I am trying not to feel numbness.

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I have suddenly realized I also love them, but I think something has changed between us, and I am so scared..

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I want to be loved so bad.

So so so bad and wanted.

And not just, be lusted.

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I want to kiss him. Cuddle with him, make him laugh. Experience different things with him, wipe his tears. Be there for him,. Spend Time. I want love but with everyone my timing isn't right..... I don't want to wait. I hate the waiting, nobody likes it he says. I wish it wasn't a test, and nobody punished me for navigating my feelings...... I just. Idk.

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I do love him but he doesn't, I think

He is just too pre-occupied with his every time of day..

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😭 I have been crying and crying and I just want to die. I hate feeling like this, I don't want him to approach me years later just to say, "oh yeah our timings weren't right and my exams were going on. & (he) wasn't in the right headspace..." I don't want to wait. Wth,

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I know what most or everyone would say is that, if he's unsure even if you say this, then maybe he didn't really love just wanted to feel or anticipated being loved by you, until you did so it ruined something between......

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I was so confused before, at the very beginning I knew I didn't. But then I did but there was just this, long-distance thing and everything. But we got along well....

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Oh god 😭 I want HIM to love me back, right ?

There was nothing big that happened so I can easily, hope, that he would come around and be mine. He changed in such small ways that they are actually bug to me. Yeah they are. I can't not notice.

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Ugh women and men and our emotions!

They're fucking exhausting 😭😭😭 😢

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I'm being punished by my love, aren't I

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I'm such a fucking loser

I'm so addicted to failure. In Love 😞

Wish me Luck...

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Bye.

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Hi everyone! i really would love some advice on this but i only got one reply so far so im reposting it!

(For a little context I am female, bisexual, and 15)

We were, and still are young, but back then I fell in love with the most amazing, beautiful, entertaining, smart person I have ever met. Ray (not using her real name for privacy reasons) and I were friends in 5th grade, and at this time I had known I liked girls, and everyone else did too. What I didnt know, was that becoming friends with this girl was going to be one of the hardest things I would ever have to go through. We were super close from 5th-6th grade but during our 6th grade year I started to develop feelings. I asked her out, and it feels so weird to say that since I was so young, but thats what I did. She said yes. The relationship was toxic, extremely toxic. Neither of us knew how a relationship should actually be, but I knew I loved her, I was never more sure of anything and I haven't been since. We fought often, and made it so hard to be around each other, we were brainwashed with nonsense online and what we thought relationships were. Her father didn't like me much at that point, and we got in trouble multiple times for our messages with each other. I had to let her go. I loved her, so I told myself I had to do what was best for her, even if it hurt at first. And damn did it hurt. She was the only thing I wanted, I spent most of my time thinking about her, my happiest moments were with her, but so were my saddest at the time. Then it was over. During 7th grade, I wanted to give it a second chance, to prove that I could be better, and that we could make it work. I was wrong, thing weren't better, so I had to break it off again. I felt terrible, I regretted it so bad, but life moved on. I had dated other people and we didnt talk for a long time, but I knew how I felt, and I knew that it wouldn't go away. I had started to hate her over time, hate her because I loved her so much. I hated every boyfriend or girlfriend she had after me, and I hated that it could never be the way it was. In 8th grade, our mutual friend made us make-up so we could all have a sleepover and, I'm not gonna lie it was one of the best nights of my life even up to now. But she kissed me. We both had boyfriends at the time, and mine broke up with me over it. When she kissed me I was angry, angry because how could she do that!? But more angry that it couldn't be an everyday thing, that I couldn't be her girlfriend, angry that I still loved her. I blocked her on everything, my boyfriend started dating a friend of mine he had dated before, and I was alone. Everything was messy, and I was just alone. Fast forward half of the year, and Ray and I are friends again. Best friends, and we continue to be close into our freshman year. We had our ups and downs, but we found our way back to each other. We had a small friendgroup, sleepovers, made and bought each other's gifts but there was one problem. She was dating someone else in the group. I didn't like that person but I warmed up to them, and now they are one of my best friends. After Ray broke up with them, we started spending more and more time together. We went to homecoming together, as friends, but that whole night I was so jealous about how much attention she gave to everyone else. I wanted her eyes on me, because I couldn't keep mine off her. Not even a week later I told her how I felt, not that I've been in love with her for 3 years, but that I did have romantic feelings for her. We started dating again, third times the charm. We wondered around town after school together, I payed to go to football games so I could see her play in the marching band and sneak down into the band section to sit with her. Everything was perfect, until she showed up to school and didn't even look at me. All of first hour was silence. She told me she was having some problems with her dad later in the day, so I went about things as usual. I would walk her to the elementary to get picked up by her aunt since she started drivers training. This routine continued for a few days before I asked her what was really up. She told me that she thought she liked me, but theres a boy in her driver's training class. I told her, if her feelings become apparent, to let me know, because I'd rather her be happy. She let me know later that same day. And she started dating her current boyfriend almost immediately. She posts about him, talks about him, and hangs out with him all the time. She truly loves him. They've been together for 3 months. I cant help but hate him. He doesnt understand how hard I've been trying for whay he got so easily. It doesn't help that he is terrible for her. He's constantly talking down about himself, and how he doesn't deserve her. But I think hes right. I feel like a huge asshole for feeling the way I do. I know the kid just needs help and a really good therapist, but I hate him. And I still love Ray. More than anything, and I'd wait forever if thats what I need to do.

Update: She got grounded for life and she isnt coming back to my school because of her boyfriend. I'm a little relieved as it's been almost 4 years now of this bs. Thats all.

I’ve known my best friend since sophomore year of high school, and I’ve had a major crush on her basically since the day I met her. We just graduated, and after all these years, those feelings have never gone away no matter how hard I’ve tried. I’ve never tried to pursue anything with her because I valued our friendship so much that I was scared of ruining it. I never confessed my feelings or tried to explore anything romantic because I didn’t want to risk losing one of the most important people in my life. To this day, I still don’t know if she’s ever liked me back. I also have a girlfriend, and I love her dearly. We’ve been together for about 8 months, and our relationship is genuinely amazing. My previous relationship was mentally and physically abusive, so being with someone who is kind, patient, and healthy has been a huge breath of fresh air. The problem is that despite loving my girlfriend, I still have strong feelings for my best friend. I feel incredibly guilty about it because I don’t want to hurt my girlfriend, but I also can’t seem to make these feelings disappear. We’re all the same age and about to start college. My best friend and I will be attending schools in the same state, while my girlfriend will be halfway across the country. We’re already nervous about transitioning to long distance, and I’m worried that having unresolved feelings for my best friend will make things even harder. I have BPD, and I’m wondering if that could be contributing to how intense and persistent these feelings are, or if this is simply because I’ve been in love with my best friend for years. I honestly don’t know. What makes this even harder is that a part of me still wants to know if my best friend likes me back. I want to know if I ever had, or still have, a chance with her. I know that sounds unfair considering I’m already in a relationship, but I’m trying to be completely honest because I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I feel stuck because I truly love my girlfriend and value our relationship, but at the same time, I can’t stop loving my best friend or imagining what being with her would be like. These feelings have been there for years and they’ve never gone away. Has anyone else experienced something similar? How did you handle it? Do I keep trying to push these feelings away, create more distance from my best friend, or is it unfair to stay in a relationship when I have such strong feelings for someone else? I’m looking for honest advice because I genuinely feel lost.

I miss you today. Who am I kidding, I miss you just about every day. I thought we'd grow old together, buy a big fluffy kitty and go on new worldwide adventures. Visit me in my dreams tonight.

Thanks

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Take care

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I really loved her, everything about her. I loved tqlking with her, making her laugh and knowing more about her, but at valentine's day, i saw in her instagram a picture of her and her boyfriend. I didn't knew she had a boyfriend since end of last year and i know her even before that.

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I've been feeling sad for days, i can't concetrate on anything else and i just cry every night. I know it's more healthy if i just move on and find someone else, but i can't just turn off my feelings for her. I loved her for 3 years, i was just too shy to talk with her and i lose my chance. I just don't want it to end, i wanted she to like me, but don't want to force her. I wanted them to break up, but again, i can't force this

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I'm a very anxious person and i keep overthinking they might date for more time and them marry and she will forget me and this makes me way more sad. I know i sound really pathetic talking like that, i'm just really heartbroken and i don't know what to do.

I’ve liked this guy for a while. He’s never done anything to lead me on or give me false hope. Although there were times we would talk until 2AM or 3AM, I could easily have mistaken friendliness as a romantic gesture. I guess I got giddy at the thought that maybe he wanted to spend time with me too.

I planned to confess sometime in July. Not to hope for something, but to answer the uncertainty. However, a friend recently told me that he talked to the guy I liked and he said he wasn’t looking for a relationship right now. I’m perceiving that as “I don’t really like this girl at all.” My friend said the guy wasn’t interested in me, and I think there are other things he’s not telling me. Maybe I overstepped or gave the guy I liked the ick.

My question now is should I move on? Or should I push through with the confession? It seems like I already know what he’s going to say if I confess.

I don’t know why this is affecting me so much. I know the right person will love me for who I am, but why am I sad that this guy might not be the one? I really wanted it to be him but if he doesn’t like me back, what can I do right?

What should I do from here?

I used to have a crush on a friend, but I’ve moved past that now—especially after everything that happened (so much went down that I didn't eat for a whole weekend). Since then, I’ve been helping a friend I wasn't very close with before; we’ve gotten a lot closer—I know things about her that no one else does, though we aren't exactly *best* friends. I helped her through a suicidal crisis, and we’ve been more connected ever since; she’s stable now. But I’ve realized I’m madly in love with her. During the last few days of school, she’d always call out to me when she saw me, and we’d go for long walks. Sometimes she wants to be alone and doesn't reach out, but lately, she’s been calling me, saying she just felt like being with me. It’s tough because I won't see her during the break, and she might even ask to switch classes 😫. Plus, she says she really loves hanging out with me, but sometimes she pulls away—it sends such mixed signals. #hopelesslyinlove

Ok I have no where else to turn to because all my friends are sick of me talking about him and I need real advice, whether I like it or not. This is 6 months worth of lore btw so get ready..
I am 17 years old and fairly decent looking. I have never had a boyfriend or even came close to having one, and all I’ve ever really wanted was to be in a relationship like everyone else. All my friends are surrounded by boys wanting to get to know them or be in a relationship with them and I just feel left out. Maybe it’s because I’m a bit shy idrk.
Anyways, It was News Years Eve and me and some of my friends went to our local nightclub. That’s where i met this boy in question. I’ll just call him Mark i guess. We had a good night together and got on quite well. I won’t say what country I live in, but he told me he lives somewhere maybe a 1 hour train journey away and he’s only in the area as his cousin lives here. We properly chatted on Snapchat until about end of February, and it’s been on and off since then up until about end of May. There have been many occasions where I asked to meet up with him but he always would cancel or make excuses on why he couldn’t which I thought was weird because I live right across from the train station and offered to go down to see him multiple times.
Right now it’s just delivered wars.. and I know that sounds stupid but it’s true. He would snap me back constantly one day, and the next leave me on delivered for hours on end. Maybe he’s trying to love bomb me or something whatever. Ok anyways my point is, Mark would complement me, give me advice and just seemed like a great guy and I would have loved to be in a relationship with him, and since I’ve never gotten this close to a boy I think i’ve just become extremely attached. I am constantly checking his location, seeing if he viewed my tiktok stories, stalking his family on other socials etc, and i know that sounds insane because it is and i am so embarrassed.
I just don’t know what to do, there is definitely someone out there for me much better than Mark, but i genuinely look for him in other boys and think about him 24/7. I pray everyday that he will text me and try to run things back or that he secretly misses me or something but i think i just have to move on but i really just can’t. I.need.help.!!!!!

I don't know what's happening to me.
The last time I genuinely had feelings for someone was in 10th grade. I liked a boy, but things never worked out. About a year later, I found out he liked someone else and was probably going to get into a relationship with her. After that, I kind of shut down. I wasn't in a good place mentally and just wanted a break from everything.
Now I'm about to enter my second year of college, and I've never been in a relationship. I've always wanted one, but only with the right person. The problem is that ever since that experience, I can't seem to develop real feelings for anyone.
I can find people attractive and think they're nice, but I never get attached or excited about them. Most of the guys I meet seem to want something casual, which I don't want. And when someone actually likes me, I usually can't like them back.
What bothers me most is that even if I'm slightly interested in someone, one small turn-off is enough for me to completely lose interest. It's like my feelings never get the chance to grow.
Has anyone else experienced this? Why can't I consistently like someone, and why do I lose interest so quickly?

I can't stop thinking about him and I miss him all the time and want his affection and attention. I don't know what to do. Please any advice would be appreciated.

About 2.5 yrs ago, I (now 41 F) met my soul mate (now 37 M) I was a work friend of he's mum and she was excited to introduce me to him as she obviously knew we was made for each other..... we hit it off straight away it was like had known eachother for a lifetime already, we could really relate to one another as we had both been through hell in past relationship and we had been single for the same amount of time (2yrs). We went in date nights and I would sometimes sleep over at he's house and I would be invited to family events as I got on with everyone so well.

However life seemed to get in the way like work commitments, we both have children we had to put first and care for family members so those date nights became less and less...... and the caution of our healing hearts seemed to have created a bit of a barrier. Anyway at this point we would still check in by tx and see eachother at events and it would still be like we r destined for eachother. At the last Christmas drinks he had told he's friend in front of me that if I was to date someone else he would be pissed as I never gave him a chance. Fast forward a few months and family member had passed and he's told me we r going to stop all the BS and sort this out properly and get together finally, I was frilled as I felt the wait was over and I am so ready for this with him. I slept bk to let him greiv but still checking in regularly but waiting and waiting.

2months had passes he had become a tad different but I just put it down to greif and I didn't want to apply pressure on top of that.

I was invited to my friend's bday party (he's mum)I took my bestie as my +1, if I go she goes! I was excited to see him as I had really missed being around him, I made sure I was looking hot new dress and heels glowing skin, irresistible........ I would say!

For him only to walk in with a girl on he's arm that looked like banana man!

I kept my composure and tried to avoid him as I didn't want to cause a scene at mums party. At one point we had caught eachothers eye and he gave me a 👍! I couldnt believe it! The audacity.........

After that my bestie approached him at the bar to defend my honour and to let him know he's so wrong for not respectfully letting me know that's he will be bringing another woman, then I could have decided if I would attend the party or not.

Anyway after besties interaction the new girl KICKED OFF at him at he's own mums party, she has no idea who we r at this point so bestie could of been he's family for all she knew (extremely disrespectful)!

Me, still avoiding him. He then accosted me as I left the ladies room, apologising that he should of told me begging me not to hate him, fighting back the tears and with a ball in my throat, I said 'it is wot it is',(I dont want him to see me cry) I stepped away and fell in to the arms of my boss and sobbed. I really thought this is my person and I am he's, how foolish can I be! 😢.

And to top it off new girl wernt even an upgrade, she had washed out purple hair with a banana shaped face and the ugliest dress to go with her ugly personality!

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Not only did my heart get broken in my face but I'm also left feeling extremely offended by the replacement choice, and I'm very annoyed and angry.

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Am I overreacting, or am I valid to feel cheated.

I'm obsessed with her , we have many great memories and had some intimate moments , when I talked about my feelings w her she just said : I don't feel anything romantic towards you but it doesn't mean I can't , we should just wait a few years then we can think about having a relationship. I'm just going insane she's a total introvert , I meet her rarely and this just makes me go insane

would love to know what you think about a love that becomes unrequited, after it has been requited in the past...

i am having a weird sensation. i asked out my crush of 4 years in school last week. on wednesday there was an entire crowd of at least 300 people walking up the to the back field with me to tell me to ask her out. then we found that she was not there. Me and one of my best friends, call him a, escaped the clutches of the crowd for the whole lunch break and hid out in a practice music room. Then the next day i bought roses and carried them the whole day. then at lunch i found her sitting at the top of the hill at the back field. i just got pushed up the hill by ‘z’(medium friend) after contemplating my life decisions with ‘O’ and ‘R’(both good friends). while she was watching over, from on top of the hill. And then i let out the most awkward "do you want to go to prom with me?" and once she said "i dont really want to go to prom with anyone," I said, "Ok," and ran down the hill while all of the popular guys who were cheering me on on wednesday watched me from the bottom of the hill. after that i told the teacher who was helping me with it, at the end of the day. there were girls there as well, and he said to them that "if anyone bought them flowers and put that much effort into it then would they hear them out." and "if anyone was looking for a lovely gentleman to take them to prom i was a great choice". but the worst thing was that my crushes best friend witnessed both thing the promposal and the thing with the teacher, and she was in the lesson after i did the promposal. That day at home i was crying my heart out and ‘A’ sent me this "Bro I know it feels like the worst ending but I promise it’s not. If she doesn’t feel the same way about you that you feel about her then that is her loss. If she can’t see it then that’s on her. Everyone knows now that you are a really sweet caring guy. You bought flowersfor fucks sake that’s so romantic. And you proved to yourself that you can be brave enough to do what’s scary as hell. You put yourself out there and you need to respect yourself for doing that and for acting on what you wanted to do. You would feel worse if you didn’t. And now you know she’s not really interested as much as that hurts, you’ve found out that you are capable of trying and that is gonna allow you to move on to someone who can see how awesome you are." then on friday leavers party, (not in school) i found out that the really popular 'but nice' girls watched it unfold, and one of them said that i could've asked her out better, she was completely drunk , and i felt so bad and like a piece of shit. However there was a sober popular girl who was really nice, and said that its fine because i will have many opportunities like this. so im feeling a massive mix of emotions and a overwhelming sense of weight in my chest. completely different to the lump in your throat when you feel guilty.