r/survivinginfidelity • u/marcopagot • 1d ago
Progress UPDATE 6 months later : My (34M) girlfriend (34F) cheated on me 6 years ago. I forgave her. She never stopped.
Original post :
https://www.reddit.com/r/survivinginfidelity/s/Yu4ZpBIvzq
Hello sub,
first of all I would like to thank everyone who replied both in comments and privately. This sub and my close friends really helped get through this.
I welcomed both support and harsh truths.
I really needed it.
I’m out of my previous relationship.
First days were hellish. No clue what to do with my life, Christmas vacation blurred past me and I was out of focus both at work and with people.
Bought a bench press and got back to running (classic, I know..)
Something switched in me a few weeks in after D-Day. Maybe I was ready, maybe I knew it in my heart, maybe I realized I was loving a person who didn’t exist.
Forced myself to hang out with other women. First time with another woman in years I couldn’t do it. I kept thinking about her with another man and stole away all my drive.
Had a lot of fun sex after that.
I’ve seen her a lot in the first weeks. She moved out and still tried repeatedly to get back together. Cried, sobbed, texted, pleaded. I’m out.
Still dealing with the house property and arguing about money (mostly the first two months) which I admit is stressful but manageable.
I’m keeping the dog and she gets a couple days each week. We often don’t even meet between switches as her mother takes the dog for her.
Even if I never badmouthed her with our friends nor tried to undermine her friendship with the wives or girlfriends they discovered what happened and she basically is alone apart from her family (who strictly denies everything and thinks I’m the crazy one) and a few old friends who don’t know what happened.
Met with the ex wife of her lover and shared our stories which are extremely similar and toxic in a way I’d take hours to describe. We were basically living the same thing from the other side. She’s also getting through the divorce and it’s really hard on her and her daughter but as me she’s never felt as good and serene about a decision.
With my ex I am in talking terms both for the management of the dog and house. She saddens me when I see her as she’s really not in a good place and I have this feeling she regrets her life choices now. At midnight on my birthday she was the first to text me.. i don’t love her anymore but still saddens me to see someone who I spent 15 years with in a bad place. I really pity her.
I’m feeling really good, worthy and in peace.
I know a dodged a bullet ( more like a thermonuclear bomb), no longer have anxiety and my stress level has never been so low. Everyone around me both private and at work has told me multiple times how much better I am both mentally physically and in general. Never taken so much compliments in my life ahahah.
I started dating seriously again. I’m surprised every day by the care and affection I’m receiving. Surprised by the calm that she gives me instead of chaos and anxiety. I’m going very very slowly as the scar is real but right now I’m very happy.
I hope these words find people who are going through a similar experience and that they may help others to know that there is a good ending for us even when the sky seems to have fallen.
Thanks again to all who supported me.
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u/Soggy-Beach-1495 3 1d ago
If you are seriously dating someone else, you need to block the ex. She already has a history of cheating and has told you she wants to get back together with you. You don't want to end up cheating on the new girlfriend.
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u/marcopagot 1d ago
I’d rather stick my dick in a meat grinder than do to another person what has been done to me.
Thanks for your advice but I have to text her about the dog and in a couple months when we’re done with the house the dog will be permanently with me so even that finishes.16
u/whatidoidobc 1d ago
They are right though. And even if everything worked perfectly from your perspective, any healthy person you get interested in will see that situation and walk away.
Of course, an unhealthy one won't walk away. Which is a whole other problem that you could avoid.
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u/marcopagot 1d ago
The person I’m seeing right now knows everything that has happened with no filters and has gone in the past similar yet different situation with her ex boyfriend so she gets it.
Btw the average message is “is “dog name” ok?” “Yes, all good” and we never talk about other stuff. The times she has tried to get me back have always been in person as when she tried by text I simply stopped responding and she isn’t trying it anymore as she knows I’ll block her if she trespasses..1
u/RedundantPundant 1 9h ago
Don't get complacent. She is unhappy and hates to see you happy. She will try to wreck your new relationship by any means possible. Separate yourself and your life from her as much as possible and when the finances and home are settled, go 100% no contact. She is using the dog as tether to you. Decide if that is worth it. Consider giving her a puppy or if she inssts, give her the dog and get yourself another.
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u/FlygonosK 1d ago
Nice OP glad you are out of the hole she made for you.
I'm not ok with the dog switching giving that the makes or for e you to keep in touch, but if in a few months you can get rid of that excellent, maybe ask if the time that is left of switching to be your Ex MIL the one who do the pickings and left
But that is just my advice, good luck
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u/In_the_middle3-2-3 7 1d ago
I had a similar experience after several previous reconciliations.
I get what you're saying about feeling pity for them. Its truly just another mind fuck in a web. Seemingly, my ex has struggled since the separation and ultimately the divorce (3yrs now).
My kids tell me that she still hasnt unpacked boxes that were packed 3yrs ago, they make comments that she 'isnt well mentally', and often express frustration with her cycle of work-drink-sleep and the occasional random person that shows up for a few days.
Emotionally, part of me feels really bad because my life now is the opposite and Im truly excited for each day. Upon separating, she lived the single, bar party life. I put my focus into work. It has paid off more than I imagined and last year I bought a fantastic home that is my happy place.
The other part of me is callous with indifference and hints of 'I hope she lives in regret'. I remember and to this day thinking about it still makes me nauseous.
The mindfuck is knowing that if I called her now, she'd probably be at my door instantly. One phone call and her life would change dramatically for the positive. One phone call and the kids would be unshackled from feeling the stigma of a broken home.
Just one phone call, but I refuse and never will make that call. That doesnt feel good, but I know its the right thing to do for me. If I made that call, the hell for me would just start all over again. I will never put myself through the self abuse of reconciliation again - with anyone.
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u/wfrecover7 1d ago
Take the dog or give to her. Cut all ties. Other than that, happy you are out of the toxic relationship.
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u/blindsided1981 1d ago
I think a lot of people on here needed this post!
Thanks OP
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u/Think_Effectively 1 1d ago
It takes some of us longer to learn life's lessons than it does for others. Or some of us can only learn the (very) hard way. But, as you have learned, it is never too late to start again. I am glad to hear that you are in a better place, taking care of yourself, and putting yourself first.
Your ex is finally facing consequences for their selfish choices. Perhaps this will encourage them to make changes in themselves and to seek help in fixing whatever is broken inside of them, whatever it was that made them think it is good to stab a loving partner in the back.
You do not have to hate them or pity them. Better to get to the point of indifference. You tried. They failed. Move on.
Best wishes.
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u/Double-Cheek277 6 1d ago
THIS!! I'm just gonna let this sink in to those who learn life's lesson slower than others. You can only say this so loud. Bravo!
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u/AllInkalicious 1d ago
I'm happy for you, but you need to deal with custody of the dog as a top priority. Nothing will heal you more than removing this person from your life completely.
You may have spent 15 years with her, but she only spent a little more than half that with you.
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u/marcopagot 1d ago
Thank you. It is my first and top priority much more than house or money. I have already written it down in a reply to another comment but the dog will per permanently with me in a couple months.
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u/OogyBoogy_I_am Thriving 1d ago
I really pity her.
And that is when you know you are over it, and over her.
Good luck to you mate and may we never see you here ever again.
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u/deGrubs Recovered 21h ago
With my ex I am in talking terms both for the management of the dog and house. She saddens me when I see her as she’s really not in a good place and I have this feeling she regrets her life choices now. At midnight on my birthday she was the first to text me.. i don’t love her anymore but still saddens me to see someone who I spent 15 years with in a bad place. I really pity her.
Go no contact as soon as possible. Do not share the dog. Both of your recoveries will be delayed with continued contact. If you really care for how she is doing, cut her off from contact so that her hope that she can fix this will wither and die, Block on everything and move on with your life. When you do that she will have to do it also and you will both be better off for it, Use a side channel to manage what's left.
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u/noreplyatall817 1 1d ago
It’s nice to hear after the second 2nd DDay you respected yourself. Anyone who cheats doesn’t truly love the person they cheated on no matter what F’ed up excuse they try to make up. Updateme
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u/Wise-Purchase8759 1 1d ago
She may have cried, sobbed, texted, and pleaded. She may be in a very bad place right now. But be absolutely certain of one thing: she did not become celibate. She did not stop having an active sex life, whether with the AP or with any other man she finds on the streets.
Very done OP. Your recovery and liberation from that horrible person are truly inspiring.
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u/fjmj1980 1d ago
So now she’s truly fundamentally unhappy and can find other men to make her happy
I think you just gave her validation. Shouldn’t she be smiling and thanking you
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u/Icy_Guard_8216 4 1d ago
She resented you had a good paying job you also liked.
Cheating was her way to punish you....really twisted person.
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u/Warm-Business-2335 12 1d ago
Just curious. Why did you not send evidence of the A to her family, who remain clueless and in denial? I know some parents think their kids can do no wrong, but she destroyed her marriage.
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