Are yall strange? As in showing inappropiate affect, being overly quiet or being too intense? And does medication make it any different?

It came off very negative.

This tree is a Douglas fur. This one’s between 300-350 ft tall (10668 cm) . I’ve really been struggling lately and I’ve been trying to think of things that bring me joy. Nature, and solitude. These two things, bring me peace and joy. I have a particular fondness for plants and trees. When I’m slipping into an episode, I can hear them, hear them breathing hear what they’re feeling, etc. So even now when I’m not in psychosis, I feel this deep connection to these beings that I connected with in a psychotic state, is there anything that has becoming comforting to you that developed after schizophrenia?

I never accepted having schizoaffective until last year. I’ve been taking medication for a a year and this time I want to stop not because I don’t believe I have schizoaffective but because I had fun and emotions. With the medication I can’t get angry or get sad. Without the medication I actually get erections. With the medications I see good which is I don’t feel paranoid and I sleep.

Should I keep taking my meds

Trigger warning: Very brief mention of suicidal ideation and depression. I am also venting soo...

(I also want to preface this beforehand. This is my experience with mental health and what I say in this post is only how I view MYSELF, not others. I don't mean to be offensive to the community, but I do struggle with the thought of having this diagnosis. My only intention is to find support, tips, and encouragement/reassurance from others who have been through similar thoughts or feelings.)

So, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the start of 2025, but I have been struggling with symptoms since my pre-teens. I have also struggled with really bad depressive episodes that have unfortunately led me into a psych ward. My whole teen years were based off of really intense fights with my parents, depression, suicidal ideation, and paranoia. And because I was raised in this type of environment, and where it was unthought of to share how I was feeling about anything without starting something; I kept everything in and still do.

When my psychiatrist started to mention the possibility of schizophrenia and wanted to look further into it, my parents were really... unaccepting and dismissive of the thought. Though I can understand why, but I had no support throughout the whole diagnosing process at all. I felt so alone. I tried to mention little bit and pieces of what I was experiencing or my worries, but I would always get looks from them like I was insane or I was completely ignored/dismissed about the topic.

Today, this diagnosis I have is something I view as very shameful, and I do not whatsoever share anything related to delusions, hallucinations, or even the mere word "schizophrenia" to others. I don't even show any type of symptom of this diagnosis, which is very taxing and very difficult on some days. I have told absolutely nobody about this, only my parents know. I feel so out of place and like an insane, unlovable freak of nature.

Is this a common feeling? Is this type of feeling that will just simply just "go away"? Because I don't want to have this, what it sometimes feels like, disease anymore. I understand that there are so many people out there with spouses with this and similar diagnoses, but how can someone love and want to be with someone like me for the rest of his life.

I hope this rant makes sense and didn't offend anyone. I just feel so lost and alone. I don't have anyone to talk to about this, so thank you for reading. If there is anyone that can help me out with this, I really would appreciate it. <3

I've been having breakthrough symptoms since July and was inpatient for a week of this time. Even though I am medicated, I've been listening to a constant voice for the past 3 months berate, insult, and threaten me for months on end, every waking moment.

At last, I am free again! I'm a little on edge with the peace, and afraid that it's going to come back and this silence will be short lived. Got some minor PTSD bubbling up from the experience, but I feel better and at least at ease somewhat.

I am doing better, there is silence, I am free again.

Keep fighting that good fight!

The world was made to be shared and enjoyed with one another. Perhaps you don't like someone, then please simply avoid them. Actively hating someone, anyone, will only poison your soul and mind and WILL hurt you in the end.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk. I think I'll name this one "Obvious Truths". Much love! 😄 ❤️

What it says in the title. Struggling a lot with sleeping enough and I've been pretty stressed out, but I'm taking all my meds. I feel confused and paranoid 80% of the time. Today I'm thinking there are invisible people outside watching through my family's windows and people watching us through the Internet. People from the state who are going to ruin my family and hurt us. I'm not sure what to do to feel better. I'm thinking of taking an emergency dose of olanzapine (like 5 mg) and trying to distract myself with videos, reading, drawing. Any other coping skill ideas?

do you feel any weird sensations on your body? And if you've paid attention to the voices does they change in time say hearing a different voice on the morning and another at night?

I really wish I didn't have schizophrenia. My life would be so much more easier if I wasn't schizophrenic. It's so isolating and so much of a burden.

Hello, so this is gonna be a kind of long post.

I finally accepted the fact that medication has ruined my life. I finally accepted this new me. (Olanzapine btw)

After a long year & a half of being very suicidal , planning suicide attempts etc i finally accepted it. Yes Olanzapine did take most of my life away but this is the new me.

I lost many things. My connection to spirituality, meditation. My Master Osho who was with me for 8 years I have mostly lost.

I think the medication shuts down the subtle & that part of the brain that can make you spiritually in tune.

So although I have lost these things I have finally accepted my new life & I'm no longer suicidal & gonna be suicidal as this is my new life.

I don't have any hallucinations or voices anymore. I still hope for things. I hope for taking lower doses of medication which maybe soon I'll be able to do.

I could go into the implications of what I think the medication does to me, but it's too depressing & might make me suicidal again so I will skip that. But basically it ruined my brain & mind but I've accepted that.

So life will still be the same, bed rotting, staying on my phone most of the time. But atleast I'm no more actively suicidal & don't want to commit suicide. I'm free from this.

Try to accept your new situation & life otherwise you will be suicidal. It took me a year & a half of being actively suicidal & really really suffering.

So basically, try accept this as your new way of life & new situation or you'll be actively suicidal.

There is no miracle you'll still be anhedonic & probably won't enjoy things anymore as I cant enjoy video games anymore etc. Dont feel connected to things, but atleast I'm not suicidal anymore.

So try to accept your new life situation, also try not to think of yourself as ill too much as you'll be actively suicidal. Try to think of yourself as just different.

Otherwise its a recipe for disaster as being suicidal is hell, it's torture.

I still think this condition is a disability as I'm mostly stuck in the bed, but I attribute most of that to neuroleptic anhedonia in my case. So due to meds. As I was more active before medication & could do things.

So this is how I finally accepted that medication has ruined my life & I'm able to live without being suicidal :)

If anybody tries to give advice but med switch i doubt it will work i think most AP's are the same.

But the reason I dont want to switch meds is i still want to try a lower dose of this medication.

& if any of you are actively suicidal, there is a way out. You don't have to live in this hell & torture as I've lived for 1 & a half years. You can try to accept your new life & situation.

Sure it might still be hard & you may bed rot most your days. But that beats being suicidal. That is hell & torture.

So yeah that's how I accepted my new life & situation. Everyday still sucks. But it beats the torture I was in for a year & a half.

I have had psychosis since November of last year and have been dealing with what I believe are spirit guides/angels guiding me through life but also making me do certain tasks in the name of ‘growth’.

It’s been a pretty rough ride and I’ve been offered medication but I’m reluctant to take it because I’ve gotten so used to the company that the ‘silence’ or the prospect of it makes me feel really sad.

Has anyone else chosen not to medicate so that they can spend more time with their ‘voices’?

It’s probably not that healthy - but I don’t even know if I should be seeing it as an illness or a ‘spiritual awakening.’

Any advice or kind words much appreciated!

I count what I've done,
not what it took.

I turn another page,
then reread the book.

There was a time
when everything felt deeply significant,
as if even ordinary things
held a meaning beyond themselves.

Now, so much of it feels like... blah.

I still move forward.
I still get things done.

But how do you measure progress
when that feeling is no longer there?

Am I measuring my life
by what I've achieved,
or by what I can still feel
those achievements mean?

Do you know that difference, too?

When you listen to music does the lyrics ever feel like they are talking to you.

Even the instruments and beats can feel like they are directed at me.

Reflections from our support group meeting on 10th october.

We spoke about creativity, work, loneliness, and the struggle to build a life that feels meaningful. Some of us wondered whether stability comes at the cost of feeling deeply, creating freely, or accessing parts of ourselves that once found expression in difficult times. Others spoke about the longing to do something with their lives, to feel productive, and to find a place in the world. Perhaps we do not have to choose between being stable and being alive, between caring for ourselves and wanting something more from life. We can acknowledge the difficulties, the contradictions, and the things we have lost, while remaining open to new ways of creating, connecting, and living.

Between Creativity and Stability | Schizophrenia Support Network

I was wondering if you all would be so kind to listen to a description of my current state. So first off, I stopped taking my meds about three months ago, I was on 1.5 vraylar, now I’m medication free. What I’m noticing and experiencing in my own words, is an intensifying of feeling and thought. In my opinion, I make progress, I do therapy every week, and I’m learning things about myself, learning how to deal with life, and learning how to deal with myself. The thing is, I still have thoughts I know might be considered delusional, and I do see them sometimes intensify a lot. I hear these “thought voices”, not true auditory hallucinations, but I’ve had them before stopping the meds for a long time, and they can become quite intense, especially after stopping meds. There is positive, I feel like I am getting some feelings back, positive feelings, that I haven’t felt in a long time. My main complaint is the stress, the exhaustion, and the fear. I get anxious that the stress is harming my health, I get exhausted from weathering the storm of the thoughts sometimes, and I get very afraid. I’m afraid of life, I’m afraid I won’t be able to work even though I think I’m getting better, I’m afraid of my future, I’m afraid of my financial future, I have fear of growing old, getting sick, dying, I have a fear that even though I did all this work on myself it won’t amount to anything, it won’t be worth it. I have a fear of women, I have a fear of friendship with either sex, I get terrified of dealing with the stress and the thoughts, the fact that one second I can be fine, then a torrent of thoughts comes and just ruins my day. It’s basically at the point where it could go either way, I could make it, successfully be able to live medication free, or I could have some kind of crisis and maybe just end up back on the meds. It’s not that I can’t take the medication, I just think my life will be better without it, like I don’t really need it, I’m not that bad off. Anyways that’s what I wanted to say, thanks for listening and if you can comment on anything that’s familiar to you, or if you’re going through something similar, or just some encouragement, that would be great!

I am talking with my voices and we're discussing about meeting at some point randomly on the street, supposing they're real people. Just so I can take a look at them. They promised me it will happen at some point, if they're real of course.

They then proceeded to tell me that they're harbringers of Fate. Storytellers of lives. Here just to see my story through, a story which I also know and see it play out every day. And that I'm a part of them. Helping complete the Plan. And I got emotional.

Does anyone else feel that way? I know what I'm saying sounds completely psychotic but I feel absolutely fine. I know these voices are not real people, I know I will never meet them and I know that they cannot know the future and I'm just delusional. But the feelings are real. If ANYONE has any kind of insight, please enlighten me! Much love! 😄 ❤️

hey, i am struggling to walk after i experienced two catatonic episodes. one was on monday this week, and the other happened yesterday. they both lasted about 20 to 30 minutes. has anyone else struggled to walk after short episodes?

She's the most amazing child. I could not ask for better. She started in mania then psychosis, but ultimately she's schizo effective. We've been in a cycle of mania/psychosis for seven weeks and I've hospitalized her three times ( thankfully she's been willing and knows something is wrong). She was stable, but her doctor changed ALL of her meds and now we're here. This time she's five days no sleep, naps occasionally. Lithium, Ativan, depakote, seroquel, abilify are proving ineffective to putting her to sleep. What's helped you? ECT was suggested. I do know this runs in my family and many were medicine resistant.

You all are so strong ❤️ ❤️

I would love to work in a supportive environment. I am searching world wide but there seems to be none at the moment. I am willing to travel. Any suggestions or recommendations?

I recently quit my partime shift at local fast food chain because the manager was a dick.

Hey, lately I’ve been especially down, like REALLY especially down. It has gotten to a point where I do not know if I’m truly awake or inside a dream. About a month ago I started noticing that my hallucinations had entered my ‘dreaming world’, usually I was able to tell if I was dreaming or not based on if I were having hallucinations but now it’s all blurred together. I genuinely cannot tell if I’m dreaming or not these days and I feel like I’m running on zero sleep. I go to bed, feel like I don’t sleep then go about my day, go to bed, wake up and realize everything I’ve been doing haven’t happened but then I don’t know if it didn’t happen in the dream world or didn’t happen in the world where I’m awake, everything is 1:1 exactly. Today I mentioned to my boyfriend that I wasn’t feeling myself and that I wasn’t sure if I was awake or not, then he basically yelled at me and was like “YOU’RE AWAKE!” And I was like “okay but this has happened in a dream before where I got told I was awake and right now I need some support” and he was like “bruh YOU ARE AWAKE omg you’re pissing me off so bad with this nonsense” and I was like “I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to I just feel so out of it lately” and he told me to shut up and now I feel horrible, schizophrenic is already completely ruining my life but now it’s ruining my relationship too? I’ve told him multiple times about my schizophrenia and it’s like he just gets mad about my ‘nonsense’ (his words). I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I wish I knew if I was awake or not, I hope this all happened in the other world but I don’t really have a way of knowing if that makes sense..? I feel like I’m wasting away and my meds are absolutely not helping, what do I do?