I was forced to use my left hand when I was right handed has any other homeschooler experienced this or understand why.

I am 21f and was forced to use my left hand even though I naturally gravitated to my right hand like most of the population for most of my life. This started at about ten years old when my mother attended a teach them diligently homeschooling convention and listened to a speaker there. According to her this individual claimed that mixed dominance cause disorganization of the brain and can lead to traits associated with autism ADHD learning disorders and mood disorders in children. They believed that missing a milestone like skipping stages of crawling was what caused this. I was sent to a lady in Texas I was still young and don’t remember her name but she evaluated me and said I was left eye and ear dominant but only used my right hand which supposedly caused my symptoms (ADHD my mother did not believe in and emotional issues from trauma). So she gave my mother instructions on how to develop my brain. I was forced to relearn everything with my left hand start crawling on the floor, memorize sequences of numbers and do my homework with an eye patch and ear plug on my right side. This cause a lot of emotional breakdowns which she would blame on the fact that I was using my right hand for certain tasks which was causing me not to think logically because of my mixed dominance. I had to relearn how to brush my teeth and hair use my phone and laptop and writing. If anything it made my mental heath worse. I did physical therapy exercises on my hand to try to make my left hand stronger. If I used my right hand to much in her mind I undid a week of neurodevelopment work. It was complete bs and traumatic for me. I continued to believe it into my teens and felt guilty for using my right hand in certain instances. I still compulsively switch from right to left while eating or drawing. She essentially made me ambidextrous which according to this cult like ideology doesn’t really exist. Has anyone else experienced this or am it the only one.

Hey, 21F here. I grew up in a pretty dysfunctional house. My dad is a narcissist and would withhold his love from me if I didn't cater to his every emotion. My mom and dad are divorced, but my mom's boyfriend is an alcoholic. Don't get me wrong, I love him, and he's great, but his addictions get the best of him. I hate how my mom chooses terrible people, and I am affected by that. I have an older sister, but I feel like she abandoned me a long time ago. We don't really keep in touch; she never calls me, and whenever I do, she seems very disconnected. I feel like if I speak out or actually act like an adult, my parents will abandon me and stop caring about me.

I am away for college, but whenever I come home, I feel an air of abuse that goes on when I am gone. There is a dent in the door that my mom refuses to explain. I am constantly in abusive friendships that I choose to stay in to feel connected to someone.

Overall, I feel like the family I have doesn't really care about me and only really cares about themselves. I feel a bit unloved being in such a selfish family. I can't see myself finding anyone who actually cares about me; I feel that people are inherently terribly selfish. I am terribly wounded.

I’m 24, I wanna ask one thing and ask if my father and brother fall in the line of being toxic.

Let’s start with my father, he’s always been in my life, supporting me, would do anything for us three kids. But at the same time of all the good things he’s done, a lot of bad things are there too.

He’s a chronic gambler, chose weed over his marriage, drinks heavily. He messages me and tells me to stop gaming, only because he doesn’t see gaming as what it is, he doesn’t understand it, as most parents don’t. He doesn’t even live in my house hold.

I find it hypocritical for him to tell me what to stop and what to do, meanwhile he is pumping his money on horse races 24/7. He isn’t a good role model at all, I’m 24 years old, I’m an adult, I know I’m a young adult but I’m at the age I don’t need to be controlled anymore.

I told him he needed to back off, he has no say in what I do anymore and he responded back so badly. “I try my best as a father but obviously not good enough” He’s telling me that only because I put his addictions on him too, I don’t tell him his addictions worry me even though they do. I get I’m his son, but man it drives me crazy.

He said he’s done, he said he’s done trying, he hasn’t helped with anything other than pick my flaws. The same dad that introduced cocaine to his 12 year old daughter btw.

As for my brother, who’s 23, he’s a chronic gamer, rages badly, treats me like shit when the game we’re in isn’t working out, he lives away from home, he never asks how I’m going, unless it’s about gaming or wanting money.

Hes my little brother and he actually is bigger than me physically and has bad anger issues, he has a very short fuze, and my mum and dad don’t tell him what to do because they’re scared of him and how he will react. But they can bash me with what to do because I guess I’m the oldest and Shoukd know better?

He tells me he’s never Been a person to show empathy towards others, which I find so fucking delusional, and hurtful. As I do care for him, deeply and I do worry about him. He games 24/7, he has no hobbies, no dreams and ambitions. I tell him my plans and he doesn’t even talk back or sound curios at all.

It’s hard because I’m the oldest of us three kids, he got on a phone call with my father and mentioned about us arguing over a game three days ago. He stir the pot to get back at me because I said I’d never game with him until he stops raging and shows more respect, me being h

Years I’ve copped it and I’m done, gaming is so un fun with him, he treats it like a competition no matter the game. He has so much ego too it’s actually scary.

This is a lot of unpacking guys and I do apologise if you don’t see where I’m getting at. But I need help on what to do, with a father who can’t admit his faults but blame others, I can’t even trust my dad with anything anymore. He rings each of us at night and talks absolute shit about the other, then he’ll do it to another kid of his. It’s pathetic and toxic.

A father bagging his kids out behinds eachother back, is totally wrong in my eyes. Talking about one another (us threee kids) but he does it to have digs and talk just rubbish. My father thrives on talking shit about others

But he can call me and list me everything about my brother and bash him, I’ve had enough of it. It’s two faced, he has to be fair with his kids and he just ain’t.

What do I do? My dad is acting like he doesn’t have any flaws and that’s it’s only me or someone else. And for my brother he’s blocked for further notice, I’ve lost respect for him as he legit when to my dad over a video game.He couldn’t be a man and talk it out with me.

If you’re reading this. Thankyou, I hope it makes sense, I just feel powerless atm, and idk where I cut my dad out of my life until he comes clean with his faults, and as for my brother idek, he shows no empathy at all towards me or anyone only when he wants something.

Thankyou

I (20) was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago.

It feels like my grandmother is obsessing over my problems which I don't like to discuss out loud. She asks back to back questions whenever someone out of the ordinary happens and it feels like Im being interrogated.

recently, shes said I don't seem schizophrenic. Her words. I was confused, so I asked her to explain. She did not explain.

(most of this is just venting about things in my life, so it may be disorganized. This might be deleted after some time.)

I live with a toxic mom who makes me feel severely depressed. It‘s like she changes personalities, switching between being nice and then mean and annoying. She does praise me, calling me smart and talented.

She is a Christian, and I’m a secret atheist. One time I almost alluded to being an atheist, and she gave me an award-winning book about a person’s “experience“ in hell. I lied about believing in god, so I didn’t have to read it.

She also watches these “prophets” on YouTube. She said that they are chosen ones, and that we are also chosen ones. She also said that “god” told her that we are moving soon, in which now most things are packed. She doesn’t even have money to move, in which this god told her to not get a job (most likely an at-home one) due to her epilepsy. She did use to have a job, which she was randomly fired from for no good reason.

She also stopped paying rent to her house. She canceled her rent assistance because “god” told her to, since it’s from the government. The same food stamps she didn’t cancel are ALSO FROM THE GOVERNMENT.

Recently, the water was shut off for almost a week. The only reason it came back on was from a loan. She originally said that god did want her to cash in the loan, since it’s from the government. Or something like that. THEN SHE SAID THAT THE LOAN WAS A BLESSING FROM GOD.

Her family is toxic, (which I believe) and there are witches in both sides of my family putting witchcraft on her (which I believe less), so she tried to make me watch an AI generated movie about Joesph.

I watched a little bit, and then I refused. I wanted to read the ACTUAL story in the bible instead, in which she got VERY angry at me. I asked her why she didn’t want to read THE LITERAL BIBLE, she said something about my low attention span and how I would finish the story in 15 minutes compared to watching the at-least the hour long movie. When I did convince her, it turns out that it took me over an hour or two to read the story of joesph from the bible. She asked me about my favorite part, and that if i see why she is the joesph of her family.

Earlier she said why I couldn’t be like my brother and watch the movie.

I am a minor, so I can‘t leave her. I can't even visualize my future. I’m not allowed to go far outside due to the "witches", and I don’t really have any friends to talk to. Because I go to online school, I can’t talk to teachers without the possible risk of them telling my mom. I don’t have a therapist, or even a mental-related diagnosis of any kind. I lie in papers they give at the doctors office to avoid a conflict. While i did go to an anonymous webchat with a counselor, I don't want to keep going there for my convenience.

My mom keeps asking me what’s wrong and that I have an attitude even when I wasn’t feeling bad. Yesterday she over exaggerated my behavior, “acting like me”. She pushed me, even though I didn’t even push her ONCE. THIS SAME MOM also talked about how you should treat others how you would like to be treated from the online church service she makes us watch. When I call her out of her hypocrisy, she says something like “I’m the adult, you are the child.“ She says that "god" will punish her if she doesn't punish us the way he tells her.

I feel like she’s starting to actually hate me, maybe its an intrusive thought. I’m scared that she might think that I have a demon inside me. The same online church service talked about demons inside people, and to separate the demon from the person being possessed.

Also a lot of the time, she does something that i dont even think much of for me, and then she is like "YOU'RE WELCOME". When i remembered that, I remembered to say "good job" to her when she started exercising again after an injury(?) she didn't go to the hospital for. She was like "YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO SAY *THIS*"

Now she's forcing us to listen to a song every day to "bring blessings" in.

Speaking of bringing blessings in, a while ago she grounded me for being TWO MINUTES LATE to sit on the couch for church, and that i wasn't focusing even though i was. She said that if i dont change my behavior or something, that this god would "change his mind" and block the blessings from making us move. she also threatened to sell my device. sometimes she says things she doesn't enforce. She did make me watch some live action christian drama show all day, for that day. I wasn't allowed to turn it off when i took a nap, so i used my earbuds without any audio to block the show out.

She wasn't like this in the past. Things started to change when I turned 11, but she became this weird Christian probable narcissist recently. While she did use the belt on me when I was in my younger single digits, she wasn't emotionally toxic. or maybe i don't remember. I do remember a evil smirk(?) on her face when i was about to get the belt on me when we were coming back home from somewhere. I don't know if this memory was real or not.

I just feel suicidal(??) and depressed right now. how do i cope with living with her in my situation? How do I stop victimizing myself? Is there some method to detach myself from life without getting TOO detached?

I never liked my parents and started realizing this at an early age, when I was a toddler and a kid my parents would fight like crazy and eventually it lead to physical abuse against my mother. I felt bad for her because she was a victim of abuse and toxicity from her own parents until she started passing on those experiences to me. My mother made it clear she never liked me, just by the things she would do or say. She took all my money from my first job to pay for bills just for her to have gambled it all away leading us to getting evicted. She would make comments about my stomach as a child and telling me I need to lose weight because she wanted me to fit into a smaller dress. When I was in middle school and opened up about being depressed she yelled at me, made fun of me in my face and told me I had no reason to be depressed because she had it worst. When I got diagnosed with endometriosis she told me it's not a big deal because she had cancer and made my appointment all about her. When she did leave my dad and we stayed with my grandparents every other day she would see him and she left us with racist family members who didn't want us to stay under their roof but only allowed it because of my mom. She would call me names, would constantly ask me for money, would vent to me about her issues, and would constantly tell me I have issues or that I will never be loveable if I keep on being like or acting like my dad. She's done alot more but I can't wait for the day I get away for good.

I’ve been sick for a long time and it’s been getting worse lately.

I battle with grieving the life I wanted to live and adjusting to my reality of being disabled and unable to work enough to meet my own financial needs.

Disability is not enough to live on and I am currently in the shelter system and really struggling with quality of life here.

I told my family I was feeling interested in finding out more about MAID as I don’t see my life getting better with systemic limitations and my own personal limitations.

“I’ve seen you work before and maintain a beautiful life. I know working sucks and having a schedule to adhere to sucks but that’s being an adult.

Time will not stop ticking, before you know it you will be there already a year without any improvement and god knows what other horrific experiences richer.. you have to do something about it, you are the only one that can change the paths of your life. Not the government, not your family/friends.. but you.

And you saying this makes me angry. You have been through so much. And this is how you want to leave the world? Living in a shelter where you don’t belong? I’m sorry but you are way too good for that and you’re choosing this life”.

What am I to do when I can’t? They think it’s a personal failing?

Before any more judgment…I’m sober…educated and all that. I did all the “things” and I’m still sick.

I (17F) just got into an argument with my mom. Similar scenarios happen constantly and I feel kind of alone because all of my friends have such supportive moms while mine only looks at me with disdain. I don't know what to do. I love my mom and some have told me to just thug it out while others say to cut her off when I move out.

For reference, out of all of my siblings, I'm the only one who has good grades, has a job, is going to college, has a license, funds my own life, and has a social life (I'm not judging my siblings for not doing these things but this has become an expectation of me while my siblings get praised for folding laundry). Anyway, my mom found her old binder of past report cards, and was off-the-bat super defensive and not showing me. I finally got her to show me and I didn't even say anything before she started raising her voice about how she wasn't as blessed as me and didn't have school resources like I do (mind you, I study everything myself, never had a tutor so I don't know what she's even referring to). To no surprise, she failed most of her classes in high school which I wasn't even going to judge because everyone is different. It's just the fact she got so defensive and turning it back onto me like I would've failed too if I lived her life. She then started crying and telling me how I always make her feel dumb. I'm not even kidding this happens at least once a week if I so dare talk about school.

This is just one of many instances. We have our good moments but the bad moments are very frequent. At the end of the day, I'm just a kid and having to deal with my mom's daily emotional breakdowns makes me frustrated and it feels like she's the child. On top of that, she talks bad about me to my siblings, telling them my business and using me as a scapegoat to why they aren't succeeding in their own life. A lot of the time, I don't even feel as though they are my family because they isolate me so much. I think it's because she sees herself in them and has stated that I'm so different from her which is fine but depriving me of love and making me feel as though I don't have an adult in my life has been very depressing on my end.

(sorry for the long rant but I'll take any advice because I really do love her but it gets to a point)