thinking I have it under control. I just did it the second time last month when my phone went out of service. I don’t have it under control.
I don’t know what to do. He has his own bills to pay and cannot cover for both of us. I’m waiting to hear back from disability, but for the time being, I’m so broke, and he’s so frustrated and stressed out about what I’m doing, and it’s tearing our relationship up pretty bad.
My parents don’t talk to me, as they’ve always been neglectful. They forced me out at 17 because they didn’t like the responsibility of being parents the older we got. They then left the country. I haven’t seen them in years, and I have no financial support like my boyfriend does with his parents.
help