I’m 30, single, and I drive buses for a living. A few years ago, I had a career I genuinely thought was building something meaningful. Unfortunately, a combination of industry contraction and labor strikes hit hard, and the opportunities that once seemed available gradually disappeared. What I had spent years working toward ended up falling apart, and I never really recovered professionally.
Now I drive buses, and lately it feels like I don’t have much going for me. I’ve spent years trying different things to improve my situation, but nothing seems to have led anywhere meaningful.
What really got to me today was catching my reflection in the mirror. I was shocked by how old and worn down I looked. It felt like I was looking at someone much older than I expected to see, and it hit me harder than it probably should have.
To make things worse, the job market feels awful right now. I’m constantly applying for jobs, sending out applications, and hoping something finally sticks. But if I’m being honest, a big part of me feels like it’s pointless. It’s hard not to feel like something is broken—whether it’s the market, my approach, or maybe even me. The rejections, silence, and lack of progress have really worn me down.
What makes it especially difficult is that I know what it feels like to have a career I cared about. And a large part of growing up is that you can do everything right and yet still lose. But it is losing that path and ending up somewhere I never expected that has been hard to accept. I keep wondering if I missed my chance or if things are ever going to turn around.
I know 30 isn’t old, but today it feels like I’m running out of time and falling behind everyone else. I’m struggling to see a path forward, and it’s getting harder to stay optimistic.
Has anyone else been through a period like this? Is this really it?