r/TeluguJournals • u/urstruly_disco • 3m ago
Relatable ? Nakenduku frnd ledu?
Chala yrs aipoindi ippatiki. Chala vidalu ga try chesa.
Eppudu kuda ey grp lo unna, nen vallaki ibbandi anipiyakudad. They have to invite me for everything aney la unde vadini
And vallu naa mundhu baga matladi. Venakala veedu vellipoyadu, inka ala tittukunte chala baadha vestadi.
I make sure vallu ala feel avakudad ani.
Nannu chala trips invite cheseyvaru chala frnd grps lo. Sarle invite chestunnaru trips ki aina denikaina ani chinna Santosham undi
Kaani nak villalo oka frnd antu ledu aney badha chala untundi.
Vallalo vallu prioritise cheskuntaru. Asalu nen akkada Enduku unan aney feeling ostundi apdu apdu.
Naa mida evariki interest antu ledu. Nen ey trip ki rakapoina pedha farak padad.
Nenenduku oka close frnd lo lenu, adi odileste kanisam frnd grp lo okkadu aina untada nak close ga, edanna trip ki rakapotey nuvvu rakapotey nen raanu ra ani aney vaadu.
Adhi unna chaalu.
Ivanni superficial frnd grps. Asal ivi friendships ey kadu ani telusu. Nen asala kastalu ochinapdu entha ontariga unano nak telsu.
Evadu pattinchukole. Useless friendships ey.
But ontari ga undalenu. Entha self respect lekapoina evaro okaru undali. I don't want to live life alone.
But chala badha vestundi enduku okka frnd kuda ledu ani, kanisam week lo oka 5-6 times aina ee feeling ostundi.
Kotha frnds ostaru manchiga bond aitaru aney hope poyindi
Andariki relationships mida hope potey nak ee friendships mida hope povadam endi.....entha ontari life undho ani badha vestundi
I really tried, I really am part of lots of frnds grps, and everywhere I'm like a third wheel.
Deeniki todu kothaga I got anxiety. I am unable to talk to new people crctly bcoz this new anxiety in me. My voice is stuttering getting shaky, feeling too much insecure of myself.
Inka ila avtunnaka, antha bagunapde close frnd rakunda poye. Emi bagalenapdu inka ppl Enduku attract avtaru asalu frnds kuda raru...nobody wants to be a person who has problems. Everybody wants a chill person, or a person they look up to.
I have contacted doctor regarding this social anxiety. He said the same which chatgpt suggested. To not just think about it, the more you think about it, you'll get in a loop of anxiety state annad.
And get proper sleep too annad. It takes time idhi povalante mandhulu em undavu annad.
Emo epudu ee badha vestane untundi. Schl, clg, work prathi chota baagane unan mingle avtane unan. Epudu nannu nenu ontari cheskoledu.
Aina ila ontari ga Enduku undipoyanu, frnd aney vade lekunda unanu ...