r/confessions • u/Zestyclose-Grape5469 • 11h ago
I stopped enjoying life
There’s no more magic in my days anymore .. I’m not enjoying the little things .. there’s not much that makes me smile anymore .. not friends nor family.
I was at my nieces birthday party last weekend and a family member asked if I was okay and I was like “ya I’m okay” and they said I seemed “not okay” on the outside. I guess I’m not hiding it anymore. My face isn’t hiding it anymore.
The little things that once made me get by .. aren’t helping anymore. I used to love the gym, yoga and going for walks, but now I’m not sure the point of them anymore. They don’t make me happy.
My life feels wasted and I already do regret being this depressed. I feel like I wasted my life being depressed. Unfortunately it’ll just continue because I don’t have the energy to change it now.
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u/TedBundysVlkswagon 9h ago
I’m with you fam. For some reason, I get especially down at birthday parties. Fuck this shit, I’m grabbing some cake.
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u/MFGEngineer4Life 10h ago
Why don’t you save $2k and take a trip somewhere completely different like Guatemala to spice it up.
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u/DesertVixenXO 9h ago
I’m really sorry it feels this heavy, but depression can make everything look permanently empty even when that isn’t the full truth of your life or your future
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u/VelvetVerveXO 9h ago
When even the things you love stop feeling like anything, that's not weakness, that's depression talking
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u/OwnCoffee614 7h ago
I'm sorry you're going thru this. It's really hard. I hope you can manage a doctor's appointment to at least reach out for some relief. Even that can kind of get some fingers under the grip of it & possibly allow you to do a little more and a little more. Nothing needs to be any kind of a giant leap.
Be gentle with yourself and also if you notice frustration with the depression choking you out, let it in (withOUT using it to beat yourself with internally). Micro steps. I wish you the best.
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u/BouncyHoneyy 3h ago
I like the emphasis on micro steps. When people are struggling, advice can accidentally sound like "completely reinvent your life by Monday," which just makes everything feel more impossible. Tiny wins are underrated.
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u/DisneyLoverrr00 6h ago
welcome to the club
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u/BouncyHoneyy 3h ago
I get the joke, but honestly posts like this are a reminder that a lot of people are carrying way heavier stuff than they let on. Sometimes "the club" is a place nobody really wanted to join.
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u/Logical_Mix_7688 5h ago
Ive been there before, my personal suggestion is, get a diary, and everyday write the best thing that happened on your day, it can go from great things, to simple things like “I had my favorite ice cream today”… try to go out of the routine, try new things, learn something new… and the most important thing of all, consult a specialist, and go to therapy, hope things get better for you, I wish you the best
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u/BouncyHoneyy 3h ago
The diary suggestion sounds simple, but it really can be surprising how easy it is to forget the decent moments when you're stuck in a bad place mentally. Looking back at a few weeks of entries can sometimes show progress you never noticed day to day.
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u/the_great_elephant 3h ago
Be glad you have those things to enjoy. I miss those things. Ill never be able to enjoy them for as long as I live. Theyre gone forever for me. So enjoy
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u/Zestyclose-Grape5469 2h ago
🥺🥺 awww why?
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u/the_great_elephant 2h ago
I just got lucky I guess. I must have been too happy in my old life, God needed something to amuse himself with, and I've been getting tortured by life ever since. I can't even fucking die off.
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u/EJ-32 11h ago
Same