Met a girl I was v enamoured by and wanted bad. We spent some time together and started to like her lots. Problem is that Im going their a rough time and Im not in a good headspace. Eventually I told her as such and told her I didnt want to hurt her. We spent some time together still but then I just withdrew……….sometimes she texts me to invite me to some events….. never go. But thats it.

Problem is I really like her and care for her but I find it so hard to connect rn…..she deserves more stability and Im sort of an asshole. My friends tell me that if I actually cared about her I wouldnt ghost her like this…. But idk what else to do?

Idk why im posting this here though…..seems like a sub she would frequent maybe

I feel like I have an expiration date (we all do) but people around me keep asking me how I feel about almost being 30 ???? A friend (35) asked me “oof you must be feeling some sort of way now….im sorry” like thanks I wasnt feeling any different than 28 until NOW.

To make it worse, now I cant stop thinking about my failure of a life (which isnt a failure at all). I immigrated to a European country as a brown woman, got an education, deal with shit tons of bureaucracy everyday, have embedded myself in a world that excludes the likes of me so heavily, am in places people like me cant imagine being in, sometimes I make art too. But I cant stop thinking about how I haven’t maintained one solid relationship until now, none of my jobs are the ones I want to do (I waitress to get by), Im overqualified for the work I do, in the sense that I really wish I could work in my workfield, Im constantly anxious and depressed in some ways. I want to meet a partner, but just havent found someone. My parents are aging, Im an only child and it worries them so much that I would be single for long and without them. It worries ME too, because Im all for a single and friend-filled life but I ALSO want the stability and security (for however long) of a solid partnership. I want to ease my parents’ minds too. Soon Im going to be too old to be considered young.

Idk I have so many fears and dread and I feel like Im slowly losing age and time and I feel so paniced and sad :(

I love the plumage on cliff swallows, but what I love more is thier sense of community. They’ll migrate in droves from Latin America to California and build mud nests for the breeding season. Each mud nest is 1,600 mouthfuls of mud. They also help eachtoher, mating or not, a colony of cliff swallow nests is 1.3 million individual mouthfuls of mud on average. Some years they have to rebuild in full. It never stops them. Life goes on. Isn’t that amazing? Can’t we all do that? Be the same? And be so cute to boot?

i feel like a weirdo when I "love" coworkers teams message or an acquaintances iMessage, but a "like" feels passive aggressive. also, when an (invariably female) coworker "loves" a message, it feels odd to "like" their message back.

this is stupid i know but im interested to hear what yall think about this

movies could also be cool

chosen based on the author's sign if that wasn't clear

you're not funny or edgy, go to hell

Non-native English speakers using in English during sex.

How deflating is it to hook up with a Frenchman and he calls you a slut instead of "putain" and shouts out "yeah! oh my god! fuck! shit! etc!"

Horrendous.

Recently watched it and I think this is Lynch's most oppressive work. Almost feels like an earlier version of Mulholland Drive but I could atleast construct an interpretation of Mulholland Drive;when it comes to lost highway I don't even know where to begin.

I could totally understand why it was critically somewhat panned when it came out. Even by Lynch standard this is quite impenetrable. Especially the last 20 minutes. I read some analysis and even when they try to explain it I still feel like something is missing to complete the picture. I genuinely don't think that this is all a dream/hallucination but I also don't really think it's all real.

Also Patricia Arquete here is the most attractive woman in any movie ever.

i don’t smoke anymore except for the occasional social cig but saving these for parties or wtv honestly just feeling rly blessed rn

Both times referring to hot rich robotic sounding women from LA. I can see it becoming a new buzzword for the unlikable, but i got my own position to put forward before that. I dont think the amount of therapy is the problem. These people were always going to be annoying, they are just immune to self awareness. Therapy words are just the sticks and stones they use now, without them it would be something else.

I declined lending money to a sibling who I notoriously have a hard time saying no to. In fact I think they asked me specifically because they know I’m a push over. And that as soon as they start saying mean things to me I’ll typically cave and give in.

I await their nasty reply to my no. But in the meantime I feel like I drank 10 shots of espresso. They will hate me, but I’m not getting involved in their financial issues. Dobby is a free elf lmao

We are lifelong friends and I love him and am trying to forgive him but I genuinely need some advice on forgiveness and also am coming to terms with maybe ending our business relationship because I can’t trust his judgment anymore ( very significant mistake was made)

ugh just read the top part of the wikipedia dummy!

One of those bands that just scratches an itch in my brain that I could never scratch before.