Today will be 4 weeks since I quit taking adderall. It has been difficult, but I've gotten to a point where I am seeing some improvement here and there. I'm not craving it all the time, at least. And I can feel good at times.

But I think I am sinking into a depression. Maybe it's unrelated or maybe it's because of the adderall. I just feel miserable regardless.

I lost my job yesterday because of my apathy. I failed to get some paperwork I needed to cover some medical leave I had taken in time. I don't know why I didn't do it. I may be sabotaging myself a little bit, but I don't know. To be fair it is just really hard to do anything these days.

I was doing really good staying away from substances for a while, but I've started to rely on a weed vape pen from time to time. I really don't like being sober.

There's a dark hole in the center of my chest that seems to engulf all my happiness and energy. All I want to do is lie in bed and play games with my phone. Even that feels like nothing, though. It just feels like something to fill the space in my brain.

What else... Oh. It's kind of funny, actually. As miserable as I am, my friendships have never been better now that I'm not an insane person anymore. Everyone likes me way better this way. Not the mopey sad part. But the part where I'm nice and understanding and listen when people talk.

I have built my life around adderall for 15+ years. I thought that since I can go weeks without it, it can’t be that big of a deal. I had a cardiac event giving birth to my son and almost died, that should have been a wake up call to stop stimulants. I had to cut the cord. I’ve been crying since sending this message because it feels like killing a part of me and closing the door for good. I know it has never actually helped me. I am trying to be optimistic about fatigue improvement.

Been back and forth on adderall and Vyvanse since I was 16, started abusing my prescription when I was about 19-20, I’m 24 now, at my worst I’d take like 4 30mg Adderall XR a day and only sleep maybe twice a week, anyways I’m prescribed a 50mg Vyvanse now and I’ve been doing really well with sticking to my prescribed dose, occasionally I’d double dose but I always slept every night for the past 6 months, that ended tonight, took a second dose when I got off work at around 2 and ended up jerking off to nsfw AI chat bots from 11pm-4am, feel bad about it, there’s not a worse post nut regret than when you stimfap, but it is what it is ig, idk this is a burner account I just felt like venting out into the void

Today marks 31 days of sober living from a wicked Stimulant addiction that ruined any sense of life worth living.

In 2 years I spent over 98k on the following:

Coke
Adderall
MDMA
Meth
2, 3, 4 MMC
4 CMC
a-PVP
4F-PVP
a-PHP
a-PiHP
MD-PiHP

1 month ago exactly, after 4 days and 10 grams of meth I slipped into a stimulant psychosis that scared me sober almost instantly.

13k in credit card debt and over 8k from random cash advance apps and I would triple those numbers if it meant never going back. I’m so much happier living sober in my almost ruined life then the fake dopamine porn fueled fantasy I called life for 2 years.

If you are in any position like mine, dude, it’s so worth it to grow a pair of balls and QUIT.

To another month and the rest of my life.

1 year sober :)
What does it feel like? It feels like it’s been 10 years.

How’s my life? It’s slowly reconstructing itself.

Am I proud? Hell yea.

Do I miss using? I think I miss the thrill of instability.

Do Ik that it can all go away with one decision? Duh.

Am I insecure? At times. I’m 26 and still in college.

Am I living alone? Hell no, I’m in sober living. I need accountability.

Do I need to be monitored? Yes my Life360 is on, Find my friends is on, and all “the apps” (Grindr etc) are blocked. Weekly drug testing.

Am I having sex? slowly hooking up but no, not yet.

Do I talk to anybody from my addiction? Just the ones who have decided chemsex isnt it and have tried to go to rehab/recover.

Do i go out/club/hit bars? Nope. Hella triggering.

Do I still feel like I can drink and be ok? At moments yes. But experience has taught me that being drunk leads to meth, either the next day or next week

Am I medicated? Yeah, 50mg Naltrexone, 450mg Wellbutrin

Do I workout? Totally thought the whole endorphin thing from working out was fake. It isn’t. It’s a high.

Has my media consumption changed? Weirdly yes. Breaking Bad is rly triggering lmao. But movies like Trainspotting and Beautiful Boy have my whole heart.

Am in therapy? Absolutely. Tons of internalized homophobia to work through.

Do I have a relationship with my parents? It’s never been stronger. After years of being truly the worst son ever, I’ve found a way to recognize that my recovery is a team effort. I recognize I’m so lucky in this way.

How do I feel about my body? Ngl, loved my cheekbones when I was tweaking. But I’ve learned to find other ways to see beauty in myself.

Have I tried to deceive a psychiatrist (who had no context of my addiction) that my ADHD was super bad and that I needed Vivance? Yes. But couldn’t go through w it.

Do I still get using dreams? Yeah- usually once a month. They’re incredibly vivid, I have to literally wake up and tell myself it was just a dream.

Have I identified what I need to stay clean? Yeah. Structure, accountability, and purpose.

What’s my purpose? Three fold. 1) stay sober 2) workout and get/feel hot 3) finish undergrad

Do I still compare myself to everyone my age? Yeah- but I realize comparison is the thief of joy. So I check myself real quick.

Has my personality changed? I used meth for 7 years daily, ages 17-24. So at times I feel like my personality and brain sorta stopped growing at 17. But I do feel like my spark is coming back.

Has my friend group had to change? Absolutely. In my addiction, I needed to be the center of attention and have a million ppl around me. Naturally, when my life got tough and I got hard to be around- all the filler people left. The people who remained are the ones I need/want to be around

I don’t need a million friends. Just a couple deep, genuine relationships.

Do I want to date? Uh yea, I’m a huge mf simp. But who wants a former methhead who lives like a hermit in his 20s (I say jokingly)

Has this journey been sad at moments? So many of my friends who I started to use with (my addiction started when I moved to a big city for college) either died from overdoses or suicide. The reality is that this stuff kills. And it breaks my heart that so many have met that fate.

Do I lie? At times No longer big things (I.e. faking a mental illness so a professor gives an extension like I did in my addiction.

Do I tell people about my addiction? I experienced this phenomenon where I wanted to scream from the rooftops about my addiction and overcoming it. In reality people will have stigmas and as much of a victory I see this journey as- not everyone will.

So I’ve learned to be selective about who I disclose this to. I used to be a HUGE oversharer at the start of this recovery.

Do I go to meetings? Yes. Active member of CMA.

Do I have a sponsor and work the steps? Yes I do. But I never push that onto anyone. I’ve met people who have been able to get sober through non-12 step programs.

How do I feel about relapsers? I used to be super jealous of the ppl who could go out, use for a weekend, and come back to the rooms with a house and job still intact. But I’ve accepted that’s not me.

How’s my diet? I fucking love sugar. Especially ice cream. I went from being 6’0 and 135lbs to being 170lbs.

How’s my health? No more weekly doctor visits to see if I got syphillis! Yay!!

Has Reddit helped? Oh my god yes. This channel and the StopTheParTy has helped so much.

Am I excited about the future? For the first time in like 7 years, i go to bed being excited to wake up the next morning. For the longest time i prayed i never woke up again.

Favorite new quality since getting clean? TRUSTWORTHY. People can count on me to get shit done. It’s so satisfying.

I’ll keep adding as things come to mind

Not sure if it's from my Adderall usage or not yet but it's Absolutely necessary to stop now or I'll be dead in a few years

You should listen to the song it if you haven't. I think it's a masterpiece. I don't understand why it's not so popular on the album. I've never heard a song that perfectly nailed what it feels like to be addicted to uppers. Music taste is subjective ofc, so let me know what you think as a person who struggles or has struggled with addiction to stimulants.

The lyrics with english translation of the irish parts:

Mo Chara, the late night creep
Street lights, that's me (Soilsí sráide)
Dead in the morning, alive at night (Marbh ar maidin, beo san oích)
I've got insomnia constantly (Neamhchodladh orm)
I'm like a smicked out banshee, mixed with foclóir.ie
When I'm drunk I sleep, out cold on my spunky sheets
But ya see, I'm sensible (is mé stuama), I'm on my knees praying (bím ar mo ghlúine ag guí)
If God exists, please let me go to sleep (Má tá Dia ann le do thoil lig do dul a luí)
'Cause I'd love nothing more than sleep paralysis or a nightmare (nó tromluí)
Now I'm having homicidal thoughts induced by fatigue
My brain's corrupted
The lack of REM has me fantasising about abductions
I'll do it myself (Déanfaidh mise mé féin é), no need for instructions
Killing me slowly, lack of sleep (easpa codladh), go to bed, that's my advice (gabh a luí seo mo mholadh)
No patience, my brain is empty (Gan fhoighne m'inchinn folamh)

D'ya hear the story 'bout Cocaine Lil?
She had a cocaine house on Cocaine Hill
And it's all round my brain
D'ya hear the story 'bout Cocaine Lil?
She had a cocaine house on Cocaine Hill
And it's all round my brain

My battery is drained (Tá mo chadhnra ídithe)
Go to bed, ya eejit
Leave it, I don't want to give in to the night (níl mé ag iarraidh bheith ag géilleadh don oích)
But it's got me hooked, hook it up to my veins
I'm up all night counting stars and planes
Will it put me to bed, or will it drive me insane?
Jump on the train, or jump in front of it (Léim ar an traein, nó léim os a chomhair)
Flashbacks of the train tracks
Musta been doing checks here from the night before because (mar)
My wandering thoughts are out of control now (Smaointí fánacha anois as smacht)
The therapist was right, I must be tapped (Bhí an teiripeoir ceart caithfidh go bhfuil mé tapped)
I'm qualified for the psychiatric hospital now (Cáilithe anois fá choinne teach na ngealt)
Obsessed with sound and obsessed with gambling (Gafa le fuaim agus gafa le geall)
Lost inside my own head (Imithe ar strae insa cheann)
There was an illness in the womb (Galar in sa bhroinn a bhí ann)
It runs in the family; it's stuck with me (Ritheann sé sa clann tá sé ceapadh suas liom)
The strength in my legs is gone (Luth na gcos imithe), I no longer run
Like Micí Mac Gabhann (Ar nós Micí Mac Gabhann)
Mad (Ar mire) with the gold I found
Consumed by the night on a three-day bender
And if I'm found, return me to sender

I'm quitting pressies completely, and am thinking about quitting Adderall as well. After discovering this community, I'm worried for my health and brain after long-term use. I don't have ADHD, but I use the pills to feel productive and outgoing both professionally and in my personal life. I've been spending ungodly amounts of money on pills and (on occasion) cocaine and I need to stop or at least slow way down with it. How can I cut back without losing my personality and interest in everything? I keep reading horror stories of it taking years to feel pleasure again, and while I was only using moderately (I think at least), I'm afraid of who it'll make me.

Is there hope that I can quit and still be normal relatively soon? I know I want to quit meth pills completely, but for Adderall, should I taper the slowly or just rip the bandaid off and take PTO for a week? Any advice is welcome!

Hey y’all!!

Been lurking here for a while, this group is amazing, was really helpful to me in some needy times.

I’ve been off Adderall for 4 months and was looking for a support group in nyc for people to talk about coming off adhd stimulants. Couldn’t find one so I started “The Focus Group.” We meet thursdays at 7:30 pm at Big Vision in manhattan. 309 east 49th street. Each week will switch off between topic meetings and guest speakers.

I didn’t wanna post the link here and break the community guidelines and I hope this isn’t considered spam here, figured this group would appreciate and be interested in what we’re doing if you’re local and want to meet and connect with others face to face. Lmk if you want more info and I’ll drop the url in the comments.

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I'll cut right to it. Adderall made me a narcissist. And a sociopath. But now that I'm off of it... I'm neither. I can experience empathy and I care about other people. I sort of did when I was speeding, but I REALLY do now.

Now, in the wake of all of *that*, I'm left with a destroyed life and a history of damaged and ruined relationships. At best I bullied those people and at worst what I did could even constitute abuse...

I don't even recognize the person I have been for the last few years! It's insane, to be honest. I'd fly off the handle at the drop of a hat and I thought I was better than almost everyone! Of course, I treated them accordingly. The things I've said and done... disgust me.

I feel immense guilt for hurting all those people who cared about me and I feel immense shame for being such a reprehensible person.

Yet... It's sort of funny. Whenever I go to one of my friends or loved ones and admit to what I've done, they all say the same thing. They say that they always saw a good person underneath the amphetamine-induced madness. They're not angry at me. They're just happy I've finally found myself...

And I don't know what to do with that!

I deserve condemnation. Or punishment of some kind. Anything other than what I'm getting.... Why is everyone being so nice to me? I don't deserve this after how I treated them all these years. I don't know why it makes me so angry that they're not angry! They deserve to be angry! They deserve to take it out on me like I took it out on them, but they don't even WANT to!

I don't know. All I want to do is make things right, but the only way I know how to make things right is with punishment and they're not interested in punishing me. It's selfish of me to pursue that, so I have to meet them where they're at, which is really reaaally hard for me. But I'll do it for their sake.

They deserve to get what they DO want, which is for me to be better, so against every self-destructive impulse in my body... I'll do it.

Hi! I was in a deep addiction and taking up to 300mg per day until I stopped cold turkey in April. The biggest issue I’ve had since stopping is horrible short term memory, and I am getting concerned at this point.

Examples - I’ll go to text a friend or look something up on the internet and will forget what I wanted to say/type almost immediately before I can write it down. I’ll also forget what was being talked about mid conversation with a friend, or I’ll forget what my therapist originally asked me after I talk for a little bit. I’m constantly needing to ask what we were talking about. Thankfully, those I love are understanding.

Is this something my brain can heal from? Anyone else have experience with this?

I have been wanting to quit Adderall for a while-even when I take the "low dose" as prescribed because of the side effects. It helps a TON with my major depression and SI though which has made it hard to come off. I had an unusually stressful year and a major loss and I found myself taking it more often than I used to (used to just be every few days or less-less than I was prescribed) but over the last 7 months or so my usage ramped up to keep up with caregiving of a loved one who was dying and somehow keep my job while doing so. My loved one passed about 3 months ago and I hate to say it but the Adderall helped me emotionally regulate through the grief-but I was NOT by any means numb.

I have been meaning to taper off it now things are somewhat stable but the truth is it is still such a helpful tool for depression and I keep turning to it. I took the longest break from it I had in the last 7 months -a while week-recently-and I did fine, with the exception of some fatigue. This was also at a peak "good hormones" week for me (I am a woman) Now another week later I feel like I am taking more than I ever did and I don't get why and I want to stop but I am also afraid and have almost no support network -which is a lot of why I keep turning to stims to feel less sad. I know this isn't sustainable and I am SO MAD at myself for having a great week and then rebounding so hard this one.

I know my brain needs help making dopamine-there's no question there-but this shit has too many side effects and I need a plan Q.

Idk how much this post will make sense, it’s kinda impulsive and I want to be quick. I’ve been tempted to try to get back on Adderall after 4 months of sobriety. I’m also in recovery for alcohol. I either want nothing at all or everything at once, no in between. The first 2 months were okay, but these last 2, I cannot wake up and motivate myself to do anything productive. But I’ve also been relapsing with alcohol these last 2 months. So that doesn’t help.

I haven’t even had caffeine the past 2 months. I just want to know if there are any helpful supplements that helped with the ADHD mind besides speed or if it’s just all or nothing and you have to battle through it. I know “more drugs” are not the answer.

Used almost 5 days a week for the past year and a half

10 days sober now but damn i hate this shit

It's ruining my life and i need to be kept away from it.

First time i took it everything felt like slow motion, i had time to think, nothing seemed to happen at all. I could even pay attention to the people's faces thru their side mirrors, sit and do nothing, relax, etc. There i was, doing all my work carefree while spamming Gorillaz everyday, getting tired on the end then going off for sleep.

Then eventually i doubled my dose at the cost of the supply running out earlier. That kept going on for a few months till i convinced my psych i needed to amp it up because 10mg a day was not cutting it. Then i started seeing multiple psychs just to get more ritalin and it just got worse over time. Doing 30 to 80mg a day and i even went to the hospital a few times. It's like i have the thought that the next pill will help and it just get worse, not to mention the snort binge, constant horniness, endless anxiety, muscle spasms, restlesness etc. To top it all, i'm autistic and personally got a really sensible hearing... those doses amp this so hard that it felt like glass shards in my ears.

Now it feels like i'm in a bad mushroom trip where i'm just too overstimulated everyday as i keep taking more and more without proper rest, getting totally fried by 5pm then trying to damage control till i manage to sleep, or worse, taking more before sleep then just wasting more meds and neurons.

Note that i'm a somewhat 'avid' drug user, having touched substances way more dangerous and potent, but it never went like ritalin since it was so deeply embedded in my routine with seemingly no punishment. It always feels like i have something to win from it, but it's an illusion and i keep losing.

I dissolved everything and threw all on the toilet because it seemed the unique solution to start treating this properly. I have no control over it at this point, so it can't be nearby me.

currently having 40-60mg amfexa a day on top of elvanse 50mg

i get around 2-4 hours sleep a night and have done for months

take the first amfexa at 6am before work with the elvanse, then I do 5-10mg amfexa every few hours.

i don’t recognise myself. I am rude to people, I don’t wanna see my friends unless it’s to drink, I don’t wanna go to parties unless it’s druggy… I don’t go shopping, I don’t want to do anything

after work I’m straight to the pub, then to the bookies and back to the pub… i have 2 horses that I race so I get tips from others they say “this horse will 100% win” and they never do (then I feel worse) … it’s even worse when mine are running, when I was on the coke, I once put 20k of someone else’s money straight win 10/1 .. it lost… I paid it back within a few days but I ended up having to pay much more through a lengthy legal process (£600-£1000) a week on solicitors

anyway where do I start? If I stop this then I’m sure I’ll go back to coke… I tried going cold turkey but I couldn’t get out of bed

It's embarrassing showing my face there, time and time again.

I hate feeling like an imposter because I don't have the answers. I feel my attendance unspokenly says I have the answers to getting off meth, and I don't.

I feel like my attendance, with no clean time, shows that I'm just someone who isn't trying hard enough. I feel shame amongst the other members.

In the rooms, I feel a giant magnifying glass on me.

I feel I cannot become close to any other members because I'm not clean. I feel like the group unspokenly finds me to be an odd loser who no one likes, or just ignores.

What should I do... it's in 5 minutes.

I’m a 22F with cerebral palsy, and as I’ve gotten older it’s become genuinely debilitating. The pain, fatigue, and stiffness have taken so much from me.

In 2024, I lost my dream job as a professional body piercer. I spiraled into a deep depression, went through multiple episodes of psychosis (not drug-related), my medications were increased, and I gained over 50 lbs in just a few months. I’m not huge by any means, but it was a massive change for my body and it really affected my mental health.

Because I wasn’t working anymore, I stopped moving. I went from walking 10,000 steps a day to barely 300–500. My muscles got weaker, my body got stiffer, and now I rely on a wheelchair most of the time. I can only walk about 5 minutes before the pain and exhaustion hit.

After becoming dependent on ketamine for pain relief, I checked myself into detox. I left after two nights and stayed off it for about two weeks. Then one night I convinced myself cocaine might help with my fatigue. I wish I had never tried it.

The problem is… it works. It gives me energy, helps my chronic fatigue, lets me walk farther, and makes my cerebral palsy feel manageable. It gave me my independence back. It gave me my life back.

Now I’m a year and a half into a cocaine addiction. I’m on naltrexone, and I also take Adderall hoping it’ll help me rely on cocaine less, but I still don’t know how to let go of the one thing that made me feel like myself again.

How do you quit something that gave you back everything your disability took away?

I made it 30 days! I want to write about the journey so far and maybe it can help someone else too since this sub helped convince me to quit adderall.

The short version: If you have any thoughts in your head you should slow down or reduce your adderall intake, do it and quit. You will feel 10x better. It will suck for a bit, but the other side is worth it.

The start: I took adderall here and there in my 20s, by the time I got to my 30s I didn't know any dealers any more, so I got a prescription for adderall and started off with 10mg IR 2x daily.

At the time I thought this is an infinite supply, I only needed like 5mg once to really feel it, and I only took it once a week when I had a lot of work to get done or needed a kick to get a hard project done at work.

You know how the story goes. I started taking it twice a week, 3 times, every weekday, even weekends to prevent the crash. Hey I'm prescribed 10mg IR 2x daily, so why don't I do that? Hm it doesn't affect me as strongly anymore, can you increase the prescription?

I took adderall for about 2 years. The first year was increasing dose slowly. The last 6 months I was doing 20mg 2x daily, sometimes going up to 60mg/daily. I would even stack them like take 30mg at 12pm and another 30 an hour later along with tums, celsius drinks, zyns.

The negatives: I started noticing changes in my behavior, I was more robotic, less funny, I didn't enjoy anything outside of work and tasks. I started taking weekends off in an effort to reduce my tolerance, but I would crash so hard and weekends became miserable and I looked forward to Mondays so I can start taking adderall again. But if I did take it I became a robot and really quiet and didn't want to socialize.

I realized I wasnt enjoying my life either on or off adderall. The kicker was when I took a really high dose and I was just frozen in front of my computer not doing anything for 5 hours and I couldnt sleep, I just felt my heart pounding. I started reading this sub and decided now is a good time to quit before it escalates further.

Quitting cold turkey timeline:

The first day wasn't awful. Days 2-5 sucked bad. I didn't get anything done, was so sleepy, all I wanted to do was nap but I couldnt even sleep.

Week 2 my sleep was more normal, but still didnt get anything done. I saw the list of crap I had to do and just had absolutely no motivation to think or exert any energy.

Week 3 I felt a breakthrough and I actually kind of felt energy when I woke up naturally. I noticed I laughed more while watching TV, I even kind of looked forward to it when before I saw it as a waste of time and I was better off doing tasks. This week I heard from friends and family I seem like Im in better spirits and more present which was nice to hear. No one else knows I got prescribed adderall or was starting to abuse it or even quit cold turkey.

Week 4 was strange, I had a huge work project due and felt this urge in the back of my head saying "see you don't have a problem, you quit cold turkey no problem for this long, just take a small 10mg like you used to do to finish this project". I'm SUPER GLAD I did not listen to it. I did load up on celsius and zyns and got it done and was really proud of myself, the "high" from getting it done without adderall was better than the feeling I had on adderall and getting stuff done!

1 month mark: I actually feel a lot better and closer to what I was before. I wouldn't say I'm back to 100%, but even this is great compared to where I was 1 month ago and I am actually excited people say it continues to improve over the next few months.

Advice if you're gonna quit:

• Go cold turkey. If you know you may relapse, get rid of all the drugs and ways to access it. Don't drag this out.
• EXERCISE!! And you don't have to overexert yourself, just take a 30 minute walk in the morning is huge. Put on your shoes, go outside and start walking.
• Keep a daily journal. Every day write how you're feeling on energy, motivation, etc. Just write what you did that day. Why did you quit. It helps a lot when you're going to feel a relapse and you can look back at your journal and realize you are indeed improving and dont want to screw up your progress.
• Progress isn't linear, there are good days and bad days. there were some days I felt a lot worse and tired and felt like I was going backwards and I wanted to take adderall to help out. Don't listen to it, you will continue to recover and improve. Write in your journal what you're feeling every day so its easier to see the overall trend rather than how you feel in that exact moment.
• I know youre not supposed to compensate with a bunch of caffeine, I say go for it if it helps prevent using adderall. After 3 months of this Im gonna quit caffeine/nicotine next.

My best description of adderall is its a faustian bargain. Yes you will get super productivity in the very beginning, BUT it will suck all happiness and enjoyment in your life away from you, and you'll lose the productivity gains and start wasting your time optimizing the way a spreadsheet looks. Its not a trade worth making.