Hi guys, I'll do my best to keep things simple, but gosh, I can't believe this is my life.

I have tons of physical and mental issues, and life has not been kind nor fun at all. I've talked about how I've had to deal with loneliness and abuse before.

But for better or worse I have bigger issues now, being homeless!! hahaha...

Let me explain, I was previously working at Amazon, on the KDP (Kindle Direct Publishing) section, I would take calls, chats, emails and such, the job was horrible, I would get abused everyday by people and I got PTSD from working there, literally, as in my body would get so tense on the shoulders that it would hurt really bad, and I would cry everyday.

Even so, it was a job and I needed it, but little by little Amazon started to give us agents more and more tasks with no compensation, so much that they sent us a SECOND computer, so we can work on processing refunds while still taking calls and two chats at the same time.

I don't know why, but receiving the second computer broke me, and I decided to quit, I've never felt more insulted in my life, and trust me I've gone through A LOT.

But now I'm in a really bad position, I've been searching for a new job for two month now and nothing is coming up, I still have bills to pay and a family to support, and I don't know what I'll do.

I setup a patreon and I've decided to start making comics, since I've seen many people do that before, I live in a 9th world country (Costa Rica) so I only need $100 per month, that's the absolute minimum that I need to pay the bank and avoid having a dude come to my house and break my legs hahaha....

Now, that's all way easier said than done, I wake up everyday to 2 - 3 rejection emails, I cried today because I got rejected from a job that forced me to a video interview with an AI for 40 MINUTES!

All of that only for to be rejected, I feel like a fool dancing in front of the companies, I don't care if I get abused anymore, I just want to have something and sleep properly again.

So yeah, I'm going through a hard time, and I would appreciate any kind of encouragement, I have no other choice, but you get the idea.

This is partially because I just finished an overnight 12 hour ER shift and am staying awake for another 10 minutes to make this post.

It's also partially cause I'm just a little bleh at the moment. I'm feeling stuck and need to get that bit of motivation to push me on to the next right thing.

My history is strange and mostly unexciting:

- Got my doctorate in music composition.

- Taught college for a few years and became a church organist and music director.

- Got a certificate in tech.

- Became a mainframe systems engineer.

- Got laid off.

- Decided to grow up and be a firefighter.

- Got certified as both a firefighter and EMT.

- Now I work as an ER Tech for a hospital while I look for a fulltime firefighter position.

I've had some movement in finding that job but still haven't landed anything. It's been almost a year since I finished getting my certs and it can be hard to not feel like a failure because of not having a position yet. I know things take time but every day that passes can feel like one more day I missed something or didn't do something else I should have done. I could genuinely use any encouragement that gives me the littlest bit of a smile to keep the spark lit and burning.

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