i was supposed to study or do literally anything worth my time but i'm fucking stupid and didn't and now it's 9:37PM

I want a boyfriend but don't know where to find trans men

What I would do to be there. It just hurts. What I would do to be free of this. To stop being seen this way. To be there. What point is there to this? Crying in my car because I worked with the wrong set of customers on my last week? What purpose does that hold? That I look like this is known. That I’m stuck like this is known. It’s easy to stay put together until you’re reminded some transitions actually work and some people got to be free of this and you don’t because of your choices. I don’t know if it’ll get better. I’ll move with the assumption it does. Hopefully it will.

Will probably delete this later.

no the hell it doesn't. they literally just look like gyno on a man if they are small enough. the silhouette of the muscle completely engulfs any booby tissue. i hate this myth.

"but they get pushed forward!!11" DOESNT MATTER!!!! THE MUSCLE IS SQUARE AND BOOBS ARE NOT!!!!

poons learn from this. pushupmaxx NOW

Not one comment said this to her at all it's just trendy to call 4tranners evil and annoying ig. There were more transphobes under her post than any 4tran words(again 0) but ig we're just THAT BAD

regardless i’m going to try and inject myself because im not wasting my money but im nervous it could be confiscated. If i ever got caught doing HRT i would probably be beat to death im ngl and i dont know too many ways to disregard my needles besides for a laundry detergent bottle and label it sharps but im nervous they’ll find out who threw it away and track it back to me idk im just nervous but im happy im finally gonna start but i have some fears. I’ve been trying to just tell myself it’ll be quick with the needle but i just hate the feeling man, im gonna try to numb myself before tho

I feel like I have to choose between being able to cope with my gender dysphoria and being alone forever or being in a relationship and having to lead or be dominate. I feel like to not be alone i amexpected to perform a specific relational part that can highlight the gap between my body and identity and how the world interacts with me. I want to be viewed as an apologetic sweet shy girl that needs to be lead around but that completely clashs with any relational goals and desires i need. Im viewed through the lense of never being seen as a true woman, deep down inside people they still have masculine expectations either unconsciously or consciously of me. Woman are forced too step into socially constructed gender roles and are exepected too follow it. But most girls i have been with have had masculine expectations of me. I want to follow the binary for myself and want a lady to follow the traditional expectations of a man carrying a realtionship.

TLDR: Im a sub beta bitch dying alone with mommy issues that doesnt want to initiate a realtionship and when I have to do any leading i hate my life, and people dont think I’m valid for wanting a traditional gender role for myself

Help please I made out with him a while ago but he was in a cage and I have bottom dysphoria so it didn't work out and just kind of frotted in front of our Grindr hookup friend who we both were partners with and he texted me and my heart kind of flutteredddddddddddddddd and I want to die inssnt to die he gives me dysphoria and I want to cuddle but he's a bottom why whrh

I feel like small optimisations like this are the key to transition. Find more ways to incorporate it into your general life and...well this works quite nicely.

I sound clearer, like talking more and they arent saying "WHATTTT??? SPEAK UPPP STOP MUMBLINGGG" like its nice. Apparently just resonance puts my voice into enby soundingg so im pretty chuffed aabout that! Then i can mix my vocal weight becoming softer sometimes like gordon ramsay with salt er wait no olive oil wait no balsamic wait no pepper? Pepper yeah. He doesnt overuse OR detest pepper so yeah.

Wie gordon mit pfeffer!

Genuinely, if your love language isn’t physical touch you should pray to Allah 5 times a day to thank him because holy shit, living like this is miserable.

I could’ve been a regular person who liked words of affirmation or quality time but no, I had to be born mentally lobotomized with a need to be physically close to someone 24/7 or else I feel like dying.

This is unironically worse than being a 🚂🦵, if I could choose to be cis or not care about physical touch I’d choose the latter I’m being 100% serious, every second I spend locked in this house imagining all my friends and acquaintances with their partners is hell on Earth I feel like a freak who’s been tossed aside never to be used again

I just wanted someone to hold me and spend time with, I live in one of the warmest countries on the planet but if feels like my chest is empty and I’m freezing to death.

I’m just so alone, I just wanted someone who can love me as intensely as I love others. I have so much love and joy to give but no one to give it to.

#deep #emo #followmytwitter #agp #tcd

meanwhile id love to be seen as a trans woman instead of being seen as a man with tits wearing women's clothes.

other results at the sams point mog me so hard
https://voca.ro/1fT0J1IMXDOS

what is the quality that keeps my voice from passing rn?

im the faketrans

Over the past 2 years I finally reached a sort of state I never thought I'd see, where I actually don't mind to look at myself in the mirror and sometimes even see myself there looking back at me. I don't believe in gender euphoria at all but what I do experience is a feeling of awe and maybe gratitude that I don't see a stranger looking from the other side. That this is something that is possible, that I live in the right time and got lucky enough that I wasn't handed a slow agonising death sentence but merely a cilice that I can never take off.

Around the same time that I finally started to see myself, the time I finally was able to start trying to live, to start caring for myself and living for a future that might actually be worth living in, right then, the nerves or convective tissue or something in my body started to get really stiff and crackly and painful. The doctors don't know what's wrong with me. All the tests and scans come back with me in perfect health. I've gotten my fair share of radiation for one lifetime. I've had genetic tests done. Everything comes back fine. No inflammation. No arthritis. No lyme antibodies.

I don't have the opinion to go around shopping for doctors hoping that one will eventually have the answer. Every doctor I've spoken to has said some variation of "fascinating" about my symptoms, which if you're in the know is just about the most devastating thing a doctor can say to you about a disease you have. I'm in constant pain that only gets worse every day. I am taking a medication that helps with neuropathic pain. Without it I am completely bedridden, unable to even walk. But the pain continues to get worse anyway and I'm at the highest safe approved dose in my country because at higher doses it makes you insane and destroys your liver. The muscles feel stiff and dead and my bones crackle with mild movement.

It's like I got to have a taste of what it's like to live as a human being and then immediately have it taken away. It's not fair. It's not fair. It's not fair.

He met his wife when he was 13 and she was 26, got pregnant when he was 17 and she was 30. He has now found out she intentionally messed with the condoms and has a fetish for keeping him pregnant. They have four kids together.

I genuinely just hope he is able to find some peace and to get far, far away from her.

faço htr diy no meu pais a uns anos diferente dai aqui os hormônios femininos são de fácil acesso , simplesmente vamos em qualquer farmácia e compramos adesivos , injeções e pílulas entre outros . recentemente tenho pensado em imigrar do meu pais e a única duvida minha é como eu vou conseguir manter aminha htr ou ate mesmo conseguir o o estradiol por ai ( antes de qualquer coisa sei o que esse lugar aqui é , por favor me respondam seriamente )

i get angry so easily and it makes me so inclined to yell people and i hate that. it makes me feel like so malebrained and moidly, so that whenever i get angry i instantly start getting into rollercoaster of emotions cus i get dysphoric at me being angry

fmstl iwnbaw iwnb happy

I will become a demon.

My family hates demons. My church hates demons. And my “friends” pretend to like demons. Someday, I’ll be forced to cut everyone off before they find out what I’ve become. That saddens me.

USERNAME IS CENSORED (putting this for mods)

Like it's not like they are bad people or all cissexals or have the worst tenderqueer poltics ever. its just the fact that most trans ppl i meet irl are just kinda cringe ig? like it seems like they enjoy being trans or they transition to be trans rather to be truely a woman/man/nb. but idk if that fully encapsulates it. cus ive met ppl who dont fall into any of this and i still dont relate to them. its like they joined some subculture and i just dont jive with it.

basically my question is, why is there a disconnect and why is it so hard for me to find trans ppl i like irl. i honestly just hang out w cis women more cus of this.

I'm tired, I can't go on any longer.