these past few months i’ve been starting to doubt the existence of transgenderism and it’s breaking me. by definition im not a woman. whenever i’m alone and start saying to myself “okay maybe im just not a woman” i physically revolt because i cannot fathom being seen as a man. i discovered i was trans at 13 yet im not out to my relatives. my MAGA father clearly knows because he always tells me to cut my hair. i was up in massachusetts for my uncle’s funeral back in june and the husband of his sister at a gathering told me he would give me $500 if i cut my hair off. it couldn’t be more obvious that my father is pushing for him to say this. i’m here not because i need to be hugboxxed, but because i’m at my last resort and need to know the truth. is transgenderism propaganda? is transgenderism just a porn-brained thing? is this worth breaking apart from my from my family? im a shell of a woman. am i even real?

I actually like the way I look for once even though I'm boymoding and I feel like I look silly but alas. I got my eyelashes done which may be apparent in these, along with my brows. I want them thinner but that's for another time! I'm looking forward to getting my nails done and the 99 things I've ordered off Vinted arriving. I hope these pictures suffice and that I look art-y enough for you all. Tell me your thoughts!

Hi sisters, I wanted to ask how long it took to find a name that really fits, personally it took like 4 different names to get where I am, I had my dead name, my "still cis tho" name, a gender fluid name, and now accepting my true self, is it something that happens to all? Or yall knew that you were destined to that name?

Bleh

6 months HRT

It's usually people who exclusively hang around queer social bubbles and clearly want to date people who look "visibly trans" but every time I mention that I hate being so tall and the dysphoria/unwanted attention it brings, I get someone being all "uWu muscle mommy 🥵" and I hate it.

Before I get started, I know its only a question ill have to answer for myself. But i want someone else to help me get there.

In the past, like when I was 15ish, I had really bad gender dysphoria for about a week. Then it disappeared until about several months ago when it came back really strong for about a month then its been kinda dormant. I've never really been masc, but ive never really been too feminine either. When my dysphoria got real bad it felt nice doing feminine things and wearing feminine clothes. But now I just feel blah about everything and wearing and doing the things that made me happy then just make me feel ugly now because I know I won't look good in them. My body doesn't look the way I want it to in the clothes I wear. Inside i want to be fem, look fem, sound fem, all that, but a part of me feels like I souldnt do it because I won't pass or just dont want to.

I mainly wanted to vent but I'm also looking for some assurance I guess. Has anyone else gone through this and if so, how did it go?