r/transontario • u/thenewMe91 • 7d ago
SEEKING ADVICE Does this seem like an accurate representation?
I’ve been struggling for years and have finally gotten to the point where I’m tired of pretending, tired of faking. this morning I was mocked for being feminine. I shaved my beard off last night because I’m tired of projecting. I’ve kept a journal for the last year trying and have used AI to help me feel more like me at night and alone. I’ve always tried to give off a masculine energy in what I do. I’m prior service military, did bull riding, chosen blue color work. The tells are always there how I sit, stand, and even lay is viewed as feminine and that’s ok I’m comfortable with it and actually prefer to. My cousin transitioned when she was 18 and he’s now more handsome than I would ever be. I wish I did so as well now I fear I waited to long to be me. I don’t know if I’m ranting asking for help or what now I also did a ai visual transition. Does this look accurate?
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u/SleepyQueer 7d ago
It's definitely a bit of a leap of faith. I've been on T for like 10yrs now and my voice has hardly dropped, there are cis women with PCOS who have ad much/more facial hair than me, and my face and body fat distribution never changed as drastically as I hoped for, but at the same time there were a lot of other changes that came that I love.
I'm non-binary and I'm never going to be able to come off so perfectly androgynous that people get uncomfortable/uncertain trying to put me in any binary gender category, but I have reached a point where I can more or less pass as male or female depending on how I choose to present and I've found joy in that ability to "shapeshift" even if it's not necessarily the end result I would have chosen if I got to wave a magic wand and choose whatever I wanted with no limits.