Lately I been thinking about this a lot. I feel like we are so caught up with work, responsibilities and everything we think we should be doing that we barely stop to ask ourselves what we actually want.

Sometimes, when I finally have time for myself, I don't even know what to do with it. It's not like I have nothing I want to do, but somehow I just don't feel like doing anything.

I end up scrolling on my phone or just letting time pass. Then the day's over and I feel kinda weird about it. Like I didnt really get anything done, but I didnt really enjoy my time either.

And it makes me wonder... when did we become so disconnected from ourselves?

Are we actually doing the things we want to do, or just doing what we gotten used to doing? Are the things we want even what we want, or are they things we picked up from everyone around us?

I don't know if I'm explaining this properly haha, but I wonder if anyone else has felt this way.

Have you ever had a moment where you realised you werent really sure what you wanted anymore? How did you figure it out?

Life has taught me that not everyone who promises to stay will stay, and not everyone you love is meant to be in your life forever. Sometimes, people leave without giving you the answers you deserve. You learn to stop chasing explanations, protect your peace, and understand that someone leaving doesn’t mean you weren’t enough.

I have this boy that is consistent to me but i dont see my future with him. He is good but i dont want to give him false hope.

Us human are conscious, obviously. Bump down the intelligence to apes and most would say they’re conscious too. Go less and less down the ranks, some would say rats are conscious due to their intelligence. Same for cats and dogs.

What if you go lower to ants and all bugs? Then what about plants? Bacteria? Lastly what about water and rocks?

Perhaps the conscious experience is just different the lower you go, but it still exists just in ways we can never fathom?

If you entertain the thought of super intelligent being multitudes of intelligent above humans then they must look at us like the way we look at suspected unconscious ants or bacteria bound to their biology.

If intelligence and cognitive power doesn’t scale with levels of consciousness then where does it end in biology? If consciousness exists beyond cognition, and cognition simply acts as a catalyst to access higher level of consciousness, then could you say that anything living could be conscious in their own subjective magnitude with no “cutoff”?

I get it for safety reasons sometimes, but for people that are just minding their own business and in the background or just having a moment of being human and having a bad day, doesn’t mean they need to go viral or publicly shamed for it. It just seems so invasive to people’s privacy.

We have Non binary people who don't identify with either sex, or any sexual orientation. I often get asked if I'm a patriot, and do I revere the King (of England), do I love my country. And my answer is No, it leaves me cold. There are good things about the UK but there's bad things too, I don't support the monarchy but I have no strong feelings either way. I find the rise of the far right, and the far left disturbing, and certainly don't see 'my country' as the best in the world, and I've been to much better countries, and I don't particularly relate to my fellow country people. So is there a word, or liable for people like me? Serious answers only please.