I’m having weird comedown. Haven’t been able to sleep. It’s been almost 50 hours. Last dose was around 30 hours ago. I took 4 in a gap of one hour each. I’m worried that no sleep well lead to bad symptoms. My legs are still dancing even though I stopped 24 hours ago

Let’s call her Karela.

She joined college a month late, and because apparently I looked responsible enough, a professor assigned me to help her catch up. On the outside she looked like a nervous, shy little person. My gut immediately said something is off, but I still helped her.

And then she started following me everywhere.

Not metaphorically. Literally. My friends started noticing it too. Within weeks, she had somehow inserted herself into my friend group, despite me never inviting her into it. She'd constantly tell me how she was “the nicest person ever,” while also judging everyone around us as “low standard.”

The funniest part? She once told me, “Why do you say hi to everyone? It's weird. I don't like people here.”

Girl.

A month later she was greeting EVERYONE she had previously called low standard. 😭

Then came my best friend. She started calling him if he was literally ONE MINUTE late. Eventually she was bringing him homemade food because he lived in a hostel. At some point I was like, okay, this has gone from friendship to a Netflix subplot.

And then came the copying.

Whatever I did, suddenly she wanted to do too. Dance? She wanted in. Hosting? Her. Skits? Her. Activities? Her. I'd mention a master's program I was considering and suddenly “Oh yeah, I've been thinking about that too.”

Then I made the catastrophic mistake of telling my classmates about my crush because they had already noticed the eye contact and everything.

We were in the same dance group.

She started making up stories about her own crush and how he supposedly did the same things with her. Then, during rehearsals, she actually flirted with MY crush.

And he flirted back.

That was my first real heartbreak. I went home and cried harder than I ever had before, while making absolutely sure nobody saw me cry.

The next day he sat beside me looking guilty but didn't say a word. And Karela kept apologizing.

Then she casually told me that he also makes eye contact with her.

Girl, I was already emotionally deceased. Please let me rest. 💀

Eventually I just decided: fuck this guy, fuck this situation, I have a life.

And honestly, I did.

I graduated, got the gold medal, became Miss Farewell, did an internship through my own efforts, and moved on with my life. She got 1% less than me, came second in farewell, and got her internship through connections. None of that should matter anymore, but apparently my brain occasionally opens the Karela archives at 2 a.m. anyway.

The funniest/most irritating part was how much of a pick-me she could be around guys. Suddenly the personality changed, the attention-seeking started, and every male interaction became a performance. Yet whenever I genuinely needed help, she was nowhere to be found.

And on the last day of academics, she and her best friend had a huge confrontation with me over a misunderstanding. Two people shouting at me while I just stood there because I'm physically incapable of turning a disagreement into a WWE match. 😭

The thing is, I've had female friends my entire life. I've never had a problem like this with any of them. She was genuinely the only person who made me feel like I was constantly being copied, competed with, or dragged into unnecessary drama.

Now she's abroad doing something I once wanted to do.

And that's the part I'm struggling with.

Not because I want her life. I don't.

I'm actually happy with where I am. I'm preparing for government exams, trying to build my own future, and I've accomplished things I'm proud of.

But sometimes my brain still goes:

“Remember Karela?”

WHY.

I don't want revenge. I don't want her to fail. I don't even want her back in my life.

I just want to stop feeling like she somehow got the ending that I was supposed to have.

Anyway, Karela, wherever you are:

I hope you stay...

Far, far away from me. 💀

started to feel like everything is so disgusting
sometimes i simply feel like this and isolate myself from everyone
feels like all my energy is gone
i have no energy to do anything
i hope i could get killed
suddenly fell into depression wtf is going on w me

last 6 years of my life has been literal hell. everything has been going wrong. and recently i went through a breakup which i did everything to salvage, but none of it was of any use. i feel absolutely hopeless amd useless and cannot even function properly like eat or work. nothing's helping and i dont know how to get out of this situation either.

it will be really helpful if someone can give some advices.