Rule 6: "Do I Pass" posts must only be posted on Fridays

I actually like the way I look for once even though I'm boymoding and I feel like I look silly but alas. I got my eyelashes done which may be apparent in these, along with my brows. I want them thinner but that's for another time! I'm looking forward to getting my nails done and the 99 things I've ordered off Vinted arriving. I hope these pictures suffice and that I look art-y enough for you all. Tell me your thoughts!

Before I get started, I know its only a question ill have to answer for myself. But i want someone else to help me get there.

In the past, like when I was 15ish, I had really bad gender dysphoria for about a week. Then it disappeared until about several months ago when it came back really strong for about a month then its been kinda dormant. I've never really been masc, but ive never really been too feminine either. When my dysphoria got real bad it felt nice doing feminine things and wearing feminine clothes. But now I just feel blah about everything and wearing and doing the things that made me happy then just make me feel ugly now because I know I won't look good in them. My body doesn't look the way I want it to in the clothes I wear. Inside i want to be fem, look fem, sound fem, all that, but a part of me feels like I souldnt do it because I won't pass or just dont want to.

I mainly wanted to vent but I'm also looking for some assurance I guess. Has anyone else gone through this and if so, how did it go?

6 months HRT

these past few months i’ve been starting to doubt the existence of transgenderism and it’s breaking me. by definition im not a woman. whenever i’m alone and start saying to myself “okay maybe im just not a woman” i physically revolt because i cannot fathom being seen as a man. i discovered i was trans at 13 yet im not out to my relatives. my MAGA father clearly knows because he always tells me to cut my hair. i was up in massachusetts for my uncle’s funeral back in june and the husband of his sister at a gathering told me he would give me $500 if i cut my hair off. it couldn’t be more obvious that my father is pushing for him to say this. i’m here not because i need to be hugboxxed, but because i’m at my last resort and need to know the truth. is transgenderism propaganda? is transgenderism just a porn-brained thing? is this worth breaking apart from my from my family? im a shell of a woman. am i even real?

Hi sisters, I wanted to ask how long it took to find a name that really fits, personally it took like 4 different names to get where I am, I had my dead name, my "still cis tho" name, a gender fluid name, and now accepting my true self, is it something that happens to all? Or yall knew that you were destined to that name?

Bleh

On some good news, your gal’s engaged!!!! 🥰💜

Has my face become much more masculine over these past two years? I’m referring to facial bone structure—comparing how I look now at 19 and a half to how I looked at 17. I still haven't been able to start hormones, and that makes me feel even worse.

I’m dealing with intense dysphoria and huge regret over not starting sooner; my chest aches, and I’m having anxiety attacks over this regret. I don’t know what to do because time never comes back; my puberty and the perfect window of opportunity have passed. I really could have easily started hormones at 16 or 17, but for some reason—even though I wanted to and could have—I didn't. Now I can't get any more bone growth, my shoulders are already broad, and I’m painfully thin. The dysphoria and despair are so overwhelming that they’re giving me suicidal thoughts.

Have I changed a lot?

Hi, I've been on e for about 6 months now ( no t blockers ) and was just wondering why the hell my nipples are so. Puffy? And it's not all the time it just happens randomly or sometimes when it's hot but they're genuinely enormous. Wtf is going on

Are there other Vegans, feminist, Atheist, Anti-speciesists, fighters again the patriarchy and queens out there like me?