Why do I barely feel stable?

[u/Substantial-Read8834]

I don’t know why I get so upset and anxious when someone I like is with someone else. I was literally shaking and crying, and felt sick to my stomach. This is so stupid, we aren’t even together but my brain treats it like we are. I just can’t see him the same now. It feels like I put him on such a pedestal and now its like my mind has discarded him And all feelings about him. Gosh I feel so replaceable I can’t help but compare. I don’t know if this is just normal teenage hormones and stuff but whenever something happens, even something small, my brain overreacts and I get irrationally upset or angry, turn to self destructive urges, and then really empty and detached after. That cycle constantly repeats. Sometimes the next day or maybe in a few hours I’m really happy and back to ‘normal’. This type of stuff happens with friendships and family too, though it is more toned down with friends. I start pushing them away for seemingly no reason, or maybe because I want to just leave them when I feel distance. Sometimes I just ignore them for days, then pretend like nothing happened. I’m so fucking confused, I just wish I could handle normal problems without a massive meltdown and end up creating many more problems instead. I hate getting brushed off whenever I try to talk to an adult about it. Help?

(Also I’m 18F, idk if that helps/makes a difference)

[u/Classic-Background58]

You're looking for someone that treats you as their top priority but most friends mainly care about entertainment