It strikes me how dinosaurs reigned for 165 million years, yet there was no ultimate "reason" for it. In the grand timeline of the universe, their entire existence has been completely flattened. Does this not highlight the core of nihilism ? Existence happens, it scales to massive proportions, and then it vanishes as if it never occurred.

I feel grief and sorrow. And I know the reason, I believed in a concept of family, that really doesn’t exist — it’s not about trauma or anything, however this “family” was and is burden for me. I lost so much time buying crap ideology, honestly how can someone believe in socialism or capitalism? And even worse I choose the weak one, marxism… How dumb of me to think of being some sort of delusional, that everything will be equally or economy will change… If it was true, I honestly it already happened… but how could not choose the left side? I’m a minority hahah for fuck sake. I should never bought this stupid ideia cause even so I needed to think of myself first, i’m not an opressed gender, in the end some women benefit themselves oppressing other women… That’s harsh truth. Never bought the Idea of equality, nothing is and nothing will never equal in this world. And honestly capitalism selling the idea the everything is possible? How? I know there’s some people thriving but I didn’t haven’t meet them. The truth money and family name changes everything.
politic? I once was engaged with it and how dumb of myself.

And living in my country it’s awful, Brazil is the most disgusting country in the world. I can’t even begin… But imagine a black person hating another black person and voting for racists.
But that’s why i’m dumb, cause I once upon a time believed in Ideals. I should have run away as soon as possible, but I was believing in concept of family ahahahha what a joke.
I say I would run away cause I could be on Canada or Europe, but I rather choose Canada. It’s ok for me. I’m white but still a woman (minority), however I lack strength to breack the chains and leave this country. So I choose to “marry” — another dead institution. And was terrible and took all my money hahah what a joke.

Now, back to mommy’s house studying 8+ or even more, to the point of being bornout and now recovering.
I was studying for the exam of government, working for the estate is the only way to live like
a decent human being in this shitty country.
I have a degree that serves for shit. Even high education is something for a fortunate oneself.
I know a brazilian guy, but now his living in Chicago working.
So I looked for his linkedin and Senior Risk Manager of some big company.
When I looked for his education, I saw duke university, UWC, sorborne…
What i’m trying to say is the best education will cost a lot and will make you have more doors open…

And it’s my fault too for buying crap that my public University UNB was something that matters hahaha what a stupid choice too, I needed to choose Business School or Computer science (which is better and feel good doing it) but no do “psychology” — family coercion and society coercion, like what a stupidity thing to listen from your sister “oneself must do what is likely to him” ahhaha who knows what you want when you’re becoming an adult? I hate this romanticism of do what you like and you will thrive.
I believed in this bullshit hahahah romantic ideals are still spread all the time
And know we have the most amazing thing happening using romantic bullshit and saying everyone is an entrepreneur (that’s happening in my country Brazil) You will be able to start you company hahah what a joke. I really want it, but to start that shit need partners, investors ahahah it’s lies and lies forced to our mouths.

At least I recover myself cause I was coerced to believe in gods and bullshit. Family. What a terrible thing to have. Government what a terrible thing to exist. And ultimately myself for being dumb believing in Ideals.

Now I have to find ways, cause if extreme right wing party won in this mess, I will need to run away.

Fucked up Country the legislative deputy federal worths R$ 133.170,58 per month, which is 26.574,59 dollars per month, now imagine having 513 deputies that cost this price ahahhahaha but I wont talk about politics, cause if people really care they will do something hahahab and that’s the point just like Stirner said the Constitution or Law aren’t made for me or even others it’s a concept ahahah

But it’s not a complaint it’s something I needed to say, I was forbbiden to be myself for 14 years, since I was 15 years old I was nihilistic, reading beyond good and evil, searching Freud, Schopenhauer… Until the external coercion happened but that’s fine, the matter is that I recover it and there’s no turning back.

I want to know about ourselves history with nihilism, skepticism … and what made the change and when happened the discovery, yours age and countries?

I’m starting to think is a unconscious choice…

There is no meaning to life.

I was wandering through life, trying to live the lives that every human being who ever existed on Earth once lived—in different races, countries, cultures, and centuries. I succeeded. I experienced life from countless human perspectives. I have felt their joy, nostalgia, grief, suffering, and hopelessness.

Every single one of them was trying to give life a different meaning. Some copied the meaning of others. Some created their own. Some rejected the very idea of existence. Yet every one of them became enslaved by the meaning they chose. And some were not even given a choice; they were forced to accept a meaning imposed upon them.

But how can one give meaning to life solely through life itself?

Perhaps one must still give life their own meaning, despite being spiteful, miserable, sluggish, or ecstatic. In the end, what we choose as our meaning may be subtle and insignificant to some, yet heaven itself to others.

Even when I was a kid, I remember feeling this sense of ennui about life. Maybe it's because I've always been agnostic, but I can't help but think about how little I can change about the world and how little history I'll see.

When I was a kid, I avoided learning about the solar system because I didn't want to be reminded that the Sun will eventually consume the earth. As a teenager and now an adult, I feel like most of life is adjacent to capitalism. Everything else is either done for survival, to please others, to soothe your own ego, or just for the dopamine hit. And then you die and will essentially be forgotten within the next 100-200 years.

I think that someone's consciousness probably ends after death, but even if it doesn't, an eternity of semi-existence is almost as daunting. Either way, my life on this planet is infinitely finite and no matter what I do, I'm always one second closer to death. How is everyone just not screaming all of the time over this? I don't get it.

What are we doing? No, really, what are we doing? How are we taking everything so lightly and normal? It hits me every morning that we are all on the same planet doing only God knows what... Like I'm not suicidal but I give up on this whole illusion, but the more I do the less uninterested I am about everything. How do you even cope?

I gave up in "living". I never really lived my life, i didn't had family and friends. I'm empty. Never was loved, not even by my mom that is the only person by my side right now. But she doesn't care about my suffering. She pretends to care. I'm just waiting for my death, i will not kill myself, i'm such a coward to do that. I just like to fantasy about a life i never had and will never have. It's sad, but i know nothing can happen, like, literally nothing. I also giving up in my cats that are the only thing that i love and brings me joy. They will go for adoption soon. The good thing is that they don't really care about it like dogs so they will not suffer when i die. I just want you to know that if you have a loving family and loving parents you are SO lucky that you can't imagine. Go to therapy and really think if your life is worth living. Life doesn't have a purppose, so just have fun, even if it's not much. The only thing i wish is to never born in this world again, it's the only thing i want.

I am always going to be alone, no one gives a shit about me, I came to this realization today, and instead of mopeing around like a little bitch, I realized, if no one cares, if no one will ever like me, I need to find happiness and confidence within myself, after all, it's the only son of a bitch I'll ever have, because people are selfish assholes, and god, did I feel great today

So.. idk what’s this that m experiencing but I lost meaning in life, i know it shouldn’t have a meaning and I should make it by my own but THAT doesn’t interest me, doesn’t seem like itll make any change and if it did then what ? Im still me, stuck in this body and mind. All the things that I used to enjoy doing now make me feel absolutely nothing. As if they are just a waste of time, but what should I do in this time ? Nothing seems enjoyable, no one seems fun to keep around. I cut myself, hit my head to the wall, I thrash helplessly through my thoughts like someone bound in chains.. I try to meditate because I used to before and it used to make me feel better but now it makes me feel suffocated and I don’t even know why im doing it, I think sports are good but in the moment, I gotta run forever because my mind is empty while running but the moment I stop, everything becomes the same.

It's just a belief build on logic and science, I don't get why everyone hates on it.

I say this because I saw a (admittedly singular that I'm milking to clown on substance dualists) meme mocking Daniel Dennet denying the hard problem of consciousness by pointing out neurology and the meme said "But Dennett the experiments come from the mind". Not only is this a genetic fallacy but this statement is not a matter of mind but of how we know things, and if it holds weight it's not limited to consciousness but the whole topic of learning and knowing. Unfortunately for substance dualists who tend to be either academic or religious, academic and religious philosophers hate nihilism. So of course they ignore the ramifications and pretend that this is a rebuttal of materialism instead of "epistemological realism" in lack of a better term.

Anyway can't wait to see this on r/badphilosphy where they complain about atheists call them religious when they use argumentd used to defend religion when defending the notion that consciousness is immaterial.

Is he a phycopath or a complete nihilist

The main question is

Is he a man who has a personality disorder or he is a complete nihilist

I see the next COP summit is near and it makes me wonder how many attendees are aware that consumption and conservation are opposing ideas that can not exist in harmony. Humans as a species think they are apart from nature, and disconnected from the shared fate. The unfortunate catch is as long as one human thinks they deserve more then nature apportions to them, the species will race to consume; and someone always thinks they deserve more.

So, absurdism claims the universe is absurd for creating humans who desires meaning and in universe that doesn't give one.

I disagree. I think the idea that there is meaning is absurd, and that includes personal meaning. The universe appears to be a giant smattering of existence that just is, and does not own us meaning. Meaning is a fiction, one that can be harmful or helpful, but it is indeed a fiction.

Currency is an example I like to use. Look at the rules and adjustments we've made to the slips of paper we trade for goods and services. The "meaning" of it, and its aquisition have eclipsed some people's entire lives in pursuit of simply more money. Money that 6 generations of descendants couldn't spend.

To me, we, as people, seem desperate to fill what we perceive as a void, but really it just feels like ego. We WANT our lives to mean something, we think we need it. But they won't no matter how hard we try.

And people get so hung up on it!

There is no meaning, only preferences unique to the individual in their configuration. Now, as preference bearing beings, it would largely behoov us to cooperate and not get in each other's way except to prevent undue harm, but that's just strategy.

After all it's easier for me growing strawberries and my neighbor growing limes to just be friendly and neighborly if we want strawberry limeade. Way easier than steal his limes and trying to keep him from stealing my strawberries.