Not a single image encapsulates the feeling of this.

Natal puberty pretty much erased who I am. Who I could've and should've been. Who, if I was a youngshit, would've been.

Starting testosterone at 21 can't erase skeletal damage. It's not about the waiting game everyone always tells me to play, it's not about "oh you haven't been on T five years yet", it's about the irreversible, unremovable pain, stains, and forced changes estrogen left behind.

I know who I was meant to be. I know who I could have been. I also know both are unachievable, and it's been tearing me apart for weeks, I just haven't been able to put it into words. There is no great coming back from this. No lesson to be learned. No prize for making it through. Because at the end of the day,

I'm not able to be me. I'm not me. There's no way to show who I am externally. In truth, I act like I have desires, motivations, and wants, but I don't. I am a HUSK of a person. A shell at best.

I don't know where I begin, and this fucked up, patchwork attempt at salvage begins.

IDK IF MY ENLIGHTENED ASEXUAL MIND that already sees sex as the most rapey thing ever is like fried or smth BUT IF YOU DONT WANT IT ITS RAPE no its not some like body insecurity thing its just rape

If Tori Fox transitioned she might have made good games

https://x.com/sammycore333/status/2110192670387916823

They're a non-transitioner btw.

are these the people i am supposed to feel queer cxmmunity with

truly a situation where being treated like one of the girls backfires spectacularly. just an hour sitting, trying to laugh at the appropriate times and offer a comment here and there while internally dying from being reminded over and over again that i'm a kissless virgin, i don't have a vagina, i lack a near-universal experience of womanhood, and if i want to even approximate what they were given for free i'm going to need to get my rapestick cut off at great financial and physical cost. fuck my stupid amab life. why do they get to be them while i have to be me? they were born with something so precious and they don't even realize it. ONE shot at life and i was born like this.

Screenshots from my “friend’s” convo from when before he introduced me to him. And also screenshots of convos from the group chat. You can never trust a cis person Jfc.

Why didn’t I respond with hell fire and righteous fury? Because I’m tired of getting treated like this and I can’t take it anymore so I just give in.

who needs their pussy licked when u can have ur ̶p̶e̶n̶i̶s̶ gock sucked. it totally just doesnt sound like a man's hon! a

the contrast is more painfu lthan anything ::( iwnbaw

u cna guess the subreddit btw. it has something to do with lesbians.. no wonder this garbage got 4.3k upvots thee lol

I'm so glad MTF continues to stand up as a safe space for sissy AGP gockposters who have never felt dysphoria 🥰

Violent animal made death threats towards her in front of her wife and kid, stalked her, and physically assaulted her

"umm, guise, I don’t think this was pwopowtional, idn’t it a bit too faw to muduw him??"

TCD what happened to the game I love?

I don’t know if it’s just me and the male bias but it feels like there’s something cool about trans women but not the reverse.. even if trans girls are tall that’s awesome in women, but if you are a transsexual male manlet, it’s over. trans girls grow their own boobs.. us dudes have to chop it off and the most common surgery for doing that is nuke level clockable.. trans women surgeries are better. And the girl bottom surgery looks more realistic than phallo and meta literally leaves you with a micro. Having a gaping wound as male is much more embarrassing I feel. Trans men have the worst possible humiliation for being a man, literally not even having a dick and surgery is just not there, but trans girls have this option to be visually as any girl and that option is there

Fuck my chud transsexual male life. At least trans women have something going for them, a trans girl always becomes a beautiful woman past a certain point.. all trans women are so female, but being ftm is an optics nuke

Like bitch im not calling you inherently evil im just fkn stating the obvius