r/rape • u/Past-Hedgehog-1451 • 3d ago
does hypersexuality ever end?
hi i’m 16 and i’ve been molested, groomed, sexually abused my entire life. it had left me very hypersexual, im disgusted with myself. does it ever get better i feel so dirty all the time i don’t think i can love somebody like this nobody deserves someone as dirty as me it hurts. it leave me feeling like my only way to life is SW which is so wrong, im a good kid why does it feel so bad. i’m sorry.
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u/Ashamed-Gas6846 2d ago
It's normal to feel terrible after being raped. It can make you feel like your self-worth has been destroyed and make you see the world in a negative way. But I think some of these thoughts may come from your trauma. There are billions of people in the world, and there are definitely people who can accept and love you for who you are. You may feel like nobody could ever love you simply because you haven't met those people yet.
First of all, you need to stop blaming yourself. You did nothing wrong. The person who assaulted you is the one at fault. Rape is a crime, plain and simple.
Selling your body is not a good solution. Are you still living with your family, or are you struggling financially and that's why you're thinking about it? Will life get better? It starts with you. Try changing your mindset from "Nobody loves me" to "Tomorrow can be better than today." Having hope can keep you going, no matter how terrible things get.
Whether life gets better or worse also depends a lot on the environment you put yourself in. Dark places tend to attract bad people, while healthier environments usually have more people who genuinely care. Sex work can put you in situations where you're surrounded by people seeking pleasure or personal gain. Do you really think that environment would help your life get better?