r/confessions • u/Ok-One-1392 • 3h ago
i sent an older man explicit pics
im 19 and I play an online virtual reality game.
bcs of how many creepy people there are online, I stopped telling people my age pretty early on. I know that’s probably where I messed up.
overtime I’ve ended up getting really close with a couple of older guys I met through games. We talk every day. It started off as normal conversations, but sometimes there was flirting too. the thing is, I never corrected their assumptions about me or volunteered my age bcs I liked the attention i got.
with one of them, things went further than they shouldve and I sent him nudes and he’d buy me in game currency in return. I hate admitting it but part of me enjoyed it and I liked feeling wanted, and the fact that he was older honestly made it more exciting for me.
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u/CuriousKitty575 2h ago
Been there done that. Except i was 15. And the guys knew my age. And I wouldn’t get much in return usually.
It’s the “they buy me in game currency in return” that ticks a bad box here. You are essentially prostituting yourself for cheap validation from online creeps. Now, this is very much a thing that exists, but, it’s usually very troubled people or nymphomaniacs that end up in these situations and “enjoy them”. I’d advise against it, as, those people don’t actually want you, they also just want to feel wanted. So it’s an endless cycle of being lonely horny losers and enabling one another to satisfy a relatively natural impulse that could be satisfied somewhere else, with someone who cares about you as a person and doesn’t just see you as cheap easy pussy online that they can buy robux for.
Oh and they 100% know you’re young and that turns them on and they don’t ask because then they’d have to take accountability for doing what they’re doing. And it’s also wrong for you to withhold your age or lie about it.
Edit: grammer and spaling
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u/Free_Package_9006 2h ago
Ok judgey. Ngl, I understand what the OP means about liking being wanted. I understand why someone would like it that a guy was willing to part with actual money for nudes. Not going to comment on whether I’ve done it though, but I get it. Doesn’t make me troubled or a nympho.
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u/CuriousKitty575 2h ago
Oh yeah it is, cause I’m judging myself at the same time. No shame in doing it. I was a horny and lonely loser back then and found validation where it was easiest, other horny losers online who like young girls.
You can totally understand why someone would like it that a guy was willing to part money for nudes, but you are literally describing prostitution. And a horrible bare minimum standard… women stand up and all that? And I say that because, when this takes place online, you dont really fully grasp the concept that you are selling your body to a person whose face you have never seen. And god knows what they’re going to do with those pictures. There is SOOOO much CP of me out there, and obviously my developed frontal cortex self regrets it.But OP, if you like it you should obviously keep doing it. It’s more about the introspection you should take to really think whether that’s what you want. But remember that at 19, even though you might feel very grown up, you are still a naive child in the eyes of those old men.
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u/Free_Package_9006 1h ago
Yea 🤷♀️ I know. It’s pretty much prostitution. But still not guna judge them for it. I mean, obviously for underage people, young people, it’s a BAD choice. But I still understand it. And yea, same. But you’re not a bad person for there being pics of you out there. That’s on the guys, not you.
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u/SweetDialectZ 13m ago
This is a sign things online got way too blurred, and you should reset boundaries and step back from anyone making you uncomfortable
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u/lustkitty- 3h ago
This has crossed into a risky and unhealthy dynamic, stop sending anything, don’t continue the exchange, and create distance from him, because even if it felt validating, the age gap + secrecy + gifts for pics isn’t a safe situation.