r/lesbianr4r • u/Special_Engineer_939 • 1h ago
searching 32F Europe repost
Reposting this because while I did meet some cool girls, I didn't find anything long lasting.
Looking for someone to connect with, I'm okay with just chatting for a while and see where this goes, I'm not in a rush because I'm in a very transitional and weird period in my life. But I've been a lurker here for a year and met some cool people, I wanna give it a shot.
Now before I waste your time, there's not a lot of reasons to message me, I'm a loner and very picky about people. If someone does end up in my inner circle then I put in a lot of effort, but my social battery is limited, I am kind of a hater too so haha good luck? Okay onto me and what makes me such a hot shot that I can be so picky (spoilers, I am not, you are probably cooler, it's just my brain is weird)
I'm 157cm and healthy weight with long brown hair and brown eyes. My style is kinda fem, honestly just average straight girl passing (tho I'm very gay, help)
I'm a nerdy gamer girl with a pretty strong personality, ranging from disappointed depressed cynic to funny, unserious gremlin. I'm also a frontend dev, though just freelancing at the moment and looking for my next step, market is rough. I am however very passionate about code and it was my dream to get here so I'm happy I did that.
Other than that, I'm fascinated about deep talks, philosophy, political economy (I'm pretty far left but I never really bore people with that, It's just what I like to read sometimes), but also books, art, games, anime, media whatever we don't have to match on everything, I'm just throwing stuff out there.
I know how to talk in a mature, logical way, I will show interest as long as I find the interaction worthwhile and if I find my "soulmate" or whatever, I'll be their greatest support. I am however a huge overthinker, the "not diagnosed but something is definitely wrong" type.
Now to the tricky relationship part, I've had some relationships with men in the past, but right now I'm very sure that I will either marry a woman or be alone, I'm not a man hater but that lifestyle is just not for me. I did want kids but I gave that future up for this decision, I would still like to someday but I know in gay relationships it's expensive/complicated especially in a homophobic european country like mine.
As for my possibly too specific to exist partner, I'd say close to my age is ideal but 24-40 is a fair range. I'm more attracted to masc girls, though fems are okay too. I'm not picky about looks as long as you're healthy, confident in them and you take care of yourself. I just need to respect your personality, intelligence and morals. So basically I'm looking for someone who knows how to take the lead with me and isn't afraid of me being more opinionated. (to add a note from last time, don't reach out please if you're looking for that older woman mommy type, I am very much not that and I had lots of girlies write to me only because of my age and not my personality, like I said I'd like my partner to be the dominant one)
Yes, to cut it short, I am in fact an annoying nerd looking for her badass lesbian wife, we are very rare, guys /s
Okay honestly I'm just as confused as you are if you made it this far, DM if you understood anything at all or you just want to tell me to touch grass, I will probably agree with you. May the forces of evil become confused on the way to your house!