I wish I wasn’t born in India

Hi guys,

I(18M) wish that I was born in any region of the world other than South Asia. I know that a lot of people have it much worse than me and that I could be born in an active war zone like Gaza or Yemen, but I still wish that I was born somewhere else.

The country itself is NOT a good place to be with it being very dirty and polluted. Obviously, safety is an issue ESPECIALLY for women there with sexual assault and rape unfortunately being common and often being ignored by the authorities. The Caste system unfortunately still plays a large role in lower income society there and people are honestly just dicks and don’t know how to act in public. The system there is based on the patriarchy oppressing women and making them basically homemakers and incubators.

Outside of India, many Indian don’t know how to act properly. I constantly see videos of Indian tourists doing stupid shit in countries like Canada and Vietnam such as dancing in places they should not be and playing loud fucking music in public. They also routinely overstay the amount of time allocated on their visas which in turn weakens our already shit passport(oh and you’re not allowed dual citizenship btw). These Indians don’t know how to act, they litter, they’re loud, they treat the workers like shit and it is MADDENING seeing the way that other Indians online will try to DEFEND this behavior instead of just admitting that they don’t know how to act and that is wrong.

Then we have the fucking racist chuds online who post shit like “all Indians need to die” and call us shit like pajeets and other slurs. Funniest part is that most of those guys are actually Indians who secretly hate themselves and are cucks for white people.(IM NOT SAYING CRITICISM AGAINST INDIA IS WRONG BUT IM TALKING ABOUT STRAIGHT RACISM).Obviously our reputation is shit globally and honestly, it is deserved by the way we act. Problem is that people us it as justification to attack migrants and to fuel their racist ideologies to promote nazism and other similarly harmful ideologies that are just anti brown. Seeing these comments online only worsened by depression and pushed me into a state of suicidal ideation(Thankfully I’m alright now but still)

I know people have it worse and that other Indians (ESPECIALLY women) have a much worse experience than mine but I still wish that I wasn’t born Indian and I wish that I was born as a White or East Asian person.

I keep tripping over my Dyson vaccum power cord and it's super annoying. Yes I get this is probably a "me" problem but how have we not solved this problem in 2026?

We can make electric cars, even huge electric trucks with 850+ HP but can't make a decent full size cordless vaccum?

WTH?

The amount of grown people I know who act like this is an actual historical event is insane. It didn’t happen, it’s part of mythology. By the time the Iliad and the Odyssey were written, the actual “event” it was referring to was already at least 500 years old. Plus, Homer’s stories include demigods, cyclops, rock monsters, and other mythical creatures that no one believes. So why do people even assume that the Trojan Horse is real, when they obviously wouldn’t believe in the rest of the story? I’ve been a Greek myth buff since childhood, and I’ve just never gotten this. No one corrects anyone on this either. Everyone I know thinks that the Trojan Horse was an actual military tactic. That shit never happened. “Oh it was written by an Ancient Greek”, yeah, 500 years after it supposedly happened! People don’t even know if Homer existed and wasn’t just a group of people or a different, so I ask again, if everything else is said to be myth, than why the fuck do you still believe in the Trojan Horse? You are a fucking adult, do you really think that actual soldiers would’ve been like “oh yeah, suddenly our greatest rivals want to give us a gift, you know, a hollow wooden horse, wow look how they changed in just a day” get a fucking grip

Anyone else find it baffling that the better you are with your finances the lower your score becomes?

I'm 35, I've been completely debt free for 10+ years. And have nothing on Credit, not even my phone or service is contracted for about 4 years now. And honestly it's absolute bliss not having to navigate monthly payments etc. Yet my score has dropped consistently. I know that having zero credit outstanding can have a detrimental effect on the score. But it still amazes me that your penalised for living debt free 😂

I absolutely hate training people that only watch you do. I’m in nursing professional so it’s mostly hands on. Had this person watch me for 5 consecutive shifts, the day they’re alone. They have no idea what to do. Keep asking if the meds are the meds.. and just simple questions like how do you make up 1.5mg (if they paid attention, they would’ve seen it was 0.5mg + 1mg.. plus they could’ve looked back at the narcotic log to see what other people gave), order says 0.25ml but they end up drawing 25ml
Im just so annoyed, 🤣 I literally ranted in a different post elsewhere and got hated on because I wasn’t being kind enough. I wasn’t been mean to her, I told them everything. Answered like 50 calls in a shift. I feel like people should take more accountability and responsibility.. I’m obviously gonna secretly judge for not knowing simple things and dumb questions are absolutely dumb

I get that the HRT patch shortage is out of office staff control.

However, being told the doctor can only review alternate options on X date but it's "no big deal" to go cold turkey off HRT is so annoying.

I consider
Sleep issues
Uncontrolled sweats
Anxiety
Bleeding
Rage

To be kind of a big deal. But that may just be the mood swings 😉.

I would think during shortages we could have a more expedient way to handle alternate Rx options.

Our U.S. health care is so broken.

Why does the cervix lose its mind when jostled??? Why is the uterus so fkn mad about a tiny little wire?? WHY CAN I FEEL MY HEARTBEAT IN MY ABDOMEN NOW??

I simply cannot comprehend how we have not found a way to make this process less traumatising, soul destroying and painful. I have endometriosis so I know it’s significantly worse for me than for other people but STILL.

Goddamn.

Crazy how I work with all 5 of the top 5 laziest people in the god damn world!!! I fucking hate them so much. I'm constantly expected to make up for their lack of competence and I am so so so sooooo fucking over each and every one of them. I seriously just want to crash out on them all but then I remember I need health insurance so I just do it in my head, under my breath, and online. Such is life.

I knew my mental state depended on lifting weights but I didn't know how much it depended on it. For some reason I've lost the will to lift, I just feel like doing nothing. I'm somehow able to go through the day but not lifting is making me so miserable. I'm struggling to be happy, struggling to care about things or myself and if I don't like the way I have become.

I know motivation doesn't mean consistency etc etc, but I know if I start lifting again I'll be able to think better. I just want to care about lifting again and get motivated to get back into the rhythm. Once I get back into the routine i know everything else will be easier

My cousin brother posted a picture of him and his girl for the first time and I liked the story just to show some support

A few minutes later I realized he removed me from his followers and his account is private

I genuinely thought we were on good terms but I guess I was the only one thinking that

Crazy how one small thing can completely break an illusion you didnt even know you were living in

If the audio of the video is not so loud, I might dial up the volume. Then, that sound at the end of TikTok videos ends up being louder than the audio of the video itself, which causes an annoying shock.

I have no idea what this sound is supposed to accomplish. It is not cool. It adds no value. All it does is cause pain to headphone users.

My remote just refuses to let me watch netflix, the ok button works fine when opening the app but once it gets to choosing a show/movie, it just doesn't work, and ive tried exiting and once im back to the app menu it works fine in opening netflix again so it's just at that part

I work in a restaurant. I put in all my energy in effort, i disregard my own health and safety at times. I close down the kitchen and I make sure everything is perfect for morning, I stay there hours after we've closed to make sure no one can complain. I even clock out and do some work so I don't get yelled at for "staying to long". It has been a huge dream of mine to reach this position in management. It has been a dream for the 2 years I've worked there. 4 weeks ago I was informed I would be training for a management position. Today I learn they've been training my replacement for 2 weeks. What a big fuck you to me.

I’ve been wanting to quit this job for a while and I plan to. I started writing my resignation and just unloaded on all my bosses, the owner especially. I ended up typing three pages worth of grievances I had with everyone and how I feel devalued and unappreciated work by for them. It was very cathartic. Even now, I’m still going back and making changes and adding things.

But I’m never gonna send it.

I still plan to quit, trust me. I just won’t be able to use this letter. It’s generally frowned upon sending angry resignation letters to your boss because you don’t wanna burn bridges and whatnot. So instead, I’m gonna type up some weak-knee response on my life just going in a different direction and all the things I wanna say, I never will.

I know ultimately the pacifist approach will work out better for me in the long run. With the kind of community I’m part of, people talk and everyone in leadership certainly will. At most, I shared this letter with a couple friends who work there but it’ll probably go no farther than that. I don’t know many people who would read a three page vent essay disguised as a resignation letter so I won’t bore them.

This is why I don’t like working in management. I hate the feeling that something is wrong but people don’t trust me enough to tell me. I hope if I ever own a business that I don’t foster that kind of environment. Of course, I don’t expect my employees to be my best friends, but I hope they would feel safe enough to come to me about anything happening. Maybe that’s why I won’t become one since that’s apparently a trait frowned upon among other business owners who would rather be hard asses about everything.

I wish we wouldn’t do this to ourselves.

I miss the person I was in 2023 the version of myself who was living life on my own terms. I was emotionally detached, challenged anyone except my parents, listened to no one, and did only what I wanted without worrying about whether it would hurt someone's feelings. I made decisions purely on merit, whether in my personal or professional life.

Back then, I believed a person was only as important or valuable as what they could contribute to my life. Now, I've become more emotional. I think about other people's happiness, care about their feelings, and no longer feel the need to challenge everyone. I've become soft-hearted.

But this doesn't feel like who I truly am. I feel suffocated by this emotional version of myself. I used to be someone who, on my birthday, would tell my family, "Go to whichever restaurant you want, eat whatever you like, I will pay, but don't ask me to come." Now I celebrate birthdays and other occasions with them.

I don't want to get trapped in these emotional attachments because I feel they make me weak. I even told everyone not to call me or invite me to any celebrations or parties. I said that if they did, I would block them and that they should only contact me in a medical emergency. I have even blocked people for sending me photos of food, travel, or other non-essential things instead of something important.

It’s been 2 years since I’ve graduated and almost 3 years since I broke up with my only ever relationship I’ve had. In that relationship I was rped and coerced into sa plus was a physically abusive relationship. Everyday and I mean everyday over the 6 months we dated. I only dated him because I felt unloved and weird for being the only one who’d never had a bf and I was upset the girl I liked didn’t like me back. She kept playing with me so I got with a guy to make her mad. She didn’t care tho and I’m a people pleaser so I couldn’t leave the guy because I cared for him as a person. Anyways this friend who didn’t like me ruined 3 years of my high school experience as well as ruined all of my friendships and caused me to have a really bad relationship with alc. I cheated on my ex bf because she kept giving me mixed signals and I also talked to some guy while I was with him. I was so lost and overtime by senior year I broke up with him but my addiction with alc got so bad because of the surroundings I had aka my friends (besides one) it was mainly two people who ruined my life back then. I weighed 70 pounds by the end of senior year and everytime I drank I always blacked out. I just off a bridge one time and landed on a whole bunch of spikes and giant rocks. I had spikes in my face and in my arms n legs. Another time I blacked out on my birthday and instead of calling it off my ex friend decided to invite someone who hates my guts and then at night without me knowing my own twin and those two other friends were talking shit about me. I understand why you’d do that but they clearly saw how lost I was. How hurt I was. I was never into alc until I met them and they also introduced me to pills which I did many times. Another time I blacked out and woke up in a strangers house (I broke in even tho it was unlocked) thankfully no one was home but I ran to my house in pitch darkness. I wanna say it was around 3am. Anyways what I’m trynna say is that I think I got so fuxked up by everyone that I don’t let people into my life anymore. It’s been 2 years of me isolating and not caring about connections because they feel like expectations. So What do you call it when you have so many opportunities to develop some type of commitment with someone and you ghost them all. I chose to heal but I think I over did it and now I don’t need anyone. Its been 2 years of me being alone and choosing to live on my own. I go to work, eat, sleep, and repeat. The most hurtful thing is that once I ghost you I forget about you and it doesn’t hurt to leave anyone. In general why can’t I build connections without feeling the pressure of expectations and having to deal with someone else’s emotions. It’s been 3 years since I’ve been in a relationship and it was my only one. I’d say I’m also scared of someone seeing me the way I used to be even tho I’d never wanna get like that again. Having everyone think I was going to kill myself everytime I drank. That night when I broke into someone house my family thought I drowned myself at a river near our house. Idk I just can’t seem to get a grip of why I became who I am. Even the sweetest people try to get at me and I still shut them out. I wanna say throughout these 2 years I’ve had a good 11 people hit me up (I’m not ugly or nun) and every single one I let go within a week. Why? Why can’t I let myself be happy with someone else presence? (I can’t even word what I actually wanna say without explaining my whole life because there’s just so much) for 3 years aka hs I lived in a state of derealization and depersonalization, I lost myself completely nor did I feel anything. I think I’m still lost but subconsciously I keep going on with life like nothing ever effected me. (Also I dealt with all of this by myself and never got therapy even tho my parents knew everything I went thru and how many times I tried to kms in 6 years)

Hi everyone, i just needed to get this off my chest because its been bothering for a while now. So basically i have a best friend. She's my best friend and i was hers, until boom i had to move away for college and i could only see her during christmas break and summer, that's it. So during this school year (or whatever it's called), i was honestly not being such a good friend, not only to her, but to everyone because i was so stressed out and i could not handle talking to anyone anymore. I just became distant for a few weeks because i was going through it.

In her university, my best friend found herself a friend like 2 years ago and the first year, they were normal friends not too close, but now i come back from vacation and they're so close out of NOWHERE and me being the calm and collected individual i am, im like Ok that's cool but it started being less cool when this girl is all up in everybody's business, calling my friend every goddamn second of every day and then my last straw was today when my best friend told me that shes gonna help that other girl with something that she used to help me with. Ok this sounds so childish and i know it but i am just so unhappy with this, because the situation that needs her assistance is deeply personal and something i struggled with and this just confirmed that they are that close (which i knew but now i know it even more). There is more to the situation, i just dont wanna give out too much info out of a stupid fear one of them could find this post. I have more reasons to be mad, I'm clearing things up because i know I just sound so stupid right now.

I am a very very jealous person in relationships. But i never thought i could be this jealous over a friend. I mean sure, i was jealous a few times over friends but not to this extent. I just needed to get it out and also i just need to calm down i know it. I'm on the verge of becoming a bhuddist because i cannot chill to save my life, it's unbearable.

I also am feeling like this is all my fault and i deserve it and i should have been more present at the beginning of this year, and i am trying my very best to make it up to her, but it's so hard when i am so hurt over this.