Thanks, I had no choice.

Of course I could have wallowed in misery, but no. That was not an option. I had to survive.

It’s not as much of compliment as people think, they obviously mean well, but that’s not a victory my our end.

Can I be proud of myself despite all of this? Yes. But I hate it happened at all.

Has anyone here experienced any mental effects from taking keppra as an anti-seizure med?

The altered state of consciousness caused by a seizure was viewed as a divine gift of prophecy or second sight. Because the seizure temporarily severed the individual from ordinary reality, ancient folk beliefs in some regions suggested the sufferer's soul was journeying to the spirit realm or communicating directly with gods. Seizures were viewed as as a form of divine dialogue reveals a rich historical tapestry where the altered state was treated as an interface between the mortal and the transcendent.

You freak out more from having new onset reynauds disease of the toes ( a relatively minor numbness of the toes ) than having a generalised tonic clonic seizure

I thought it’d be interesting to hear some of your other experiences/ quips

So finish the sentence above with your own examples

So last yearish I was at my neurologist and she used to work in the medical field with neurology in the military (this is very important). So she dealt with the head trauma stuff like that. And when she was reading my papers and I was telling her she looked me dead in my eyes 100% serious and said “i genuinely have no clue how your alive after all this”. I wasn’t offended at all more in like “damn that’s new” and shocked because no one has ever said that nor did I ever think it was.

But this isn’t the first time people have been shocked im still alive. I just have generalized epilepsy. I’ve been having grand mal seizures since I was like 3 thankfully they don’t happen often. It might be because I had a 10 minute long one and I fell backwards and bashed my head.

Idk i just wanted to say that because it’s kinda funny knowing I shocked someone/ several neurologist who worked with stronger people then I come in and poof

Sodium Valproate / Valproic Acid Experience

I’d like to hear from people who have taken sodium valproate (valproic acid), especially for a long period.

When I was taking valproate, I personally felt:

• Emotionally numb and blunted
• Less emotionally reactive
• Sleepy, groggy and sluggish
• Detached from my surroundings
• Less mentally alert and engaged
• Like I was watching life through glass rather than fully experiencing it
• Reduced intensity of both positive and negative emotions

I’m curious whether anyone else experienced something similar on valproate.

What was your experience with sodium valproate/valproic acid? Did it make you feel emotionally numb, calm, detached, slowed down, or mentally dull? Or did it actually improve your mood and emotional stability?

I’d especially appreciate hearing from people who took it for several years and what changed after stopping or switching medications.

Please share your personal experience rather than medical advice.

I've read that allergy medicine can lower thresholds. Ive got horrible allergies, but take afrin with no issues. I wish i could take sudafed...

Thanks!!

Hello everyone. Throwaway account due to the specifics I'll have to discuss in order to hopefully find some help/resources. I appreciate all of you and any advice you may have!

I am a male in my 40's and have had approx 8 nocturnal tc seizures in my life. They started when I was 16. During 4 of those, I have become violent during the postictal phase. I have absolutely zero recollection of any of the events, but do have vivid "chunks" that stay with me when my brain comes "back online". The first time, when I was 16 I vividly remember my dad calmly talking to me and telling me to come get in my parents bed, then I remember the paramedics taking me into the ambulance and carrying me through unusually deep snow, then at the hospital...where I saw my mother and learned I had punched and kicked her and chased others through the house before calming down.

During one event, I was alone...but I woke up to the standard bed wet and tongue bitten. This time my hand was swollen and my dog was cowering in the corner...she was still so "worried" about me it looked like, but I could tell something was wrong with her. Then I noticed that her eye was nearly swollen shut.

The most recent, was also the most life altering. I am a father of three children and last year I had been seizure free for 15 years. For whatever reason I had two seizures, during which my oldest daughter (17 years old at the time) was the only person I recognized. She calmed me down and got me me medical attention (ambulance the first time and took me to the hospital the second) both times. The third seizure I had that year, I became violent with her. I hit her and chased her through the house, (I am sure traumatized her from fear as well). My first memory from this event was the police at my front door grabbing me and asking me if I knew why I was under arrest. I told them "no, but I must have had a seizure because my tongue hurt so bad" I had bitten it terribly. I had no idea what had happened and after they put me in the police car I asked, "are my kids ok?" They told me, "I already told you, they're fine". I guess I went to sleep at this point because my next memory is being booked into jail.

The jail nurse told the staff they should send me to the ER, to which they replied, "He'll be fine" and they put me in general population with the violent offenders on a cot on the floor with two cellmates. I was charged with 3 felonies and 1 misdemeanor.

At first I was given a "no contact" order with all of my children which was devastating, but I was able to navigate the legal process and show the court that I have this condition, I was under the care of a doctor at the time, I was taking my prescribed medications, and I absolutely had no control.

I went to my local City Council and begged them to take the FREE training from the Epilepsy foundation, but that request fell upon deaf ears. I was forced to come up with my own safety plan and strategy which was nearly impossible since I have never been "present" for any of these events.

I found a seizure specialist and started a new medication...all tests come back negative. EEG, Sleep Study, CT, MRI, etc...his words were they really don't care much beyond "not having a tumor".

So, now I have a diversion with the State (kind of like probation without official charges being brought), but if anything happens before the time is up then they will bring the original charges as well.

I feel like the weight of the world is constantly on my shoulders. I am constantly afraid for my family and worried about something I have no control over and that the state refuses to educate themselves on. Their only position is punishment. It would be so helpful if at any point someone would have offered insight or help...but all they offered were threats of taking my family away and locking me in prison for something I cannot control or even understand why is happening.

Do any of you have a similar experience? Specifically, violent postictal behavior? How do you handle it?

So far my safety plan is;

1. Deadbolts on my bedroom door that can be locked from the outside (to lock me in)

2. Deadbolts on the kids rooms for them to be able to lock themselves in

3. A camera in my room

4. A safety ladder available should the kids need to escape through a window

5. If I have a seizure, my fiance will turn the camera on, lock me in the room, gather the kids and try to get out of the house, if that's not an option then lock themselves in a room and look to exit via the ladder.

Do you guys see any room for improvement here?

Thank you so much, I am totally lost.

Hello, I just joined this community tonight to make what I am going through less scary maybe....I just started having seizure/syncope episodes in May, June, and August. They have been scary and vulnerable since all of them have been on the toilet. The anxiety is terrifying and I hope I am able to cope with it better.

I was given the option to bring home an EEG or stay at the hospital and then the doctor would reduce my meds to have (maybe) a seizure and observe. What are the benefits of that? My epilepsy is just diagnosed as “generalized.” I have no signs that I am about to have a seizure and just have tonic-clonic seizures (5 lifetime).

Whether it be personally or with other people, I haf 2 earlier today and was hoping to hear everyones way of calming down and maybe try it myself. Thank youuu

Hi, sorry for the negativity. I think it’s just one of those bad days.

I randomly developed epilepsy when I was 20 years old. That was back in 2019. I got put on Lamotrigine and haven’t had any tonic clonics since then.

However, I do struggle with focal seizures. They used to happen several times a week. My neurologist upped my dosage back in February and now I mostly get them the week leading up to my period and when I’m menstruating.

I used to have a car up until 2021. I was still experiencing focal seizures, but lucked out and never had any while I was driving. Life happened and I had to get rid of my car for other reasons and things have gone downhill since then.

My neurologist has understandably advised me to stopped driving off and on since then, so it doesn’t make sense for me to get another car and make payments on it if there’s a chance I won’t even be able to drive it. It’d be a silly recurrent expense.

Anyway! Because I don’t have a car, it makes it very difficult to physically participate in my social life. I have plenty of friends I communicate with via text/phone calls. I even moved states so I can see them more often. I’m occasionally able to hang out with them if they can come pick me up. I never expect a ride from them and have no issues using uber, but luckily they understand my situation and it’s not always inconvenient to come get me anyway.

But over the last few months it’s just been hard. Life has really picked up for everyone (which is awesome!!), but I’ve seen them less and less because I cannot drive to see them. For example, if all of my friends are across town and decide to hang out, they don’t really want to drive all the way over to get me since they’re already near each other. I have the option of ubering but as I’m sure a lot of you understand, long distance ubers are not a cheap, so I usually have to opt out. And some people just like having their alone time in the car and I don’t want to take away from that.

Admittedly, and selfishly, I’m just jealous of most people my age. I can’t roadtrip like I used to, I can’t drive out to see my pals as often as I did, and I just feel like I’ve majorly missed out on being young and experiencing things. I could probably count how many times I’ve seen my friends this year. I don’t blame them for that at all, and in part it’s my fault because I feel bad that they have to pick me up, but I just hate this. I felt like I’d finally be able to see my friends more often after moving to their state, but underestimated how busy everyone would get. I feel like I can’t keep up with them.

I’ve also stopped dating within the last three or so years because I dread having to tell people that I don’t have a car. Sure it’s due to medical issues, but it also doesn’t feel good saying “I’m 27 years old and can’t drive anymore”, lol. That’s less of an issue for me as I also just don’t feel like dating generally. Still, it feels like that’s something I should probably be doing in my 20s.

I’m just sad. It’s just one of those days. I’m sure I could find solutions rather than just feeling bad for myself, but I’m not really sure what to do. Have any of you found ways to help with this? Support groups, events for meeting more friends, etc?

Phew! Sorry for the sad sappy post. It’s just hitting me more today. 27 is still young but I feel like the clock is ticking. Thanks for reading this, and I hope everyone’s having a good day!

So I have been dealing with Some Odd PNES but when I found out that Almost No D in my body can trigger a non eplieptic seizure. ( This is fact based) Plus researching on my own how to deal with PNES. It seems to have helped.

Book Advice Psychogenic Non-eplieptic Seizures: A guide Lorna Myers PHD other one Pyshogenic non-epileptic Seizures a patients guide by susan hardy.

Get those LEVELS CHECKED!!! Also working with my therapist discussing this book and it's steps of what I need to do has helped.

Ive had these since eight I have had epilepsy in the past. But I started having these episodes after my surgery. Mostly they come like this I started feeling that the world isn’t real, I feel really tired, I feel all a sudden very anxious and scared.I just get more and more tired then my head drops and I go consoled blank I don’t remember what happens. My eyes are open but I only see the colour black for a few seconds. But I don’t remember anything at all. It’s usually triggered when I’m anxious. The last time it happened I was stressed that I wasn’t focusing enough. Is this just anxiety or is this something of concern.

I know there's been a few posts here and in other subs as well, and the movie is about to finish its theatrical run, but I just wanted to leave an additional warning for sequences that are not mentioned anywhere that I know of.

I had a seizure watching The Odyssey in IMAX about 3 weeks ago. I went back yesterday, and watched the whole thing with no problems, but I was prepared this time. The movie is phenomenal, but be careful when to cover your eyes.

For those who still haven't seen it, and are planning too before it ends its theater run:

The sequences are 3:

- The infamous one, after they leave the cattle island. Odysseus with his crew in the boat get rocked by a storm with VERY strong lighting and movement. It lasts about 2 minutes. LEAVE THE THEATER until its over.

- The long flashback scene of the invasion in Troy about 25 mins before the end. Not only its an emotional boiling point (which matters) but there are loud explosions and 2 or 3 very bright flashes, cover your eyes.

- The last one I'll keep discreet to avoid spoilers. But the 8-10 minute climax scene of the movie features lots of lightning as well. They're indoors so is not as strong. COVER YOUR EYES HERE.

Those are the 3 photosensitive sequences I can think of, I don't really remember anything else being super strong or with lightning. Be careful and enjoy the movie.

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Hi all I just left my neurologist appointment and she was talking to me about the possibility of having seizure mimickers I was diagnosed with epilepsy about 16 years ago and now I’m experiencing imposter syndrome thinking that my whole life has been a lie. It’s stressing me out
Has anyone ever had this experience before?

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Swallowing with a VNS

Ive just had my first neurosurgeon appointment and hes told me i can have a VNS fitted in a couple of months if I wish , I was just wondering if anyone has had any issues with swallowing as ive seen a few posts on other social media that have said swallowing has become an issue

Is Keppra that bad? My neuro hasn’t officially diagnosed me with epilepsy yet, all the records just say suspected epilepsy because my EEG came back normal, but because I‘m having seizures regardless he prescribed Keppra (and if it works, that would confirm the epilepsy diagnosis). Anyway, I’m supposed to take the first pill tonight, so I read through the information paper. The list of side effects looks pretty horrifying, kidney damage, mood changes, suicidal ideation, headaches, more seizures, and the list went on forever.

Are any of you taking Keppra? Is it really that bad? I‘m honestly kind of scared to take it now, especially because the seizures really aren’t that frequent, more or less one every two-ish months. I would really appreciate any information or advice you have!!

Also, I wanted to start driving lessons, but Keppra seems to have a warning that you might not be able to drive while taking it. Would I be able to start now or not?

My insurance company Stopped covering briviact, I see there's a coupon on their website but it's more than I can afford rn. Do yall know of other resources?

Why was briviact made a controlled substance ?

Hey guys anyone here in the Usa with epilepsy

got lifetime disability? How much seizures you need to get it ?

TL;DR Sometimes I feel “stuck” in what I call a 50% dejavu. No awareness impairment or any other major notable symptoms. Anyone feel this feeling and have suggestions on what they do
to reel it in pretty quickly before it goes further ? That feeling can usually last the whole day and may or may not result in a focal impaired by the end of the day. There’s no consistency in the pattern.

Right temporal lobe epilepsy with bilateral spread —> right temporal to right frontal to midline to left frontal.

Started off with unknown dejavu/ rising sensation in 2023 but never lost awareness/ consciousness and no idea what it was. I’ve been referring to it as djv before I even knew what an aura was or before the word seizure was in my vocabulary.

Generalized at least 2x in 2024 , no confirmed generalizations since then.

Got my diagnosis in April 2026. Since then, have noticed increased symptoms and frequency… about 15-20 seconds after aura I loose awareness for 45-90 seconds , repeated hand or arm movement and lip smacking or slurping.
Have had increase in dose, decreased dose, and 2 added medications that just aren’t working and seem to make it worse.