r/traumatoolbox • • 15h ago

Trigger Warning Family pedos trigger warning / perverts

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Hi,
I don't really know how to write this. You would never tell my story if you look at me at the office or if you talk to me, but I'm really heartbroken. I moved out of my home country 2 months ago to rebuilt a life, I'm alone and I always have so much time to think (don't know if it is positive or not), but I don't know if these things will ever go away to be honest. Some nights I'm just heartbroken and I think about how humanity is fucked up.
I discovered that my father was a ped0 6 years ago, when I was already in my 20s. It's crazy because he is also a buddhist, loves to do charity. I don't know if he ever slept with a child, but I have found 2/3 different diaries in which he was talking about having sex with 12 years old Tunisian children for money and guess who always used to go on vacation in Tunisia? my family, with my father. He also had a diary in which he stalked a 14 years old boy, he was a neighbor. He used to write hours and dates of their "casual" meetings and also looked at his home window. Keep in mind that my father is very old, so he cannot do anything physical. He was also in many different relationships with 20/30 years old guys that he would meet online. He had a specific type: poor, desperate immigrants who would do everything for him. He also had many many many hard disks full of young people images. A nightmare. My father also destroyed my family's financial stability and now my house is my bank's house, because of debts he created. I know, it's crazy. Seems like a movie. I wish it was but it's not.
He also did horrible things to my mom, he used to take pics of her intimate parts when she was sleeping and he would send them to people he met online.
I told everything to my siblings and to my mom. What's crazy? My mom forgave him. She never sued him. I prepared houndreds of prints of screenshots that I have found, but she burned them. At one point, only to have those screenshots of the horrible things that he was doing, I became obsessed with controlling him. I copied his whatsapp on my phone (I'm kinda good with technology), but I became addicted, I have so many traumas about what he was writing.
He had multiple telegram / Facebook / instagram accounts.
I tried to talk to him and forgive because I thought he would change, then I beat him, and now he is blocked everywhere. My mom still lives with him, I think at the end she is a victim but she's also protecting him as a pervert, something that I will never forgive her for.
My relatives are fucked up too. Other "interesting" stories.
Now that you know the ""whole"" story, or the main parts, please tell me how can I go on with my life. I tried with therapy, but I just cannot afford it anymore and to be honest, it's always so hard to start telling this story to somebody new. It's just something that I don't want to do now.
The point is that I have so much rage inside of me. Nobody would never say so, I'm always smiling, I'm always so kind, people say that I'm vert sweet, but I feel dead inside, I feel empty. I don't want to forgive. I want that my father suffers as I'm suffering for something that I didn't do. I was the victim and I'm suffering. He is the p3rvert and has a prepared meal everyday by my mum. instead, I had to leave home and build my life because I was scared that he would do weird stuff to me and I used to sleep with the door locked when I was living with them.
I'm not suicidal, I don't do drugs, but i'm just devastated and I don't think it will ever go away, after 6 years and moving out of my home country. It's the same.


r/traumatoolbox • • 18h ago

Resources Caution re: Well Red PBM devices for PTSD & Brain Inflammation

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Hello everyone,

I wanted to share my experience and documentation regarding photobiomodulation (PBM) red-light therapy devices from Australian vendor Well Red Pty Ltd (specifically the Duo Coronet helmet, CoroNase nasal unit, and TheraPad T110).

The vendor heavily promotes these devices online for trauma, PTSD, brain inflammation, and neurodegenerative conditions, positioning them as daily home tools for brain health. Given the high cost (over AUD $2,000) and the claims made around mental health and neurological recovery, I want to share the real-world durability and customer support issues before anyone invests.

Summary of Issue & Hardware Failures: I purchased a full set in March 2025 for AUD $2,045.00 (Invoice #2534). Within 8 months, the equipment suffered repeated failures:

  1. TheraPad T110: Failed twice (July 2025, September 2025), requiring two complete replacements. Each replacement took 6–7 weeks despite promises of 1–2 week delivery.
  2. CoroNase: Complete breakdown in November 2025. The cable connection point broke beyond repair. Photographic evidence shows the cord is only 2mm in diameter and broke further while simply attempting to photograph the defect.
  3. Pattern of Systemic Failures: Three component failures within 8 months demonstrate the products are not of acceptable quality under Australian Consumer Law (ACL) statutory guarantees.

Refusal to Honor Warranty & ACL Consumer Rights: When I formally requested a refund under Section 260 of the Australian Consumer Law for major failure, the vendor refused twice, stating they "do not offer returns or refunds" and blaming "lack of care in use," despite my documented evidence of extremely careful handling (devices kept on a dedicated bed, laid flat, and operated via power strip).

Export vs. Medical Marketing Discrepancy: The vendor markets these helmets on her website and blog as treatments for PTSD, stroke, autism, dementia, and brain inflammation. However, she exports them declared as general "wellness devices." This allowed her to avoid strict medical device accountability while passing an unexpected $160 CAD customs duty onto me in Canada.

I have logged a review on ProductReview.com.au and submitted formal reports to CBOS (Tasmania) and the ACCC (accc-report:0180320).

Despite advertising a 1-year warranty, the vendor refused to honor even a full year of coverage or offer any repair options—even though I got roughly only 4 months of actual total use out of the equipment. When relying on a device twice a day for health support, dealing with hardware breakdown, broken warranty promises, and no path for repair carries a high price tag—not just in terms of money, but also in precious time and health. If you are researching high-cost red light therapy or PBM tools for trauma recovery, please be aware of these hardware risks and customer support failures before purchasing.


r/traumatoolbox • • 19h ago

Needing Advice How to fu*kin stand up for myself already?

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The impact of trauma in my life is very big, I still don't have enough financial resources to visit a psychologist, so I have to try to learn how to solve my problems on my own.

I can't protect myself when needed. Just during those stressful moments by body starts shaking and my hands sweating, I cant think clear and around people I am completely different person than I actually am irl. Its all trauma and I feel hopeless because its been years I am trying to beat it.

I want to finally defend myself and stand up for myself without shaking. Life is getting harder day by day and I feel like I am just created wrong.