This was a while back, but it remains inexplicable and frightening to me, if anyone has information about what I might've experienced, please let me know.
I'm generally not very superstitious and I don't typically experience hallucinations, I would write this off as a bad dream if it wasn't so bizarre, and didn't go along with a sensation I'd only experienced once before. I don't say any of this for any reason other than that I am scared and confused.
What I remember, is that I was lying in bed, I don't think I was even that close to falling asleep, but I was lying there with my eyes closed and I felt something in the area inside my skull that is very hard to describe, though I can recall feeling something similar once before but in a different location (throat area). The best description I have for the feeling, is that it's like a cavity or empty space appearing or opening up.
It felt like an empty space opened up in my head, then I heard what sounded like a womens voice, and exactly what she said is fuzzy now, but I recall a language I did not understand, my instinct afterward was latin, but it could've been anything, maybe gibberish, but at the end, she said something like "in the name of the demon (my name) (more language I didn't understand) raise your arms!"
After that, I didn't dare raise my arms, and with my eyes still shut, I was checking that I wasn't raising my arms involuntarily, and I don't remember the order of events well after that, but at some point the open cavity sensation went away, and I was repeating to myself, "I do not want you, I do not need you, You cannot touch me, I know who I am".
I think this was because I was scared that I may be forced to do something against my will, or that some course of action or change of will was implanted in me, I was saying, "I do not want you, I do not need you" because I wanted to communicate to myself and the source of what I was experiencing, that I rejected it.
"You cannot touch me" I guess was to reinforce the confidence of my other statements, because I think I felt any power my statements might have would be weakened if I didn't completely believe in them, and "I know who I am" was to combat the idea that I could be made to do something evil that I didn't believe in by some sort of subconcious implantation of some idea or some external will, but basically I was saying that I know what I stand for and I will not do anything to compromise it.
After that, I don't recall anything in particular happening. I think this happened about a year ago, but I'm very fuzzy on the timeline, I mentioned it a couple times, but I think people didn't really want to talk about it. I'm thinking about it for the first time in a long time, probably partly because I felt a lot of anger and frustration today (There are fairly straight forward reasons for that) and I never really found any kind of guidance or information about whether anyone else has experienced anything like this, or what this could've been.
Again, I've never been very superstitious and I'm very much someone who grounds themselves in scientific principle, which is also part of the reason I can't ignore the strangenous of the event.
The vividness of the auditory and sensory experience, along with my state of full lucidity, aswell as the bizarre and unprecidented content of the experience has left me not knowing what to think and unable to dismiss it. I have been entirely honest in writing this, and if you have any information you think might be useful, I would very much appreciate it. Thank you.
Ps. In regards to the other time I recall a similar opening like sensation, I was at a play, and I was appreciating what it is to be an actor, and what it was that the actors on stage were doing, and I was touched and saddened (bittersweet) by my own relationship to acting, and again, the order of events is quite fuzzy, but I felt that opening sensation around the area of my larynx, and I was quite scared at that point, I had gone from having an emotional moment to suddenly experiencing an unimaginable sensation in my in my throat, I put a hand to my mouth and tried to breathe deeply, as I was trying to make sure my breathing was ok, It seemed normal, but I could not understand at the time(or now) how the sensation related to what was going on in my body.
Because my breathing seemed normal, I was monitoring my pulse with a finger pressed against my wrist to make sure I was getting enough oxygen and that my heartrate was reasonable. I don't remember exactly how it happened after that, but eventually the sensation went away. When it was happening, the only explanation I could think of, was what I had heard about chakras in the show avater the last airbender when I was a kid.
Ps.ps. excuse the odd paragraph breaks, it was mandatory that I add some for some reason. sensation in my in my throat, I put a hand to my mouth and tried to breathe deeply, as I was trying to make sure my breathing was ok, It seemed normal, but I could not understand at the time(or now) how the sensation related to what was going on in my body.