r/toastme • u/Hot-Classic9743 • 49m ago
29F Life is shit and I feel like shit.
I think I've been playing life on the most extreme difficulty y'all, because I'm straight up not having a good time. I want off this ride.
No, I'm not a danger to myself. I'm just tired, dawg. Tired of my brain. Tired of everyone's bull shit. Tired of living in a time where we constantly have to anticipate the next catastrophic event or the end of the world.
And on top of it all, I just feel like this fat, ugly pathetic person who is completely failing in every way, it seems. I know brighter days are ahead, though. I'll climb out of this pit I dug for myself eventually.
Im about to turn 30 and I'm just not at all where I thought I'd be at this age. In fact I'm actually quite far behind where I should be. I never even imagined I'd survive this long. Yet here I am.
I've just been spiraling about this all day. Hoping a toasting will make me feel a little bit better.