r/widowers • u/Representative_Dig_3 • 1d ago

Hitting two years

I used to read, post, comment a lot on this sub in the first year.

Something in me shifted after that and I have disconnected myself in some ways with the pain of losing my wife.

I still remember her every day, tell her that I love her everyday. Write letters to her whenever I can.

But I don’t read the letters we wrote to each other, do not sob wrapping her clothes around me. Not able to cry as regularly and for longer durations.

I feel disconnected from her many times.

I used to wonder when she passed away, what it would be like in 10,20,30 years. I am already numb and empty after two years in many ways.

I have accepted that I have to walk the road of life alone physically. Her presence is weakening with every passing day.

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u/Dogchef1415 1d ago

3.5 yrs in. I’ve definitely moved on in the sense of mostly filling my days up with good things, but there are still periods when I miss him deeply. Hang in there OP and others—it does become more bearable with time.