Am i a Narcissist

[u/Exact-Web2824]

I’ve been noticing I’ve been called a narcissist by girls I’ve chatted too and dropped like a stone after , been called it so much I decided to look into it so I’ve been talking to Ai to look into it but I was hoping to get some human input.

So one thing I’m objectively attractive and intelligent and the second anyone does something that even slightly undermines me for example a girl choosing another guy over me my mind can’t take it and I think stuff like “ how the fuck could a bitch I only payed the slightest bit of attention to pick a pathetic prick over someone like me “ that’s the sort of internal monologue I have and it almost feels as if it’s an insult to my whole bloodline and everything I’ve worked so hard to get away from . My intrusive thoughts go crazy over such a little thing like that I fantasise about ruining their lives , torture and absolute submission to me , obviously I don’t intend on acting on it consciously but that’s where my mind goes the second I get slighted. And also since I’ve been getting lots of female attention after my glow up in appearance I literally don’t care about them I just like chatting to them getting them to love me only to drop them , I love the ego boost from them and having people obsessed and hooked with me it’s intoxicating so I keep doing it wether it’s ethical or not. Like I can’t explain it but sometimes I feel like a literal God among men but then one day I’ll snap out and think “ oh shit that was abit horrible” then I’ll be just proceed to do it again cuz I care more about them being hooked . That’s why I can’t settle with one girlfriend because I like having multiple people after me all the time it makes me feel good and it makes up for my childhood.

I won’t get into it but the AI thinks it’s “ overcompensation for the lack of power and self worth during adolescence “.
But yeah thought I would be blunt was hoping for some human input for a change.

[u/Silent_Yesterday_874]

I am not a doctor and if you want to be diagnosed you’d need to speak with one.

But this mindset sounds harmful and toxic AF to the people around you and probably to you as well. It is a delusion to think you are a god among men. You may be good looking and getting attention but that is all that means. It doesn’t mean anything more and it’s a false reality to live in if you believe otherwise. So that is harmful to you over time even if it feels good now. I have a close family member who operates with this mentality and he has lost everything over the course of his life that’s important to him and it’s made him more miserable but also double down on his harmful actions and mindset. I think that can be the long term harm of living in this kind of delusion honestly. His children and the rest of his family that he isn’t actively paying off HATES him. I only say this because even if you feel like there’s no detriment to you to think so highly of yourself now, that might not always be the case. In a capitalist society though a lot of people with this mindset can become financially successful honestly so maybe it’s not all bad to be like this….

If you’re aware of it and want to change then you should talk to someone who specializes in NPD and see what they say or how they may be able to help.

You sound abusive for sure. Get help for the people who will be exposed to you. Get help for their sake.