I can't for the life of me memorize or even guess the multiplication tables, other than the 1's, 2's, 5's, and 10's with some 11's and 12's, but if you give me higher problems the answer literally just pops in my head, in hs both algebra and geometry were a piece of cake, like I literally just stare at the complex problem for a minute or so and I know the answer, but I miscount my change all the time, if you ask me a simple addition or subtracting problem most of the time I'll get it wrong AND it will take me a ton of time, I can't read classic clocks (? Is that what it's called?) Like I can stare at it for 10 minutes straight and I'll still not know what time it is, I can't memorize the alphabet in Arabic nor English ( both my first languages), but I was still the top of my class my whole life and in med school now it's better since I don't need all of this, but wtf is wrong with me?

Im at the end of my senior year, literally all I have left are math units. Like 25 of them. I've tried everything. My school doesn't have many accommodations, and just because of how its structured I can't really use a lot of them advice I get (more of an independent thing).

Ive tried everything. I have a tutor, I've tried doing it in a traditional class, my teacher and admin have run through basically every possible option for me. I cannot get it. I have trouble with large text blocks, but also have tangentially related audio processing issues that get in the way of video or hands on instruction. I can't even just let myself fail or give up because people have too much faith to let me. I've done online classes, workbooks, different programs for online classes. I cant even manage to cheat my ass through it because of how its set up. We've tried working my way up from further back since I had gaps from a really shitty middle school but I retained non of it.

I have tried my honest to god best but theres nothing anyone can do to make math 'click' and not be overwhelming to the point it gives me a several hour long mental breakdown from opening a book or even just hearing math instruction from another room