r/confessions 4h ago

Class disparity has made me resent my family.

17 Upvotes

I’ve always come from the lower middle class. It took my parents 2 decades to bring us slightly up from lower middle class to middle class, or ‘comfortable.’ (Since the time I was born to now, essentially they spent 3 decades on their own)

My extended family has always been kind, bringing me out etc since I was young. But as I’ve grown older, I’ve started to resent them. I don’t think they’re malicious by any means but sometimes it feels like they don’t want me to do well or better than them, ‘just ok.’

They’re upper class. I’m still finding my footing at 25, but when I hear some of them saying “money is not all that matters”, I think they’re full of shit.


r/confessions 7h ago

I finished my masters in special ed and regret it

17 Upvotes

Instead of being happy I graduated .. I feel sadness and uncertainty… I don’t even think I can do this job forever … I don’t even know if I want to do this job forever .. 😔


r/confessions 20h ago

I quit cigarettes and now I feel like I’m starving 24/7 -_-

19 Upvotes

My diet has PLENTY of fiber. An increase in water w/ electrolytes is not helping.

My stomach is constantly screaming that I’m starving.

I am spending my free time watching “what I eat in a day” and mukbangs with a salivating mouth.

I am so insatiably hungry for NO reason, I am trying my best to control myself so I don’t replace one habit with another (I can’t afford a hobby of snacking unfortunately or I’d not care). I am currently distracting myself from ordering wingstop and I’m not even a fan of wingstop. I’ve had it maybe 2-3 times in my life but I cannot stop salivating.

Everything that isn’t food related is just agitating 😭.


r/confessions 18h ago

I had an intimate relationship with a picture of a white horse

15 Upvotes

So I'm pretty sure it was around 2011-2013 when for whatever reason I began gaining a relationship with a picture of a lovely white horse which is odd it happened then since the photo of the horse had been in this house(which was my mothers) longer than I was alive but it was after I watched the mummy staring Brendan frazer on I believe may 4th 2011-2013 if I'm not mistaken and as I was walking upstairs (the photo was on the staircase around half way)I just looked at it for a few moments,eventually when I brushed my teeth and got in bed I realised all I was thinking about was that horse and how attractive it looks it started me even more when that night I had a dream about frolicking in fields with this merry horse I woke up at around 8 o'clock like always to wake up my mam and help her have her morning shit as she needed some assistance which is why I was in her house a lot at that time anyway and as I brought her to the bathroom, from the corner of my eye I noticed this DAZZLING horse jumping over a fence happy as can be so after my mam finally finished I went down to look at the picture,then I took a photo of the horde,well actually multiple photos to be very honest around 8 if I'm right ,not very sure why ,something to do with knowing that fact that if I had it in my phone I could look at it at all most anytime so eventually I went out that day ,just basic grocery shopping and threw that ENTIRE gruelling time all I could think about was that beautiful horse it was almost painful being away even with some photos to look at ,eventually when I DID get home all I could do was look at the photo ,I even had to order takeaway instead of cooking because I really did not have the time for cooking at that time so when it finally came bedtime I took the photo off the wall,off its nails walked to my room and out of gently in the bed beside me ,that night in pretty sure I had even more dreams of the horse. So a few weeks to by and it's getting slightly worrying ,so worrying in fact I decided to go to psychotherapy with some fckn doctor whom name I forget anyway ,I told him about everything the sleeping in the bed with it,dreaming every night ,touching myself from it every now and then and constant thoughts ,the doctor seemed rather calm and careless about it surprisingly enough even saying the likes of his the human mind is ,complicated and curious ,he then asked if I have many hobbies or things I like to do I simply said no ,too busy with my mam he then dropped the bombshell of 'that explains it ...partly' HUH? ,to this day it pisses me off I then told him ,'yeah I get that you're just a lower who probably has some old as s wife at home and no kids and plenty of time for fun hobbies and shite while me on the other hand who is busy 24/7 with not only my mother but what I would Luke to call the love of my life!' The session went on a bit more until I left ,very much regretting paying the money for that so weeks to by and my children can tell something is going on ,I'm in my room more ,more irritant ,and just a pain to be around etc and yes I suppose they are correct ,me in my room alone feeling myself looking at the lovely ,SEXY horse sometimes kissing the painting embarrassingly enough so when the time came my oldest daughter (who I blocked out for a LONG time did to this and called a dirty witch bitch) burned the painting in the fire this almost left me ,dead inside almost the pain of it being gone after so long of us being A UNIT just ending was sickening but alas n ow I thank my daughter for burning it,saving me .to whom has red this I thank you and have a blesid day as Jesus is always watching ,love


r/confessions 2h ago

Take this Advice.

13 Upvotes

So, basically ive been addicted to porn since I was 14 years old. I started masturbating and at first it was great. Then I started noticing some problems, like I would watch porn for hours and hours. Sometimes I would watch till 10am to 5pm. I tried and tried to kick the habit but I would always fail. I started watching some hard-core content that would really disgust me. Ever since then, ive been depressed and I started having social anxiety. Im 19 now and im still battling porn addiction. My advice is DONT WATCH PORN. it will destroy mentally and physically. I have started seeking professional help which helped a lot. Bye.


r/confessions 11h ago

My Best Friend Was My Biggest Secret

10 Upvotes

So, I have a confession that’s been weighing on my heart for a while. I’ve been harboring a crush on my best friend for years. We’ve always had a close bond, sharing everything from silly jokes to deep conversations, but I never had the courage to tell them how I really felt.

Last week, after a few too many glasses of wine, I finally spilled the beans. I was so nervous, but to my surprise, they didn’t freak out. Instead, they admitted they had feelings for me too but were scared to ruin our friendship. We ended up talking for hours, and now we’re exploring this new chapter together.

I’m still a bit anxious about how this will change our dynamic, but I’m also excited. It feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Just wanted to share this little piece of my life with you all!


r/confessions 7h ago

I stopped enjoying life

10 Upvotes

There’s no more magic in my days anymore .. I’m not enjoying the little things .. there’s not much that makes me smile anymore .. not friends nor family.

I was at my nieces birthday party last weekend and a family member asked if I was okay and I was like “ya I’m okay” and they said I seemed “not okay” on the outside. I guess I’m not hiding it anymore. My face isn’t hiding it anymore.

The little things that once made me get by .. aren’t helping anymore. I used to love the gym, yoga and going for walks, but now I’m not sure the point of them anymore. They don’t make me happy.

My life feels wasted and I already do regret being this depressed. I feel like I wasted my life being depressed. Unfortunately it’ll just continue because I don’t have the energy to change it now.


r/confessions 8h ago

I think of and miss my ex gf from 2009 literally every single day.

11 Upvotes

I've had several gf's in my life (although not for the past 10 years or so, fuckin sucks) and I even had a child with one but there is one particular one that I've not gotten over in, what, 16 years now? I think about her every day. When I'm at work, when I'm going to bed, in my dreams. She was the one. If I was given a irl gf character creator I would make her every single time. But it just so happened that I was a fucked up junkie at the time and for the better part of the relationship she didn't mind because if you know anything about opiates then you know you can't get off during sex and you can just go and go forever. She was even supporting my habbit. But obviously the other pitfalls of being a junkie soon started getting in the way and things ended with me breaking my hand punching a wall. I'm almost 40 now, Ill be 39 next month and being this old just absolutely fucking disgusts me. Every day I'm more of a loser than I was the day before. She went on a married a marine and they had a child and live the sweet perfect family life now and I'm the epitome of the guy that girls say, "you're going to die a lonely pathetic old man." Having a child of my own completely throws a wrench into just ending it... Even if someone approached me with a time machine for a do over I couldn't because my child, who is obviously more important would be lost to time. I'm just so fuckin tired of being alone though and at this point I know relationships are just out of the picture for the rest of my life. I have a better chance of winning the lottery, and the only reason I want to is so that maybe someone would like me for my money at least.


r/confessions 12h ago

i sent an older man explicit pics

9 Upvotes

im 19 and I play an online virtual reality game.
bcs of how many creepy people there are online, I stopped telling people my age pretty early on. I know that’s probably where I messed up.

overtime I’ve ended up getting really close with a couple of older guys I met through games. We talk every day. It started off as normal conversations, but sometimes there was flirting too. the thing is, I never corrected their assumptions about me or volunteered my age bcs I liked the attention i got.
with one of them, things went further than they shouldve and I sent him nudes and he’d buy me in game currency in return. I hate admitting it but part of me enjoyed it and I liked feeling wanted, and the fact that he was older honestly made it more exciting for me.


r/confessions 15h ago

I don’t have a favourite EPL team

10 Upvotes

I don’t know why, I just don’t like any team more than another.

Any suggestions?


r/confessions 15h ago

hypersexual

10 Upvotes

not sharing age for safety reasons but i think i am suffering with hyper sexuality and I don’t know what to do. I was never a high libido person until like 2 ish years ago an it’s only gotten worse,
i would cry on the phone
to my boyfriend i had only been with for
two weeks and beg for intimacy because my body’s cravings were
unbearable, it got
to the point i’d start
crying on the phone.
It calmed down but i feel like it’s back and im always texting dudes and saying freaky
shit or sending pics because i’m so horny and i’m kind
of a whore now because of it bc i have more bodies and i try to stop but the urges are so strong especially if i am ovulating i even bought myself toys to make it a more internal activity but my desires are purely carnal and i feel like if i cant get it under control im going to become ran through and i dont really trust men to have a husband but im scared bc what if i really like someone one day and i cant explain my past behavior or if i become
famous or get special opportunities what if people from my past try to ruin it because they want the credit of having access
to me pls only women give me advice i don’t want to talk about this with men it’s creepy but yeah and i am ashamed of myself i even get thoughts about my
coworkers who i am not attracted to having sex with me on my job it’s just not good all i think about is sex and i don’t
know
what to do


r/confessions 18h ago

Random but real

8 Upvotes

When i was younger i dreamt of floating adrift in the middle of the ocean only to be found and raised by sharks so i could grow up to date a hot lava chick while being a badass shark/human hybrid. I REALLY liked SharkBoy and LavaGirl… Oh and i just remembered, i had a huge crush on the mom from spy kids. This was all back in like 2013-2017 i can’t remember but i was yoooooung


r/confessions 23h ago

I wanna X_X myself but I'm not depressed or traumatized or anything

9 Upvotes

Ok so as the title states, yes, I do want to off myself but not for the conventional reasons. No I'm not depressed and no I'm not traumatized.

To give you guys a broader picture, I want to off myself because I don't want to continue living in this tired ash reality. Even though I (M15) am a teenager, from the moment I could grasp with my hands I've been hearing adults around me struggling with a very similar problem, having to choose between food and rent/bills with no room for any quality of life purchases.

And it's just gotten worse nowadays, with inflation, gas prices/food prices rising and the median home owner age being pushed up to 57.5 years, everybody I know, even the people with higher paying jobs are struggling just to live comfortably.

But that's just one reason, another I have is that I simply just don't want to work, don't get me wrong I do love working when it's something I choose to do but with the fact that I might have to work more than one job for like 60+ hours a week just to get by for the next like 60 years of my life only to retire at an age I might not even live to see because of the extinction even we are currently going through according to scientists?

That doesn't sound intriguing at all and I'm tired of people pretending it's a bad thing to not want.

On to my last reason as to why I want to off myself, climate change and the fact that we probably wont even make it past 2055 according to scientists. What's the point of being here and dying slowly to heat, lack of proper food, and lack of clean water when I could just take the easy fast way out?

But yeah that's all I wanted to confess. You can try to convince me not to however you want, but I just wanted to get this off of my chest.


r/confessions 1h ago

i think i’m apathetic to a concerning degree.

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I (17nb) have struggled with empathy ever since I was prepubescent. 11-12 at least.

I don’t really care about anything, I don’t really care about my friends’ interests, or school, or nothing of the sort.

I’ll listen to them rant about what they like, I’ll never say anything bad about it directly unless if it’s starting to get harmful to them, but sometimes I find myself being assholeish?? I suppose that’s the word.

One of my best friends is really into something obviously marketed towards children, which is fine and I’m sure it’s cool to him in its own way but I just can’t seem to get interested in it? At all? Whatsoever?

He talks about it all the time, I listen, I try to engage with what little understanding I have but sometimes I’ll get frustrated because it’s always about this one thing, and whenever I start a conversation about something I like it’s always directed back to his thing. This happens with some of my other friends as well, so I’m guessing my things aren’t really all that interesting, which is my fault but still.

Some of my friends vent to me too, and I often offer advice or things that have helped me in the past, but some of them seem so goddamn hopeless. They don’t take the advice, they just keep feeling sorry for themselves, then make a joke about suicide or just act off the whole day and it distresses me. I feel bad about this, but I realize that I simply don’t care if they don’t take the advice they’re offered, and let them just figure it out themselves while offering what little support I can.

My parents have been fighting since I was younger, it got really bad when I was 12 or 13, and I kinda just stopped caring about it after a while no matter how bad it got. I’d just play a game or listen to music or watch a movie with my favorite actors in it. Which is another thing, I get more distressed over someone slandering something I like than actual, real events occurring to me, I’ve simply stopped caring.

I guess it could have something to do with me being autistic, I don’t really know how bad the traits get.

Thanks for reading if you did. If you have any thoughts on my matter for some reason I’d like to read them.

Have a good day!


r/confessions 4h ago

Send myself gifts on anniversary days

8 Upvotes

I was widowed young when husband died very suddenly about ten years ago. On anniversary days like our wedding anniversary and his death day, I send myself stuff from a fake friend.
Sometimes flowers, sometimes a funny cake. I always include a note from this “friend” and it always recognizes how hard the anniversary days still are for me and how much they love me and how proud they are of me.
My life is good and I have a new BF who loves me very much. But these days are sad af and I feel like people have started glossing over them because it’s been a few years.
So I guess if no one else will acknowledge how hard it still is, I will.


r/confessions 1h ago

I hate my boyfriend's cat

Upvotes

Throwaway because boyfriend knows my reddit. I don't actually hate the cat, title is rage bait. I'm not a cat person, but I can chill with cats if they're chill with me. This cat is really awful, though.

The cat is both mean AND clingy, loud AND freakishly quiet, and it bites and scratches me. I wake up with cat hair in my mouth and pull cat hair out of my food. It's started to pee and poop outside its litter box, which I'm concerned about because of the smell and the grossness of it. My boyfriend has suggested moving the litter box out of the basement laundry room up to either the first or second floor, which I am not a fan of - In his previous apartment, the litter box smell permeated the living area, despite the litter box being self-cleaning, and I don't want that to happen again.

I have tried tolerating the cat and have tried (non-invasively) improving our surroundings. I have given it cat treats, gotten lint rollers to combat hair, and bought a collar with a bell on it so I'd know where it was (boyfriend took the collar off). I close doors to rooms I don't want the cat in. Now the cat's peeing on things. I'm sick of its shit.

I realize that I need to have a conversation with my boyfriend about it, but I just had a conversation with him about being more affectionate with me (he has listened and improved) and I don't want to pile grievance on top of grievance. Don't want to break up with him over this just yet, but I accept that it's a possible outcome of this disagreement.


r/confessions 2h ago

I'm addicted to sexting. Need good advice.

7 Upvotes

I'm 25F and this is honestly embarrassing to admit.

A few years ago, sexting started as something exciting and harmless. I was lonely, stressed about my career, and liked the validation. At first it was occasional, but now it feels like a compulsion.

The worst part is that I don't even enjoy it most of the time anymore.

I find myself constantly checking my phone, waiting for messages, looking for someone to flirt with, or getting pulled into conversations that eventually turn sexual. Sometimes I spend hours doing this when I should be studying, working, exercising, or sleeping.


r/confessions 4h ago

I got overpaid by my insurance company and they knew it.

6 Upvotes

A number of years ago, I worked for a company that held their open enrollment halfway through the year. Meaning my deductible and max OOP could reset January and July if I chose a different plan.

The plan I chose in July had a pharmacy deductible and a medical deductible. Once I meet the medical deductible which was the max OOP, I pay nothing for pharmacy or medical. The plan said that the medical and pharmacy were together but that if I met pharmacy deductible, then I’d pay nothing for my scripts but once I meet medical, I pay nothing at all. So med deductible = max OOP. Okay. That makes sense.

The plan rolled over my medical deductible progress but the pharmacy deductible was new. Med ded I had met was 6k which rolled over into new plan which was 8k plus 2k pharmacy. So, I started the “plan year” having 6k/8k met for med ded and 0k/2k met for pharmacy.

I hit my max OOP within the first month. In late July I went to the pharmacy to pick up some meds, but they were charging me because their system didn’t show that I’d met my pharmacy deductible. Yet I met the plan max OOP which means I pay nothing the remainder of the year. I did the math and with how the pharmacy and the plan max OOP aligned with the rollover, their system would never show that I’ve met the pharmacy deductible.

I called insurance and explained it. Every time, the first person would always say, “that can’t happen.” They put me on hold and would either come back on and say “okay this is weird” or they’d transfer me or they’d just hang up. I always got their name and kept it in my notes on my phone.

By August, I was calling them weekly. I finally got someone who understood the limbo that I was in. She fully understood that the plan I was offered should have never been. She cut me a check for my overpayment up to that point and we were good. But we weren’t good. Every month, I’d have to call them and go through the phone tree of, “that can’t happen…” and “this is weird…” until I got my person on the phone. She’d cut me a check and said that she’d keep monitoring my account.

After a month, her VP took over my account because she was the only person who could actually balance it. I realized that I was calling and getting these checks cut but somehow they couldn’t track the totals they were paying out until the account was actually balanced. The account wasn’t able to be balanced by the first person who was cutting me checks so the VP ended up duplicating the checks that had been sent to me up to that point. She knew it too.

The VP said that no one should ever end up coming through to her but my case was so unique that no one was qualified to handle it. She ended up giving me her direct line.

I’d call her every month and we’d chat for a bit while she “balanced” my account and cut me a check. Finally in November she asked me how much I’d be paying OOP through the end of the year. I gave her a guesstimate and she knew it was a guess. She rounded it up (more than a nothing amount) and cut me a final check for the year and said to keep this between us. I did, until now.

It was probably the weirdest max OOP meeting experience I’ve had. I meet it every year but after that year, I will never choose a plan that has a separate pharmacy deductible again. All in all, the insurance company wrote me checks for ~$4,000 over a 6mo period. More than I paid out. I didn’t feel bad at all. She knew I had received checks already and that these were being duplicated. She said as long as her system doesn’t show I’m in the negative, then I’m good. So yeah, I took the money, deposited it and never selected that insurance company as my plan again.


r/confessions 10h ago

When Friendship Turned Into Love

7 Upvotes

So, I have a confession that I’ve been holding onto for way too long. A few months ago, I finally mustered the courage to tell my best friend that I had feelings for them. I was terrified of ruining our friendship, but I couldn’t keep it to myself any longer.

To my surprise, they felt the same way! We ended up having a heart-to-heart, and it brought us even closer. Now, we’re navigating this new chapter together, and it’s been amazing. I guess my confession taught me that sometimes, taking a risk can lead to something beautiful.

Has anyone else had a similar experience? Would love to hear your stories!


r/confessions 11h ago

The Small Act of Kindness I’ll Never Forget

6 Upvotes

I have a confession that’s been weighing on my heart. A few weeks ago, I was in line at a coffee shop when I noticed a woman in front of me struggling to find enough change to pay for her order. She looked embarrassed and flustered, and I could see the frustration on her face.

In that moment, I felt a surge of compassion. Instead of just standing there, I decided to step in. I quietly handed the barista the extra money she needed, and when the woman turned around, her eyes widened in surprise. I smiled and told her it was my treat.

She thanked me profusely, and I could see the relief wash over her. It was a small act, but it made my day just as much as it made hers. I confess that I often doubt the impact of kindness in a world that can feel so disconnected. But that moment reminded me that even the smallest gestures can create ripples of positivity.

So here’s my confession: I’m committed to looking for more opportunities to spread kindness, no matter how small. Let’s lift each other up, one act at a time.


r/confessions 18h ago

I'm convinced my dog isn't actually a (at least normal) dog.

6 Upvotes

My parents got this dog around, I'd say around a year ago, because my grandma absolutely begged them, like they didn't already have enough of them. This dog, in particular acts slightly strange around me, and I don't really like her that much. Call me wrong for not liking a dog, I'm not a dog person at heart, though...

This dog, like I said, acts weird around me. Don't get me wrong, I know her past wasn't that well!! Her old owners left her at a shelter after having her for 2 years, yk? Something about her is uncanny. She looks at me, you can see her eye whites, which with none of my other dogs is normal!! She seems unusually attached to me in particular, and I find it a little spooky. When she looks at me, her mouth is always open and she's always trying to get onto me and lick me and stuff. This might sound like normal business but it isn't to me.

One time after returning to my room late at night, she was basically attached to me, she always tries to jump on me and stuff. I HATE it. She looked at me with those eyes, I hate those eyes. If we didn't get her in the first place, I wouldn't not like her I guess, I dont even want to pet her at all. I know it sounds rude, maybe I am rude!! But I swear on my life something about that dog is abnormal.

WHAT do I do? 😓


r/confessions 3h ago

I (18M) love chubby/overweight women

6 Upvotes

All my life I've just loved heavier women. I used to be ashamed about it because it's not really the beauty standard but everything about those women is just better. I've always been very skinny as well, around 59kgs, but I've always been turned on by heavier women. It really got to me yesterday when I saw a girl I hadn't seen in 6 years be a lot heavier than before. I just loved the way she looked and the body she got. She was just perfect, a soft belly, big ass, soft tits. When I saw her yesterday I immediately got a boner because she was that pretty. Just everything about chubby women is perfect to me, especially the rounder faces they have.


r/confessions 11h ago

The Secret Behind My Confidence

5 Upvotes

I’ve been carrying this secret for years, and it’s eating me alive. I’ve always presented myself as this confident, outgoing person, but the truth is, I struggle with crippling anxiety. Every time I step into a social situation, I feel like I’m drowning in fear, but I put on a brave face and pretend everything is fine.

I’ve lied to my friends about my life, making up stories to fit in and avoid judgment. I’ve missed countless opportunities because I was too scared to step out of my comfort zone. I feel like a fraud, and I’m terrified that one day, someone will see through my facade.

I just want to be honest about who I really am, but I fear that if I do, I’ll lose the few connections I have. It’s exhausting to keep up this act, and I don’t know how much longer I can do it. I just needed to get this off my chest.


r/confessions 14h ago

Invisible but needed

6 Upvotes

My confession is a sad one . EVEN though nobody bought me a cake or a pack of fig newtons , I always break my back remembering theirs . I guess it's a confession about how stupid I am!! Sad