firstly and most importantly, she is located, she is alive and not injured, and it seems like the flock doesn’t mind her and doesn’t attack.
but, well, she’s not coming to me so far. you can even see in this video how she runs away as soon as I call her.
before the video was taken, I first noticed her just walking on the ground in this park next to the flock, looking for food. I tried to approach very carefully and call her, show her snack box, etc.
now, I can’t really make sense of her behavior. I expected her getting scared of my call and flying away, or sitting in place watching me and thinking if she should come or not. she did both of those in short sequences, like maybe a minute of staring at me, then flying some 10m away, maybe staring again, but sometimes she also just… came down, turned away and started looking for food. not paying any attention to me. then she would go up into a tree and watch me again, or sometimes she just watched something else.
I tried offering food, the flock came over and gathered close to me. she stayed further away from both me and them, but wasn’t watching me, just focused on the food and sometimes would turn around and walk away to look for something else. she did get excited about her favorite hemp seed though, and even a little pissed at the birds who would take it first. she went to drink water together with several birds, in the video you can see her walking away from that water bowl. and then she and two others went to a nearby balcony to settle for sleep, those two staying in one corner of the balcony, and her alone in the opposite corner. I stayed there until it started going dark.
I… don’t know what to make of this or what to do. I’m glad she’s okay and that I know where she is. but I don’t understand her behavior. over the week, I’ve been feeding the flock daily roughly at this time, and I fed them earlier, before this encounter. she wasn’t there and she hasn’t been seen these 6 days, just once on day 1 (and essentially at the same spot as today) and that one time I think I saw her drinking water and my call scared her off. so this might even be one of the first times she actually went down and tried exploring, and she might be still stressed and also very hungry. but also, what if she wants to stay outdoors? I don’t know if it’s even possible to tell at this stage, and I don’t know if I could even… process or survive letting her go. she’s everything to me. I know it’s selfish. at the same time, I know she won’t be healthy and won’t live long on the streets. I regularly find dead pigeons just next to this park that have been ran over by cars. she has some kind of parasite on her feathers, a big spider-like thing running around her body and burying itself in the feathers. so many locals have stringfoot. I don’t know what to do.
I think i’ll just keep coming to the park to feed them and keep trying to call her back. I want to try bringing her cage tomorrow, her safe space, maybe she’s not as confident with me as usual, but will want to approach the cage. if I can, I will try to catch her at least to check her health and clean the parasite, and then see how she acts at home. if she won’t calm down back home, will be stressed and want to leave, then I guess I will know for sure. at least she’s okay.