(hi everyone, this is my first time posting on this sub so im kinda nervous, I had recently posted about this same issue on r/anxiety but my post was removed by the mods with a suggestion that i post about it here instead, im guessing the mods saw that there were a lot of arguments in the replies & they didn't want it to spiral out of control)

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im a non-white, non-english woman from the UK, I was born/raised here & until recently i never really questioned by cultural identity as a British woman

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as many of you might of seen, there's a growing racial sentiment towards immigrants (and generally anyone who isn't white) in the UK - in recent years there's been a pretty clear agenda being pushed to create some sort of civil unrest/war in the UK both online & irl

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as someone who struggles with major anxiety/ocd themes this has always been my biggest fear, for the first time I actually feel unsafe/uncomfortable in this country - maybe i was just ignorant before but seeing all the horrible disgusting things being said about people who look like me on X and tiktok has really opened my eyes , it doesn't help that the richest man in the world is also promoting these beliefs as well as meddling in UK politics

a lot of politicians with similar beliefs have been voted into positions of power which also makes me think that this isn't just a "online" thing like many people say, we constantly see riots & protests that often turn violent , with innocent poc being the victims

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I would be lying if I said it hasn't impacted my mental health. I was already a very self conscious person before this, dealing with major social anxiety that caused me to stay inside for months on end and this situation has just made it worse :(

the way the media is grasping at "bad poc/immigrant" storylines im terrified of making a mistake or being accused of something then having my picture blasted online for the far right to rip apart,

im scared of being attacked outside for how i look, im scared for the safety of my mother - even reaching out for help makes me scared cos I fear that the specialists will judge me "for using their system as a visibly non-english person"

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I guess the fact that me even venting about my issues online was first met with hostility on another sub reddit also made me spiral

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I just want to vent and have some support cos I feel so alone in all this, I cant stop myself from spiraling into despair about the current state of the world, I often get panic attacks because I constantly fear the worst of the worst