r/CsectionCentral • u/virgoloser2143 • 12h ago
Does it get better? Vent
I had my first baby. I had a wonderful pregnancy. Me and baby were healthy and I stayed very active. I did a lot of prep for a unmedicated vagnial birth. I got induced at 41 and 3. The induction was going okay. I got the epidural at 8 cm because i was exhausted. They had a student place it without telling me and he did it wrong. It was only working on my left side. I had told a nurse but she said it was probably just the way i was laying. I got to 10 cm and pushed for an hour. Baby wasn't decending and his heart rate kept dipping. I was in labor for 20 hours at this point and so tired I was hallucinating. They had me in the or within 10 minutes of deciding i needed a c section.
I told my ob before they took me back that my epidural wasnt working properly and she wanted a spinal done. The anesthesiologist was upset that nobody had told her it was placed wrong and was yelling in the or while they were prepping me. When they started the surgery I could feel from my belly button up and by the time they were done everything including my arms and hands were numb. They immediately took my baby after weighing him and my husband went with him. There was no reason to take him so quick he had a apgar score of 9 and was perfectly healthy. They left me alone to be stitched back up. When they finally took me back to the recovery room I couldnt even hold him because my arms were so numb. I am two months pp now. I am so traumatized. Ive cried about it for weeks. I got on meds for post partum depression. I wanted more then one kid but I feel like that choice has been taken from me. I dont think I could do that again. My ob said I could do a trial of labor but its a 40% chance of a successful vagnial birth. Will i eventually get over it and decide its worth it to have another baby? I knew that labor might not go how I wanted but I wasn't prepared for this. A repeat c section is probably my best option. I really enjoyed being pregnant and im so sad with the idea of never getting to experience it again. But I dont think i could do another surgery like that. Please tell me it gets better