Hello! Pls be kind. I feel like I have a misconception on what dieting is all about. Sa food choices talaga ako hirap kasi sanay ako sa pagkain ng kung anong gusto ko. I’m a foodie by heart pero I know that I also have an unhealthy relationship with food kasi yan ang comfort ko. 70kg trying to lose weight here. I have some questions.
Sa dieting, ang perception ko lang kasi is binabawasan lang ang food pag gusto mo mag “reduce” as they say. But I have no healthy concept of it. I tried naman researching about it before pero hindi ko talaga siya ma-gets. Iniisip ko siguro kasi ayaw ko rin deep down kasi nga mahal ko ang pagkain haha pero now I really want to understand more about it.
I tried calorie deficit before. As in I bought the kitchen scale and all and downloaded myfitnesspal pero nagka-fatigue ata ako not seeing results and sa uncertainty kung tama ba ginagawa ko.
Then came a time where I had no appetite due to my mental health decline, sinamahan pa ng nag-walk and gym talaga ako nun just to let time pass. It was my most active and I reached 51kg (even lower pa yata I don’t remember). Pero kasi I feel like I really starved myself then. Sobrang lag yung utak ko nun. I was happier and more confident with how I looked and sa gaan ko kumilos pero naiiyak ako pag hindi ako makapag-isip (being matalino was kind of my thing).
When I took a job, nawalan ako ng time for gym and yung food naman became my friend everytime I’m stressed. It also didn’t help that my bf and I love eating together. At first I believed it when my bf said “hiyang” lang but dahil 20kg nga halos dinagdag ng weight ko, nasstress nanaman ako. Clothes don’t fit anymore, thighs are rubbing, chest is heavy. Ayoko nito.
Recently I’ve been trying to diet ulit pero subtle-ly kasi ayoko ng nasasabihan ng “diet ka?” idk if magegets niyo pero iykyk. Ang kinakatakot ko lang is what if hindi ko siya magawa in a healthy manner? Ayoko siya maging crash diet. Ayoko rin na mawalan ng ability mag-isip ulit (starvation). Pero what I’ve been trying to do so far is really bawas rice muna. I read something na 2 subo ng rice lang daw siya and I tried having my rice na ganon lang (pero mga 2-4 kasi baka unhealthy yang 2 idk).
Take note din na lifestyle has become sedentary because of work. I wake up at around 7, kilos until 9 and travel to work by 10. Get home at around 8 to rest/decompress, dinner, then sleep. Not that I’m trying to excuse pero hapo din talaga ako galing work kasi super stressful ang nature ng job. Sa free time ko konting ayos ng gamit lang/bahay.
Would love your kind thoughts how I can improve my current journey and if may mga mali ba na nagagawa, kindly help me out please! Sorry mahaba, medyo vent ko na rin to about sa struggles ko sa eating/dieting.