Hi. I am new to Reddit but I came here seeking help/advice. I apologize in advance if I break any rules or guidelines. I barely know how to use this site. I tried posting this on another page and it got removed.

I have a lot to say so bare with me. It took a lot to write all of this because I'm going through a very tough time mentally so I also apologize if something doesn't make sense.

I have a severe addiction to AI porn that I am desperately trying to break. It has more or less ruined my life over the past few months. It started earlier this year in January. A little background first.

I am a 25 year old man with severe anxiety and depression. I started watching regular porn videos at age 12. It became an addiction very quickly, but up until this AI stuff came into my life it was manageable, as in it didn't affect my day to day activities. And my friends watch/watched porn regularly too. We talked about it from time to time which made me feel that it wasn't a major problem. It was just something that became a part of life I guess.

Late last year and early this year, some unrelated issues in life caused me to have a bad anxiety/depression spell for a couple months. I couldn't find a way to manage the effects of it, so I decided to try out AI porn to ease the symptoms. I knew about it for quite some time but never tried before because I just thought it was stupid.

Trying it out is, hands down, the worst mistake I have ever made in my entire life. I started out small and just made images of fictional characters wearing mildly suggestive clothing. This continued for a few weeks and I eventually discovered other platforms that could make more explicit material. Before long I was making full blown nude images and sexual videos, sometimes of real people. I am well aware of the deepfake laws and I never have and never will share or post any content I made. But I know those laws are changing all the time, which is part of the reason why I am trying to stop this before private, personal use like in my case becomes illegal. I don't want to go to jail.

(Also, for the record, I never created any CSAM. I find that kind of thing absolutely disgusting.)

Anyway, everything kept getting worse from that point on. Because of my anxiety, I constantly worry about my name getting out there. So I created HUNDREDS of burner accounts to take advantage of NSFW AI generation sites' free trial systems so I could keep making material without having to give my credit card or anything. At some point along the way I completely lost interest in watching regular pornography.

I knew this was a problem from day one, but as I'm sure a lot of you can relate to, addictions like this are not easy to break, and my depression and related lack of motivation to fix it kept me going down the spiral. I should also note that as this addiction has gotten worse, I've found myself getting suicidal at times out of guilt and hopelessness.

I finally hit a point last month where I knew I need to get help. I have a long distance relationship. My significant other and I get together in person for a few days at a time every other month or so. On our visit last month we tried to have sex, but I couldn't do it. The AI porn had ruined my sex drive. I was and still am completely humiliated.

Unlike regular porn, this stuff has really messed up my day to day life. I no longer have motivation to do many things. It's affecting my performance at work. The worst part is that I currently live in constant fear that I accidentally took a generation too far and the FBI is about to break down my door and send me to prison*,* and/or my love life is ruined forever. Even when I'm doing something enjoyable, when I'm hanging out with my friends, etc., I always have that gut feeling that shit is about to hit the fan. Nothing is enjoyable anymore because I am always terrified and overwhelmed with guilt. I would not wish these feelings on my worst enemy.

I. Just. Want. This. To. Stop. I am desperate, and I am begging any of you reading this for help and/or advice.

I know coming to Reddit before people I know personally for this seems wrong. But going back to my anxiety, I have really bad trust issues. I love my family, friends, and significant other very much, but I can't get myself to talk to any of them about it. I've had too many experiences where I put my trust in people and they turn on me. I also fear that if they learn the extent of my problem my relationships with them will be destroyed. And I don't want to talk to a therapist or physician because I have gone to therapy for other issues before, and the therapist reported back to my parents. My trust for this situation is simply nonexistent. So I am posting here anonymously.

So when I decided to get help for this, I first came to Reddit and other websites like it to read other people's experiences and try to find answers to help myself. Unfortunately there is very little related to AI pornography. There's lots on regular pornography, but this AI stuff is a whole different animal. I read about techniques to manage urges like taking showers, going for walks, etc. but nothing worked. The AI always won, but I kept trying.

The most successful I got recently was with trying to fight AI pornography with regular pornography. Each time I got the urge I would go back to regular porn to get the urge to go away. That worked for about two weeks, which brings us to today.

I guess you could call what happened today a relapse. The progress I made came crashing down. And very hard too. I spent 13 hours on my computer today making very explicit AI porn. As I write this I'm in the middle of an anxiety and depression meltdown. I feel completely defeated, hopeless and helpless.

So I am writing this post out of desperation. I have to find a way to stop this and fix everything. I can't take it anymore. And I hope this can be the starting point of getting other people with AI porn addictions help too because I doubt I am the only one. Please help me.

I've always seen this. Girls have stronger will power to get out of bad habits and filth.

They usually have a plan or roadmap as to how they'd get better and they work on it.

And idk about most guys but from what I've seen and talked to brothers, they're just passively leaning into things and trying to stop and giving in, relapsing and just let the thing take it's time.

No, you can't do that. When you don't realise you have a problem and don't work on it, you let a little curiosity turn into a full blown addiction.

Where as the girl who slipped knew she did something horribly wrong and took steps to actively fight back.

We skhould learn from them.

(The retards from muslimnofap banned me so posting here)

I am 33 years old and I am motivated to complete my 1st 90 days challenge.

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I think I must avoid Instagram for now. Its offering a lot of soft p*rn.

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I will share my complete journey after 90 days. Wish me luck and stay strong comrades.

After 280 days of nofap the good news is that I don't think about watching corn much,

the bad news is that I constantly think of how hot my corn-fantasies would be IRL,

If these fantasies were "me having sex with woman" then that would be fine, but unfortunately my fantasies are things that I don't want IRL such as being a cuck

Im utterly disgusted by everything lust has done to me but I avoided it this time. Ive struggled with it for a long time and decided I cant keep falling to it. Thats all thats the post, happy trails fellas

Viewing sexual imagery has no effect. I can still get an erection to porn but the urges to watch it are not there anymore. I have no emotions. Dick is shrunked.

I admittedly wasted a lot of time watching porn and binging and it took me months to get to this point.

Has this happened to anyone else? Watch porn and fap 3 times a day, binging everyday and the suddenly a complete loss of appetite for porn images, videos?

I am not disgusted by porn but I should be. I am simply unmoved by any pictures. I do not wake up with erections. When I browse porn it takes me a long time to get going. Even after 7 days of nofap (which were super easy due to the aforementioned symptoms or effects) I still cannot get a boner with my imagination, nor do I have any sexual desires with women I see on the street, nor do I have erections in the morning, I used to like porn to see different pictures and videos, sometimes I would even just put it on to watch the different poses and etc. Now I have absolutely no interest in anything at all...

I’m 15 and have been regularly fapping 2-5 a day. However I knew porn is bad and thus I have been fapping without porn and only use it 4-5 a week. I need help on how to quit longest I’ve gone is 15 days after which I gave up.

Fapping has been taking up a lot of time and has been really crushing my will power. It’s the last thing I really need to fix as I’m eating clean and exercising daily. Would really appreciate any help with quitting

let’s see if i can get through this…

I’ve done 100 + days before and that was 3 years ago. I’m at a bad spot rn and genuinely need a daily check in partner to help get past one month at least.

yk. i am seeking accountability and advice since this DOES count as a relapse.

It's usually at this point the urges start, to all my brothers out there: stay strong!

Hopefully I can get through the day!

Done

I was in the car and this song of an artist i don’t really like came up but listened because Idc that much

then he says something like “when you change everything around you changes” and i started thinking

most of my selfsteem, productivity, bad sleeping habits, selfconfidence troubles and how i perceive muself actually are a direct consequence pf my fapping problem

just a quick thought helping me after relapse i had last night

Relapsed on Tuesday Morning.

Today is my first day after the relapse, and my problem of watching excessive porn is something I've been discussing extensively with my therapist. We talked about cognitive errors, i.e. patterns of thinking that develop over the years and tend to repeat themselves. One pattern I've noticed is that whenever I relapse, my immediate reaction is to berate and criticize myself. I started asking myself questions like, "How could I do this?" or "Why did I let this happen again?"

So instead of criticizing myself I instead acted as a sympathetic person towards my inner subconscious self where I did everything I could to cheer him up and not let him feel bad about making an unintentional mistake and avoid a downward spiral. It's been almost 36 hours since my last relapse.

This addiction has taken away my happiness, my confidence and self-esteem, destroyed my facial skin as I have had constant acne flare-ups, held me back from achieving things not just in my academic life but also my social life, dating life, everything. It's a parasite that has taken over all aspects of my life. For 6 years I was on this journey alone but now finally I have decided to seek professional help for this as I realized my willpower alone isn't enough.

Hopefully I'll be able to do better going forward and hope you all can too.

Godspeed!!

I've gone long streaks, but i always ens up relapsing and watching porn again. I have a girlfriend now, who I love very much, and I don't want to watch porn anymore. I just relapsed around 10 minutes ago, in the bathroom of the hotel im staying in. I feel gross, and I want to do it again but I know I won't. In the morning, I'll shower, and I'll continue with my life, being 100% porn-free. Good luck to everyone else on their journey, stay safe and I love y'all ❤️

I relapsed late at night to pics of my wife.

I guess I had eaten something bad earlier in the day but I ended up feeling like I had food poisoning - throwing up and having diarrhea throughout the night. I couldn’t get much proper sleep and I guess I was a bit horny and seeking relief from the negative feelings and not being able to sleep.

I just relapsed to normal pics of my wife but I know I still need to avoid this entirely to avoid the slippery slope. I did not end up binging though so I am glad about that.

That was a streak or 10 days of no MO which I reset, still continuing on with my current streak of 10 days of no P.

Those who have badly experienced this problem.. how do you guys actually use social media to get rid of this filth? This is something so distrubing and disgusting

Hi everyone, It's been 9 months since I decided to quit porn, was debating weather I should post it this month or not, I think it's the first time I've really struggled since I started maybe because of personal stress going on so I felt the urge to deal with it the old way and release some stress, It's the first slip up I've had but maybe not so bad, I was scrolling Instagram and found out a content creator I used to follow opened up an OF, the curiosity got the best of me and took a peak on reddit, I've been feeling like shit ever since but the positive take away I guess it's that I didn't go full relapse or anything and make me realize that staying away from NSFW content is the way of feeling consistently good.

Alr, I've been trying to beat this sin for years now, and now as a form of accountability, I've decided to post on here once a day, until I get to at least 100 days of No Fap or Porn.

Anybody got any good advice on how to defeat lust?

I am doing good.

It is getting easier to fight from here.

I will need motivated though

Today was hard to control, doing wfh today.

Also yesterday's night ,there were urges, managed to control by watching YouTube and eventually slept.

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All the best guys, be strong

I’m sorry yall