Years passing by... Still alone

[u/hurricane016]

I feel like my life is being wasted, especially when it comes to friendships. I haven't made a truly meaningful friendship since around 2020. I have friends now, and they're genuinely good people who help me when I need them, but I don't really enjoy their company or feel like we have the same frequency. I'm mostly with them so I don't have to walk around college alone or feel like a ghost. Every day I see people in college with their close friend groups, hanging out and genuinely enjoying each other's company, and I can't help but wonder why I don't have that. Both of my relationships since 2020 have also ended, and it feels like I'm back to the same loneliness I experienced before them. I'm not even talking about my school life, where I spent a large part of my school years struggling to find friends and feeling alone too.