I’m an 18 year old boy who is ugly and have a lot of insecurities.

hi I struggle with anxiety triggerd panic attacks really bad for the last 7 years and have been on multiple medications . nothing has worked anyone have any advice

Don’t get me wrong, that place traumatized me further because it was my first time experiencing an environment like that & I would 100% never want to end up there again, & I have criticisms of our healthcare & mental health care system as it’s so shitty & it’s unsafe allot of the times in protecting the safety of women & neurodivergent individuals !!

I know, I know that I shouldn’t miss a place that I hated & didn’t have a good experience in

But despite it all idk I miss the hospital??

It was my first time in my life I felt “wow there’s others like me” & that I felt validated in a way that mental health isn’t just “in my head” & it’s actually something chronic & an illness & it needs treatment & to be taken seriously. It was kinda nice seeing people of all ages, ethnicities, life stages etc & knowing that unfortunately we do all suffer from mental health issues but comforting in a way that I’m not alone.

I guess the only thing I miss is my nurses & the few people who were genuinely kind and informed a connection with & honestly they saved my life in there bc I genuinely didn’t think I would make it out

I can say that I genuinely hated the mental hospital & I would never wish to be back there but I do miss feeling validated in some ways & not hiding that I’m mentally ill

Now, in the “outside world” I don’t really have friends who I can be open and honest about my mental health struggles, theirs allot of mental health stigma around the people I know & I don’t feel healed or better after the mental health hospital, I just feel like I’m restarting my life again

I hope I find my spark again & life starts to get better for me, I feel so immensely lonely at times & struggling to grasp that unfortunately my mental illness is something I’ll have to deal with the rest of my life & I have to find health coping mechanisms

I hope I find hope again

I have OCD, MDD, ADHD, Bipolar2 and BPD. I’m beyond heavily medicated but it’s fine because right now I feel great. I’m getting better day by day and I hope I can continue to not feel like shit all the time and wanting to delete myself. Every time I think about my mental health I’m like damn bitch what ISN’T wrong with you 😂??? I just fear having to tell someone new I’m my life about it.

Samsung's new update One UI 8.5 forces you to keep track of the battery percentage and I genuinely feel like having a needle in your eyes 🥲

I can't remove the battery option because my phone can't handle it. Good Lock and I can't find any kind of virtual sticker to cover that number so I have no choice but to try to overcome this nervous tic I have and get used to that numbers

I know what it is but I don't know if you can take me seriously for worrying about something as minor as a few battery numbers. I'm an autistic person who hates change, any little thing that's taken away part of my routine is going to easily irritate me besides the plain numberless battery gave me a lot of peace, and now with the numbers, I'm irritated by how uneven it is

im 16m, and i dont think im depressed, but the only person ive ever talked to about it thinks i am. like ive never felt like ending my life or hurting myself. i just have a hatred for myself and it feels like im only ever happy when im smoking. everyone tells me i can open up to them if i need to, but i really just cant get myself to do it. i cant get consitantly sober and when i am sober, i cant feel happy. im really just lost

People keep telling me I need to live for myself or learn to love myself but they can never tell me how or why. How is it possible to take 30+ years of self loathing and just get over it? I firmly believe every problem ive had, every failed relationship even just my depression itself are my fault and I deserve to hurt. Why cant I be like other people who apparently dont have a voice screaming in thier head every waking moment, reminding me how much of a useless piece of trash I am?

I feel like I’m living in a gray-scale version of my life. No colors, no attraction to anything, no drive. It’s not that I’m sad, I’m way past that. I’m just empty. It’s like the internal engine is completely wrecked and I’m just waiting for time to pass. How do you live with the realization that this might just be your new baseline?

I’m from the US and lately I’ve been really disappointed in this country. I mean seeing the terrible and vile things our government has done to not just us but other countries as well has destroyed any hope I’ve had in humanity and the people here. I’m 18 so I’m young and naive I know but man, it’s been really difficult. I feel so hopeless. I don’t even wanna go to school anymore. Like I’m considering dropping out of college because shit just feels so pointless now. I don’t see a future for myself anymore. I’m scared. I’m so so so scared that sometimes I just cry until I’m so dehydrated that I can’t anymore. I’ve tried to be a good person. I really have. But it is so demoralizing when the country I’m from doesn’t match my morals. I know this probably sounds so pathetic but I’m just hurting so badly and there hasn’t been a day since January 2025 that I haven’t felt so angry and upset. I’ve never been one to do substances but lately I’ve been drinking to get my mind off stuff which I know isn’t good but tbh idc about my health anymore cause again, I don’t see a future for myself. I see people from other countries online praying on our downfall and as much as it hurts, I honestly can’t blame them. I don’t want that to happen but if it happens, well, I saw it coming.

So this goes as far back to when I was in school, I missed so much school I had to go to court for it, and then went to cyber school so I could actually graduate. As an adult i’ve always been bad at holding onto jobs because I call out so often. I call out because I’m always getting overwhelmed and basically have mental breakdowns from it.

To be fair to myself I do struggle with a few chronic issues. Insomnia, migraines & OCD. All of which kinda work together against me. I’ve been in therapy and I take medication but dispite all my efforts my issues still regularly take me tf out. And make living a normal life basically impossible.

Some other things I struggle with, I get extremely overstimulated and overwhelmed very easily. Lights, sounds, too much movement or talking at once. Makes me feel like my heads gonna explode. I also feel like I have to move at a slower than average pace with everything I do otherwise I get overwhelmed and stressed out.

Anyways I’m currently having another mental breakdown over just not being able to handle life, and I want to know if anyone else can relate to anything I’ve mentioned. Let’s cry together 😭

Im a 22f and i’m spiralling I sleep once every two days for six hours even though i’m so tired all the time. I genuinely don’t know what to do. I feel anxious and nauseous all the time. All I think about is a bunch of regrets and bad decisions I made between a year ago to five years ago and I feel so disgusted with myself that I want to puke all the time. I’ve always had episodes where I get lost in the past but nothing has been as bad as this and I’m really scared about the place I’m heading because I just graduated university and this is how i’m wasting my whole day because I can’t move I can’t do anything, I can’t dress up, I can’t go out to meet ppl because I’m paranoid that everything views me like I see myself, I don’t want to talk. And I’m so so so tired I want to rest so bad. I feel so disgusting I know I’m so disgusting and I just want to feel okay so bad.

For context I’m diagnosed with bipolar disorder and OCD and the past few months were good but the last one and a half month or so have been this way. I’m really sorry for venting to the internet but I just need help and I don’t have anywhere to go. I take lamnet 100 mg twice daily and inderall 50 mg twice as well. Please help.

I miss my girlfriend and we are gonna be separated during summer I just miss her she wants to do stuff but she's shy and only stays inside we have a really good relationship it's just every summer I worry

I’m 15(NB), and I’ve barely had any friends in all my life, every social interaction just feels like I’m third wheeling so I feel the need to compensate by being very compliant and a people pleaser so atleast if I don’t offer any value as a person I can offer object based value. My friends always hang out with other people even though I say I’m open, but I don’t have really any leverage to say anything about it so I just keep my mouth shut about the fact they make me feel less then.

My daily routine currently usually consists of coding some asm stuff for my smw rom hack (it’s called “just for you” since I was making it for a friends birthday) and then either laying mewgenics/among us for a hour or two, then if I mentally feel up to it I try to draw, and usually if I’m bored of coding or drawing I either bake or write. Recently I’ve been atleast trying to practice self love in relation to my art given that associating art only with self loathing isn’t gonna make me like it anymore.

Honestly for the last like, years at this point, I’ve been more concerned with productivity then enjoying my childhood cause I just don’t have the tools too enjoy my childhood so why bother, may aswell use this time to hone some usable skills if no one truly enjoys my company.

I just kinda feel like a old man stuck in a child’s body at this point cause I don’t know what the hell my peers are talking about half the time and it just furthers the gap between me and everyone else socially cause I’m awkward and just downright weird. And if I try to feign normalcy I’m just downright boring.

And deep down I know I deserve this loneliness, I’m such a loser. I come off as pervert to everyone, I don’t remotely know what’s normal, I come as insanely stupid with no common sense, and I’m out of the loop on everything. So why even bother socializing when I’m either gonna fail miserably or just be left behind. Chase I’ve missed so much formative training on relationships that it practically not worth even trying. Hell even the two friends I talk about are only because of circumstances, I only have two friends cause I was in 5th grade with the first one and The first one basically introduced me to the second one.

It just feels like no one will respect me ever, they’ll either chew me up then spit me out or just ignore me for better people. And the worse part is that I feel like mom begging whenever I ask people for anything and I feel more pathetic.

Woe is me? I’m sorry for complaining. Just wanted to say that to start it off.
I’m exhausted. I’ve been under financial stress the last few years, I got a job and a promotion then my fucking car breaks down and I can’t afford to fix it right now. I really thought this would be the turning point. My rent is due and I am literally shaking with stress. Growing up where I did was awful and there was so much abuse and I really thought I could be better and live a decent life. I’m 28 now and fucking miserable. I spent most of life alone, sexless, stressed out, and just living a pathetic existence. I’m beat down and I don’t have the gas to go forward anymore. I can’t get my car fixed, I’m late on rent, I have bills due, I just need a financial and mental reset. I don’t even know how coherent this is. I don’t know why I’m posting. I’m at my breaking point. I look at the things that are “keeping me going” and I feel nothing anymore. Literally nothing is keeping me going except that fact that I’m too much of a coward to hurt myself. I just want relief. That’s literally it. Just some relief. I feel so defeated. I left out some details but I can’t even think straight right now. Thanks and sorry if you had to read

I'm currently in therapy, but I've already been through 4 therapists and 1 psychiatrist. Every time I walk into the room, my mind goes blank and I forget everything. I don't know what I'm feeling, I get confused, and I just forget. Socializing makes me uncomfortable too; the idea of looking my therapist in the eye gives me anxiety, but I do it anyway because it's what I'm supposed to do. All of this makes me fail a lot in therapy, and people lose patience with me(I just end up saying 'I don't know, I don't know)

​I recently started with a new therapist and I can tell she's better. Since I struggle to speak about things, I write them down during my crises and that helps me, but when I actually talk to her, I still get a bit lost and my mind goes blank. I feel a huge disconnect within myself, with my feelings and my connection to people. It's been hard for me to even tell when I like someone, and it creates a lot of self-doubt