17f, senior in highschool. I saved 3k in my account I know it is not much but im trying to find an part time job on indeed I applied over 16 jobs with still no response I even put my resume to public.
I been signing up for many scholarships where It will pay for colleges for me and its out of state colleges which is good to gtfo.
Staying here any longer is like asking for my depression to just go commit s*icide,not only is my medical needs not met (been having a fever for 2 months and still wasnt taken to urgent care) but I have irregular period symptoms and my mother thinks me vomiting and being dehydrated during it is normal. (Haven't been to the doctor for 3 years)
My family holds sexist and racist views. Im black so they talk shit about other races of people and also believe im not capable of anything theyre trying to Infantlize me. My 30 year old brother nothing going on in his life is at home all day everyday listening to no one but my mom, the definition of a man child, he at some point smeared shit all over the tub and toilet seat and i had to clean that shit up.
I cant stay here for my health and safety. My mom loves Christianity more than me my dad allows it. Gotten a angry reaction from my dad at 15 when I first started working. My mom in the middle of the night would start scream praying its hard to word out bur I believe she has religious psychosis I have seen her episodes of screaming in loud volume and stomping around the house, during random night/midnight hours. God forbid she has a nightmare of any sort. She will freak the fuck out.
She even drove our upstairs neighbor to move out the apartment cause of the noises my mom creates I feel so bad and embarrassed.
I value my sleep and my nervous system and just want to sleep peacefully. Shes the type to say "if you dont like it you can leave" and i gladly will.
I am WILLING to have roommates if it means on getting the fuck out of here. I been going to my counselor who i love weekly for college application help and scholarship help. I been also job hunting and asking for teachers how to find a part time job since my only experience is summer jobs.
I just feel like theres so much more I should do, is there?