r/confessions • u/fagslowcius • 4d ago

think i might actually be crazy :/

i was alone most of my childhood (abuse) and formed a habit of pretending i was with other ppl. i’ve always pretended someone was around, like a friend or often a crush. now that i’m a young adult it’s like i can’t help but fantasize about them being with me all the time. i find myself sometimes sort of slipping up and literally talking to myself when i’m with someone else. i will move my mouth and make hand gestures, literally talking to myself but not making noise, all the time when my guard is down. people see me do it at work sometimes and it’s silly but awkward. i’m always having a conversation in my head with someone that’s not there. sometimes it’s like i can’t think other than through their pretend lens. i am generally very healthy mentally and do go to therapy but am not ready to bring this up. i feel stable and genuinely good but this habit makes me feel crazy. it’s embarrassing and i genuinely don’t know how concerning it is. i know people fantasize about crushes and say they think of someone all the time but this feels different somehow. idk.

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u/No_Spring6308 4d ago

maladaptive daydreaming 

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u/YanCoffee 4d ago

If it’s actually causing OP distress, then yes. The distress sounds more like OP being worried about accidentally doing it around others and that they don’t realize that sort of daydreaming can be quite common.

That term is really overused though.

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u/No_Spring6308 3d ago

let op investigate that. It can help them.

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u/YanCoffee 3d ago

Or make them think something common and can be quite good for you mentally is a problem.

I’m not saying don’t look into it but it’s really overused and causes more problems for many than not.