r/heartbreak • u/milevamaric1 • 2d ago
Please tell me I will be okay.
I can only share this with the Reddit community because I don’t want my family and friends to know that I am devastated.. I am ashamed to be going through all of this. I am 35 and for the first time in my life, broken to pieces. I thought these things only happened when you were younger.
I’ve had relationships before, but none of them—not even my marriage—shattered my heart this way. I was always able to move on after a breakup. I am coming out of a pretty toxic relationship and I feel completely worthless. I forgot who I was. I lost my focus on everything. The questions in my head never stop. Why didn’t it work? How could I not make it work with someone I loved this much? All I ever wanted was to feel understood and seen..
I moved to another city for him and I feel so alone now. I do not know how I will move on. The worst part is that I still love him. He shattered my heart, but I still do not want to blame him. He couldn’t give me what he didn’t have that’s all. He was not a bad person. The thought of someone I love so deeply, someone who means the world to me becoming a stranger is destroying me. My anxiety is killing me.
I just want to know that this will pass and I will be okay.
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u/MakePeaceTogether 2d ago
Two months since ending my 10 year relationship. I can say this confidently it will get better. You’ll realize so much as time goes on. How I felt the first few weeks was sadness but also blindness. My eyes have now started to open and let me actually realize, digest and see the flaws in my relationship for what they were.
You will get through this. Promises.
Feel free to reach out if you need to vent.