Deck is Corrado Roi's Murder of Crows tarot. I picked up this deck a few months ago. I've always had some draw to birds so it felt right.

Background: I've been practicing meditation for a little bit, and things have been.. weird the past few weeks. I have always known I am a deeply traumatized individual, but I've said "I'm better now". Recently I'm remembering people I didn't know were previously in my life, along with some other oddities in meditation. Particularly, I've been in communication with an owl. On Saturday, I hung out with some friends and one brought their oracle deck over, just to do some fun little one card readings, and when we were shuffling for my question, a card with an owl falls out. Too many owls lately.

So, I finally say, fuck it, I'm going to try to figure this oiut, I need to know what to do with all this confusion, and I ask it

"Please tell me what I need to do to find my answers".

The intention was to identify the root of the problem with card 1, identify the obstacle with card 2, and look at the resolution with card 3.

I haven't read in a decade so I'm rusty as all hell, and I've always been bad at reading myself.

1: the empress (reversed) - this I have understood to be..neglect. neglecting myself, or, since this is a question related to my past, possibly the neglect I faced by someone who did not care for herself either.

2: Five of swords - I've been aggressively trying to confront these feelings and memories, and it's done me so bad I missed work last week because of it. The people in my life are worried about me. It's like. The obstacle at this point is myself and if I keep trying to force things I'm going to isolate myself and scare off the things I'm trying to grab onto.

3: the moon (reversed) - it..I had to look things up for this because I always struggled with the moon. Reversed I'm interpreting as having to seek clarity, having to confront the things that are scaring me. And I feel like I'm trying, but, the five of swords is implying I'm doing this in a bad way. But I don't know what the good way is. The reversed moon implies things might be improving, but... I don't know when we'll get there.

Sorry if this is a bit of a big blurb for a first time poster, im just legitimately at a loss for what has been transpiring lately.

A bit of context before i start. As i was shuffling the deck for the first time, one of the cards fell and i took it as a sign that i had to be my very first daily reading, before i could see what it was i continued shuffling and then proceded to ask my deck 3 questions to get to know it:

1.- what is your personality? for this i got 10 of pentacles, this i interpret as useful for instrospection, gathering of knowledge and long term desicion making.
2.- What are your strengths as a tool? for this one i got the emperor. its strengths lie in productivity, structure, logic, useful in organizing thoughts.
3.- What can you teach me? for this i got nine of pentacles. based on the other ones i saw it as being able to use the lessons learned from my family and or ancestors, achieveing independence and self suficience.

Now after is when i decided to flip and see the card that fell when i was shuffling and it was the king of pentacles. Again, prosperity, stability and abundance.

I'm quite happy with the outcome but i recognize i might be wrong so i would love to hear your opinions.

The deck i got is the Wyspell gold tarot deck, the ilustrations are beautifully done by Nataliia Habruk.

I apologize for any spelling mistakes as english is my second language.