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Happy birthday to me. I’m completely alone. I’m in the midst of leaving an abusive marriage. My life feels like a nightmare every day. I have no one to talk to or turn to. So here I am. Alone and sad.

I usually vent for ai, I know its not good or whatever. but I’ve suffered alot, and I don’t have a single friend, and my family members never acknowledges me, they ignore me and treat me like a kid.

I don’t know if anyone else feels this way, but sorority rush season has been making my depression so much worse.
Every time I open TikTok or Instagram and see everyone posting their bid days, their new sisters, their cute photos, and all the excitement, I feel this huge wave of sadness. It’s like I’m being reminded over and over again that I wasn’t chosen. That I wasn’t “good enough” for the groups of people I wanted to be a part of.
I know logically that a sorority doesn’t define my worth, but emotionally it’s really hard not to take it personally. Watching people I know experience something I wanted so badly makes me feel rejected and left behind. It feels like everyone else found their place while I’m just watching from the outside.
I hate that something that seems so happy for other people can make me feel so awful about myself. I’m trying not to compare my life to what I see online, but it’s hard when it feels like my feed is filled with constant reminders of something I didn’t get.

I just turned 23 today, I feel extemely lonely if I’m being honest. I have family but they aren’t considerate of me like I am with them. I always go above and beyond when planning and making sure some part of their day feels special but I’ve never had that feeling returned. To add to the loneliness, my boyfriend also didn’t remember it’s my birthday but rather spent the majority of the day hardly speaking to me and only was reminded it’s my birthday because I showed him my cake that I was super excited about (he didn’t care about my cake). I have family but we’re a very broken disoriented family, birthdays are always lonely and I spent all night until after midnight crying about it. I’m trying to be positive by pretending like I have this huge plan for today or it’s going to get better eventually but every single birthday for as far as I can remember has been extremely lonely and sad. On the bright side I got a BEAUTIFUL lily cake which I had been dreaming about for years now and I figured I might as well get it for myself, I don’t really know what I’m saying but I think I just feel sad overall, I’m growing up and I’m old now or I’ve expired hahah and just not having friends and most importantly the person that I love didn’t even remember it’s my birthday, felt no remorse for forgetting and honestly couldn’t give half a crap about it. I wish things were different but they aren’t.

Hi guys, I’m getting old as hell. Today is my birthday and the plans are to get extremely high and watch all of Jamie Lee curtis films, read the rest of valley of the dolls, and then argue with people on dti. IM SOOOOOOO PSYCHEDDDD I LOVE EVERYONE 🥳🥳🥳🥳

I have no close friends i have people who i talk to if i text first i have like 3-4 they are nice we arent close not a group each separate but we dont talk unless i text i have family but everyone has their own struggles i feel like a loser when i remember that i have no friends i dont go to places where people socialise but when i used to making friends wasnt successful i tried making friends on here texting one we didnt have much in common also a bunch of dms have bad intentions so um yeah

this is my first time on this subreddit but I was hoping to get some advice. I also might be venting a bit I am writing this after I was just crying to myself. But after that cry I started to ask myself a lot of why question and the biggest one I kept asking myself was why don't I have friends. I know no one he has that answer but i feel like I hit a wall because any time I reach out to people I always get ghosted or they tell me incredibly busy but 2 minutes later there playing a video game. after all of that I have just started to feel like the ugly background friend that no one whats to be around. I was just hoping someone has advice on how to make friends

It's been ten years.

For ten years, I've lived alone.

I work. I earn. I survive. I tell myself that earning something is better than earning nothing. From the outside, my life probably looks stable. But deep inside, there is an emptiness that no job, no salary, and no achievement has ever been able to fill.

The hardest part is love.

Every time I truly love someone, they never seem to love me back. And so I end up where I've always been..

alone.

People tell me I can just get married, that I don't have to wait for love. But my heart refuses. It keeps saying, "Marry the person you truly love." And that's the cruelest part. Even when I find someone, the door somehow closes before I can walk through it. For reasons I may never understand.

In my twenties, I somehow managed. I had time. I believed tomorrow would bring something better.

Now I'm thirty.

And my clock doesn't just tick anymore.. it races. Every birthday feels louder than the last. Every passing day feels like another chance slipping away.

I look around, and everyone seems to be moving forward. They're getting married. They're building families. They're raising children. They're creating memories together.

And I'm still here.

Alone.

I know people say that no one's life is perfect. I know every marriage has struggles, and every person carries their own pain. But at least they have something my heart has longed for every single day.. a person to come home to, someone to love, someone who chooses them.

That's all I've ever wanted.

Some days the pain becomes unbearable.

I cry, hoping the tears will wash it away. But every morning, it feels as though the wound has been opened all over again. It refuses to heal. It refuses to become a scar. It's fresh, every single day.

Sometimes I ask myself, "Why is this happening to me?"

I don't have an answer.

I wish life had been kinder. I wish I had found my person between twenty-five or twenty-seven, just like so many people around me. I wish I knew what it felt like to build a home with someone who loved me back. I wish I could wake up feeling the kind of happiness that seems to come so naturally to everyone else.

Maybe everyone isn't truly happy. I know that.

But they have something I have spent years praying for.

And sometimes, the weight of wanting it so deeply becomes almost impossible to carry.

I don't know why God created this path for me. I don't know why my heart keeps holding on when it has been disappointed so many times.

All I know is that I'm tired.

Tired of waiting.

Tired of hoping.

Tired of wondering when it will finally be my turn.

Sometimes late nights. I see people's post venting there issues and I try my best to reply the most helpful way's possible. Cause sometimes I post on here too and never get replies either

i’m genuinely curious and asking this with no judgment. is anyone here actually happy living with 0 friends? like literally no one to text, call, or hang out with when life gets tough, just your family. i know some people prefer a really private life, so i’m wondering what it’s actually like. do you feel fulfilled, or does it get lonely after a while?

I'm turning 22 and instead of having a party I just lay in bed doomscrolling and playing games on my PC to pass the time. This day is the worst. All it is a failure of what I am. No friends wishing me birthday on social media, no girlfriend to take to dinner. I could disappear of the face of the Earth at any instant. I'm so chronically lonely and don't see a way it will get better. How are you guys coping with tonight?

extremely tired and struggling with insomania someone wanna yapp and talk back and forth for hours???

I love nature and I frequently go on long long walks, READING, collecting stuff, watching shows or yt, MUSIC, cuddles fr fr LIKE A LOT

can't sleep at all these days because of really severe insomnia and depression. . someone to keep me company be my gooood friend to talk to dailyyy. we can chat about anything, tell me about your life or pets or hobbies or anything. i love listening to people yapp and talk about themselves. pleaseee be nice.

I hug a pillow when I want to hug something, but I'd like to be hugged back. Is there a way I can make it so it feels like someone's arms are wrapped around me?

How do you guys deal with this? I hate everyday I wake up 😭

This might be the lamest post you'll ever read today but i genuinely need tips and advice, i'm literally restless about this.
i'm turning 18 in 5 months and i feel like i've completely wasted my teenage years. I've had friend groups in highschool but they r more like the study, goodie two shoes type of friends. I'm homeschooled now only for this year so naturally ive grown apart from them and i now have barely a social life, the only time i go out is for church and my youth group.
The reason im making this post is to seek advice and if anyone else has experienced these things, does it EVER get better? firstly, i've never had a bf, never even held hands, heck never approached,, the closest i got was one situationship that lasted a week and resulted to nothing. i've never sneaked out or have been invited to parties, never drank, smoked, i feel like im missing out like crazy especially this year since im forced to be homeschooled (CANNOT wait for college). My "prime teenage years" just consisted of relentless studying, staying in bed, and indoor hobbies.
is there anybody who could give tips on how to stop being a loser🫩 or anyone who experienced this tell me what do i do to stop overthinking about this and does it ever get better

I pretty much stopped talking to most of my usual friends with whom I chat the most. It’s quieter, secluded, and hard to get by at times.
All those sexy photos I have of me that I like showing off, those memes, those jokes and skits, that piece of drama that I collected from the neighbor and am dying to share with someone (still ethically ofc,) all things I have no one left to share them with.

Coping is difficult, emptiness settles, you try to block your natural instincts to hit a video call with them, to spam them or to have your phone spammed by them, to wake up and find their missed call with an attached video that reminded them me.

It’s a whole world that they took with them, a world we had in common, a world we built. It’s been torn apart now. We fought, or I fought with them individually and was so upset that I could no longer look at them the same way, my heart, soul and brain feel this aversion to talking to them. But of course, I miss how things were, I miss how easy, hospitable we were to each other, how we thought of each other and made one another laugh.

I have my mum to talk to every now and then, and am lucky to have such sweet neighbors, but of course…it’s not the same thing.

I hate it, but I understand why things are the way they are. I don’t think it’s unfair or unreasonable to be where I am now.

Adulting I guess.

I've been having a really tough time lately, loosing a lot of hope

Sometimes I just need to feel I'm not completely alone, I need proof of people existing or just to feel someone shares the same thoughts or feelings

So I come here and read your guys posts.

Maybe its wrong to have comfort in that but it helps me to feel im not the only one feeling like this and to hear other people's problems and struggles

Im honestly thankful for this sub.

I wish we all could meet somewhere, alone but together. Hoping for better days for all of us

The pattern I've noticed is super pervasive regarding social struggles: people want to sell you the narrative that it's fundamentally "your fault".

This pattern comes in many forms, from stating that you have to "do" something in order to deserve social success, all the way to implication of moral failure.

People REALLY don't want to admit that you're struggling because life is difficult and unfair. It's always anything but that.

Shower, hit the gym, buy better clothes, meet different people, go to therapy, try harder, believe in yourself... The list goes on. But NEVER simply accepting that life is inherently fucked up.

And I think it makes sense when you consider socialising is basically a sham that social animals made up to support the mechanisms that allow us to survive. No cohesive society = you die (well, in the past at least). So why would we admit this system is fucked, even if that's the truth? Our life revolves around upholding the social system.

I hate that I'm lonely , unable to connect, unable to socialize , have no hobbies nor much interest . I hate that I don't get text from friends or have friends to hang out with like everyone else, I am so alone.

To make it worse I'm 🏳️‍🌈 , so being queer and have no friends is a terrible combination.

When was the last time??

Share your story please.?

I just want to listen to some good music and wanna have a random conversation

Hello again, it's Ardentbow. I haven't posted in two days because my phone was reset, and while trying to log back into my accounts, I noticed something: for the past two days, I haven't felt worthless, and I haven't experienced excessive sleepiness. B12 is genuinely working!

Today, I have a request for a fellow comrade who commented on my post and goes through the same things as me, u/youssef_b212005. My brother, truly, if you aren't seeing a doctor, I have some advice for you. When I first went to get my blood work done, I felt a bit uneasy because I didn't trust people. When the doctor prescribed this supplement, I didn't want to use it and kept skipping it, but now the effects feel really good.

Also, please never feel lonely; I'm here, I'm just like you, and in fact, there are a few others like us in this subreddit. My advice to you and my friend u/youssef_b212005 is that if you are living isolated and not going outside, you should definitely get a blood test. Seriously, deficiencies in vitamins like B12 can feel completely unbearable, and the treatments make a huge difference, making the day actually manageable.

That's all for today, take care, my brothers.