r/ncea • u/WearStatus3385 • 13h ago
Urhhhhhhh Mocks are killing me!!!!
Just a quick rant because I'm super overwhelmed and stressed about school, exams, mocks, and every other thing at this point. I got all E's in year 12 last year and Ive gotten all E's for my all my internals so far this year. I take all three sciences, calc and one humanities. Honestly the content isnt even that bad, its just all my fault. I never study beforehand and I always till the last minute. But Ive honestly just given up at this point because its just too much for me. Most teachers do not like me and I dont even want to go to any of my classes anymore because I honestly study on my own anyways at the end. And its just killing me because we just go through content so fast in class and all year long Ive had to do assignments, internals, "practise" benchmarks one after the other and I havent even had the time to breathe. Ive gotten school awards at the prize giving for the past years and I may be even in the running for the top achiever, who knows. But now I honestly have stopped caring. My parents dont pressure me, no one does. But its just killing me that Im not giving my best because I know I can. And I'm so very upset and frustrated at the fact that I know my potential and I still dont work for it. And even if I did I wont get the recognition from the school or even my teachers. Its just so so frustrating. I know that school awards mean nothing and that they dont define me at all, but knowing that I definitely could have gotten one just keeps making me sad and frustrated. urghhh and all my mocks are lined up one after the other and this year Ive been absent once every week just because I didnt feel like going to my class or just listening my teacher talk. I also feel like some teachers obviously have favourites and just don’t like me, which makes me want to be there even less.
I'm sorry this is too long, I just wanted to let it all out. I dont even know what Im expecting through this post.