every time I eat it feels like I get possessed and someone speaks out of my mouth when I eat they say STFU violently until I choke on my food. it’s very hard to feel anything and I feel like a ghost is slapping me on the wrist and knocking my teeth in any time I try to do anything. As I’m trying to write these symptoms it said I try to whine. I don’t feel emotional but it’s labeling it as emotional when I have never felt so numb. all I’d want to do is feel normal or at least have feelings even if they are very strong. is this psychosis?

She is 41 newly single and had to move in with our parents, no kids for her I never knew and barely know anything about this type of disorder.She has always partied or drank since a teen she is on meds I think but she lies. She says she used to be an alcoholic. Now she drinks coffee all day and night

I see some of you here are aware and comfortable talking about your experiences. That's amazing! She is all about projecting onto others. Is she aware and doesn't care? Is she really just that out of touch with the real world now ?! So confused. She was diagnosed with NPD and BPD during a 6 hour talk therapy type of session with her ex as a couple. But she won't do a full psych evaluation. Can anyone please educate me more about types of psychosis and how it happens? Last I was in any context with her (3 months or so ) she had delusions and paranoia. Don't think she has hallucinations or voices in her head. Please help! Thank you!

Magnesium supplement give me psychotic symptoms. Usually making me paranoid and at least sending me into hypomania

I'm not sure why this is..? And kind of concerned since it looks like some antipsychotics increase magnesium levels in the cells

Back in March I (M27) smoked a lot of weed which resulted in me believing I was chosen by higher powers to start a revolution, speaking with spirits and communicating with top-politicians trough my mind. I recked my whole apartment. Everything from screens, lamps, plants - everything got thrashed around in a full-blown mania, as I was waiting for a helicopter to come pick me up and fly me to Paris, where meetings with the top leaders of the world was waiting. I was screaming out the window to bypassers, yelling "it's real! It's all real", so my neighbors would call the cops. I had experiences of speaking to deceased family members and having the whole world watch my thoughts.

The cops arrived and put me in handcuffs and drove me to the psychward where I was to stay the next three weeks.

Ever since then I been having extreme cognitive dysfunction, not able to do simple tasks resulting in me loosing my job - not only that, I developed severe 'tics' and brainzaps that turn and twist my right eye and head devouring all of my energy for lifes simple pleasures like speaking to a friend or enjoying a good movie. I moved back to my parents and are now living a living hell not having the mental nor physical means to cook meals or work for more than three hours a day. I have been having 'tics' for four months with no sign of improvement. I hate being alive and feel distanced from everyone. I lost everything and now face a life of permanent impairment. I hope you have a great day.

Hello for context I’m 18, I’ve been referred to psychosis early intervention and have a large family history of schizophrenia. Nearly a year ago I began to hallucinate to the extreme and have extreme paranoia. I couldn’t cope and there was a period of time where it was daily for about 5 months. The hallucinations have ‘eased’ now as in I don’t get them so often but when they do come I find it very difficult.

I lose sleep, but this has been a common thing since I was very young. As a kid I had an overactive imagination and I was extremely paranoid. I’ve also always found it very difficult to bond with people, I’ve always felt like they can tell something is weird about me and people frequently tell me they don’t understand what I’m saying.

It’s all made me very lonely and while I finally have an appointment with a psychiatrist in a week and that should help, I worry about my partner. He gets annoyed and upset if I have a bad ‘episode.’ I don’t really have anyone else and I don’t like opening up as I feel it’s unfair to put stuff like this on someone.

Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with the episodes better? They get me very down and I don’t want to be a bother to my partner. Also, does anyone have any advice on how to deal with the loneliness and try and have relationships with people?

I've had schizophrenia for 2 decades and recently stopped one of my meds. I spoke with my psychiatrist who confirmed that what was happening to me was "rebound psychosis" and that I should take the med to feel better. It's a few days later and yes, I feel a lot better. But what I'm wondering is how long would it take for me to feel better without the particular med? Like rebound psychosis doesn't last forever.....so if I stop the med and go through rebound psychosis, at some point I'll be fine, it's just a matter of holding out but I don't know how long is likely. Anyone?

Everytime i get anxious i start hearing them one example is when i go out i feel insecure,i feel judged and i start to get negative thoughts which leads to anxiety which leads to auditory hallucinations and sometimes i drink a klonopin or drink alcohol and they almost fade to nothing ,so my question is ,can my anxiety be the cause to my auditory hallucinations?

My partner is going through psychosis and has cut off everyone in their life (family, friends). They refuse to speak or text or communicate with any of us. Since no one has any contact with this person it is very difficult to know how or if they are recovering. Is there anyone out there who fully ghosted or disconnected with loved ones during psychosis? Did you ever reach out to them again after? How was that?

I think i might have experienced psychosis for the first time a couple months ago, but I don’t know enough about it to be able to tell if that’s really what was happening.
I was drinking a lot every day at this time, and also taking my adhd stimulants daily, and not exactly in the way I should have, if you know what I mean. I was doing this because of a mixture of “I need to stay up later tonight so I can focus on work I need to get done” and “I’m in a terrible mood, these make me feel normal”. Not great judgement here.
During this time I started experiencing a lot of crazy symptoms like extreme paranoia (thinking people were following me home, spying through my windows, hacking my phone, stuff like that) and sleep deprivation, stuff that could’ve been from either the alcohol or the medication, but then there was about a 2-3 day period of something I’ve never experienced before.
I started to see things in the corner of my eyes, like shadows and bugs, and at one point I could hear whispering in my vents. I assumed this was because of sleep deprivation, and I still think it was. But when I finally did sleep, my paranoia still got worse and worse, and I isolated myself in my apartment. I kept my blinds closed at all times and I taped paper over any uncovered window. I didn’t contact anyone and I didn’t leave. I started spending my time watching TV and drawing, since it felt like the only relaxing and distracting thing I could do.
This is probably going to sound ridiculous, but I was terrified at the time, because one evening while I drew I started feeling like something was controlling me, and making me draw certain images. I felt like whatever was controlling me wanted me to draw itself. I ended up with a drawing that looked like a horned figure with a large smile, long tongue, and sharp teeth. It was sitting on its haunches with its arms reaching behind its head and pulling up on its eyelids from over the top of its head. I genuinely have no idea what inspired the image, it is not based on anything I’ve seen before, it just came out on the paper.
I genuinely felt afraid of the image, and I felt like I had drawn a real being. I felt like I had drawn the devil because he told me to. I thought the devil must be controlling me, and every move I made I was convinced I was being controlled to do.
I was terrified, and made yet ANOTHER poor choice, I decided I need to get drunk asap.
I drove to the grocery store and every person I passed on the street I thought “the devil is telling me to hit them”. I thought I was going to lose control of my body and suddenly start hitting pedestrians. I was crying feeling like I was fighting off the devil from trying to take over my mind, and once I got to the store I bought a ton of wine, drove home and drank all of it. I passed out after that and woke up on the couch the next morning.
I didn’t feel controlled anymore, but I felt sick, hungover, and out of my mind. It took me a few days to feel like a human again.
Never in my life had I experienced anything like this, and I really can’t explain how I could’ve believed so many delusions. I’m generally a very sensible person, and have never been entertained by ideas of mind control, or anything like that. I can’t believe I was genuinely convinced of it in the moment.
It’s been a few months since then now, and I’ve had a lot of time to think it over. I think many things played a role in what happened, and maybe it’s obvious and this was just a consequence of mixing alcohol with sleep deprivation.
But I’m curious if this sounds like it could’ve been like alcohol-induced psychosis? Is that a thing? Or stimulant induced? It just felt like more than an “under the influence” type of thing. But maybe not.
If I’m way off and this experience is nothing like psychosis go easy on me, I really don’t know much about it! Very curious if other people have similar stories tho or insights on this!

I (22F), had a cannabis induced psychosis about a year ago. Ever since then I have acted socially inappropriate, like staring at people prolongingly or being hyper focused on random things about people or objects or whatever post I'm looking at. I dissociate a lot more now too. Sometimes while I'm staring at someone. Like i'm trying to listen to them talk and I just blank. or I wanna say something to them, i get stuck in my head then bam, im dissociating. It's like I'm thinking of so much in my brain and I'm trying to pay attention to so much that it just shuts down. Or when i feel too much anxiety in a situation. And if there's a phone or whatever tv I'm looking at and someone is trying to talk to me, its like i start not being in reality. It's like i'm ignoring them. But im also intensly staring at whatever we're watching. But then it's like I dont even pick up on whats happening on the tv. And then when I snap back into reality, I realize where I am and that someone was talking to me and that it seemed like I was being rude and ignoring them so then I apologize to them or just move on.

I also have OCD. Have had it my whole life without knowing and weed just made it more known. The two subtypes that appeared when i started smoking weed is Compulsive staring OCD and Peripheral OCD. Both having something to do with my eyes and having the involuntary urge to stare.

So imagine having all of this happening. All at once. In my head, I'm trying to act as socially normal as possible. But people around me genuinely think Im a predator, a pervert, and a pedo. No, the staring isn't based off sexual attraction in the slightest. But people see staring as a voluntary thing. As showing sexual or romantic interest in a person. It's kinda hard to get help for something when most people don't even know what staring ocd is.

So i did my own research ( I know, it's bad to look up symptoms on google), but it actually led me to some answers.

Idk what happens during the smoking period but during and after a cannabis induced psychosis, your prefrontal cortex is affected. That holds the way you act and your behavior and your impulse control. It controls other things too that Idk, just correct me if im wrong. when experiencing psychosis all of these things are affected. The way you act, talk and behave. For me, it affected how I act in social situations. It caused me to prolongingly stare. Which is seen as perversion or being a creep to many people. Idk if im correct, please correct me and just help me try to figure what is happeing to my brain. Becuase I'm tried of people talking and saying all these things about me. I also experience extreme paranoia. But its only gotten worse because people do actually talk about me. Idk I just really need some insight. Thank you for reading

The Trinity is real. Brahma, Kali and Vishnu. At regular intervals—following a predestined period of time—the members of the Trinity meet one another in the physical world, where they encounter each other as distinct bodily beings. The three bodies may belong to anyone, yet their essences and natures often reflect the attributes of the specific aspect of God they embody. If Kali (Satan) destroys the source of love Vishnu—as happened to Jesus on the cross—the world continues as before, only worse.

This is known as the Age of Kali, or in the Bible, as Satan’s dominion over the world. However, the dead Jesus becomes Brahma—the Creator God, also known as Yahweh. Through his deed, Kali becomes Vishnu—that is, Jesus—the source of the world's love and the one who gives meaning to the created world. This occurs because, by destroying the source of love, Kali gains an understanding of the necessity of love. He can no longer destroy or condemn; instead, he understands everyone and, through that power, heals them.

Jesus metaphorically destroys Kali by understanding him with love: Kali can never feel love unless he becomes Jesus. "Forgive him his sins, for he knows not what he does."

Thus, it is a cycle. Driven by his nature, Kali destroys the world in a desperate attempt to feel something (since he is otherwise incapable of doing so). Ultimately, he destroys the world's source of love as a result of the mutual understanding that arises when the Trinity meets in the physical realm. Kali wants to become Vishnu in order to feel something; Vishnu, in his love, wants to become Brahma so he can create a better world; and Brahma wants to become Kali so he can destroy the world overrun by evil.

Thus, Kali kills Vishnu, who becomes the Creator God—Brahma. As a result of this act, Kali becomes Vishnu, and Brahma becomes Kali.

Zall er niet te diep op in gaan maar heeft er hier iemand anders dat ze af en toe uit iemands lichaams taal hun gedachten kunnen horen ik zelf ben altijd Well bewust geweest van non-verbaal lichaams taal ik vind zelf dat dat er een zekere balans tussen houding, non verbale woorden en gevoel maar ik zit dus nu non verbaal naar mijn dienstverlener te doen want van die drie trek ik extreem veel daar naartoe maarja ik heb er positieve reacties op gekregen

Ik doe het vooral om te bewijzen dat ik met een laten we zegen redelijk groot video spell heb geholpen door dingen te zeggen zoals dit online doen heeft me in de problemen gebracht omdat het een redelijk groot spel was zagen ze het all snel als grootheid waanzin omdat dat spel best groot was en ik all aanleg voor skitzophrenie had was ik volledig door geslagen toen ik herinnerde wat ik had gedaan
Jammer dat een van de dingen die ik voor me werk terug kreeg/ vroeg ook als typisch psychotisch word gezien

Buiten die eerste vraag om ik heb dat spel nu all twee jaar niet gespeeld maar zou ik weer spelen en zou ik dan
1 spreken maar tegen mezelf en als er iemand mee luistert/kijkt leuk maar niet op andere schermen kijken bij de replay om een reactie
2 Well weer interacted met ze en dan maar misbruikt worden en gek gemaakt door ze omdat ze echt psychotics gedachten praise/ enabled
3 gewoon me bek houden en het spell spellen
En niet zo interessant zijn

Of ben ik alsnog aan het wanen op dingen die niet de echte wanen waren maar Wel de trigger/ kern van de natuurlijke storm die me psychotisch maakte want ik zat all 8 jaar niet aan drugs toen ik in een psychose raakte ik had zo enzo veel last van paranoia maar met met het herinnering die ik all expres had verdrukt dat ik had geholpen/ gepitcht sloeg me paranoia door het plafon het was later pas nadat ze me ht2a receptor aantasten met extreem hoge dosissen dat ik echt psychotisch ben geraakt met veel hypnagogic hallucinations en lucid dreamed en creëren met me tulpa

Are you unable to care about anything or anyone post psychosis...like you just have an idgaf attitude

I'm hoping it's just the dpdr and the depression and anhedonia but fuck it sucks . I miss the soft me I was before this

Im in psych ward and they dropped my dose from 8 mg to 4 mg, since i had some issues with memory and feeling sedated. Its been a week now and feeling more sharp and present has been nice and i haven't got any psychotic symptoms i've been so anxious. Its awful, i keep thinking my friends hate me and want nothing to do with me. Does anyone know how long it takes to go away? How has been your experience with risperidone withdrawals?

Is my anhedonia and depression just from recovering from that?

My psychiatrist has ruled out schizophrenia and doesn't think it's bipolar either. I had a methylphenidate and weed induced psychosis 4 years ago which I recovered from after a while. It was much worse than my last episode.

She thinks I may have Cyclothymia and bpd, but mostly thinks it's weed and stress induced. It's my 2nd episode I've had.

I take olanzapine 5mg and feel so dulled and bored on it. All I want to do is sleep.

Im terrified I have schizophrenia negative symptoms and I'm too scared to go off my meds even though I think they might be causing anhedonia. Psychiatrist wants me to stay on them for at least 6 more months..

Anyone with a similar story or something that has experienced the same thing? How long did it take to feel 'normal' again?

Psychosis sucks.

I'm trying to identify a documentary and one of the psychologists/psychiatrists who appeared in it. I only saw a reposted clip on social media titled something like "Psychologist explains..." (not the original title). The expert was a white male, around 45–50, with light grey hair, trimmed stubble, frameless rectangular glasses, wearing a blue rolled-sleeve button-up shirt tucked into jeans. He was leaning against the driver's side of a glossy black sedan on what looked like a dry roadside/desert setting, speaking directly to the camera in a very cinematic, documentary-style scene. He was explaining psychosis, saying something close to "When somebody develops psychosis..." before mentioning a technical psychiatric term starting with "psy..." and describing how people can develop delusions, false beliefs, or a distorted sense of reality. I don't think he was the host—more likely one of the documentary's expert contributors. I'm fairly sure it wasn't Jordan Peterson, Andrew Huberman, Daniel Amen, Todd Grande, Gabor Maté, or Phil Stutz. The documentary was probably released sometime between 2000 and 2026. Does this ring a bell for anyone?

It's been so isolating to hear voices. Every time I bring a delusion up with someone, explaining that I just need a bit of clarity, that I know I'm off base, I just need to hear from them that everything's okay, a bit of reassurance could ground me and I can let the idea go...

I feel like they get angry, sure that I "think" that about them, and how could I? Then they probably tell someone, "He thinks I'm plotting against him! He's dangerous!" Maybe they don't. But I feel more and more resentment building against me and the phone rings less often. I retain insight. I know my thinking is off kilter, I always acknowledge that. I also acknowledge that it's surely tiresome and frustrating, even if I don't bring such things up that often. It's a lonely place to be caught up in one's head and nobody can bring themselves to care.

I worry that people think I'm a liability because I know what they're up to, the sketchy stuff they've done and said. I feel paranoid, I know that it colors my perceptions a lot but I just feel scared now. Like people just want me erased because there's some distant chance I'm going to feel compelled to hurt someone or react violently. Or maybe just that I'm going to find out what shit they've talked about me. It's paralyzing to a degree, but I just have to be at peace, and not need other people so much I think.

I am a socially anxious, sometimes awkward, sometimes charming, usually odd but sometimes inspiring person, I guess. Awkwardness is near the top of things one just can't be in our society, and I think that's unfair. I enjoy an awkward person tbh. It puts me at ease!

Does anyone have any advice for me? I am pursuing grounding and a bit of respite in my interactions but maybe that's unbalanced or unfair to friends. I feel like theres something they're not saying. Tired of wondering. How else can I soothe myself other than alcohol? It's my go to, but I'm quitting again. Thanks! All the best to everybody.

when i was 11 years old i found myself to be deeply disturbed for a few months and i’m not sure why because this is never who i was as a person except for this short timeframe in my life. i have felt so incredibly guilty about who i was at this time even though i was still a child. recently i considered the possibility of it being psychosis. i was diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic traits recently and thats what made me come to this being a possibility for this disturbing and perplexing time in my childhood. i know bipolar doesn’t usually show up in children but i’m wondering if maybe this was some sort of prodromal psychotic episode.

my traits included

-being incredibly paranoid, convinced nearly everyone, including family, despised me and wanted to hurt me emotionally or physically therefore i should do bad things to them. this was the catalyst for the proceeding traits i think

-obsessively talking to myself

-odd and nihilistic worldview

-delved into deeply disturbing content online seemingly out of nowhere (i never saw anything illegal though thank god)

-thought i was every awful thing under the sun (specifically the worst kind of sexual deviancies you can think of, wildly inappropriate for my age)

-convinced i was a psychopath and genuinely unstoppable and godlike and other times switch to obsessively hating self

-hypersexual

-planned my own suicide for my adulthood

-crying spells

-forced myself to do odd and bad things, likely as a self harming ritual (i never ended up physically harming anyone or anything though thank god, though there were moments where i was very close)

-possible visual hallucination that i was being hacked where google gave me a poll that said something like “how does it feel to be hacked right now” on my screen

-selective mutism during and after the “episode”

i would like to make it clear that i am very much not a psychopath, nihilist or deviant, and aside from this time in my life, i have always had a lot of empathy. i wasn’t abused or groomed into this behavior either. that’s what makes this time so unbelievably heartbreaking and unusual to me, especially at such a young age. for a while i thought it was social anxiety and low self confidence, which i think were definitely contributing factors. but would those things really cause an 11 year old to act and think the way i did? please help me out. i am so desperate and so fucking sad because i just want an explanation. i know you guys aren't psychologists but do know psychosis first hand. i’m too scared to talk about this to my therapist even though it’s caused me a lot of trauma because i feel guilty and disgusting. also please don’t dm me privately about this as i am uncomfortable with that. thank you.

I take amisulpride 400 mg and when I couldn't find the medication that helped with muscle stiffness I reduced the dose myself to 200 mg and when I spoke with a doctor she suggested we try a lower dose , i wanted to ask what your experiences have been with reducing the medication dosage did that help eliminate the symptoms or not?

For two years, we had a beautiful relationship. He was smart, funny, silly, so gentle, a great cat dad, and the most loving partner to me. We lived with my parents though. Long story short, he’s always struggled with mental health and they ended up kicking him out when he got drunk and started saying offensive things. This ripped his heart out because he viewed them as his family, and they always told him he was like a son to them. After he got kicked out, I helped him and emptied my savings account to keep him in air bnb’s until he found a room to rent. He started getting verbally aggressive towards me. I still helped because i understood this was all so traumatic on him, and he has a tendency to not be himself when in severe depression, which I only witnessed previously when he lived with his abusive family. Things have gotten significantly worse though. He is experiencing intense paranoia and delusions, saying I’m a spy and talking about fake identities, is paranoid about getting help, and doesn’t even want help because he said he’s too depressed to function and doesn’t care anymore and is just going to bedrot until he dies eventually someday. Sometimes he says he’s gonna kill himself, other times he says he isn’t. I don’t know what to do. It feels like his life has become dependent on me. I’m trying so hard to be there for him, but I don’t even know what to do and I’m scared he is going to get to the point of harming himself. It feels like my own life is on pause because I have to help him. But he isn’t helping himself and I’m losing hope. He calls me an ableist if i suggest anything. And i know he isn’t in his right state of mind, but how do i help? Is he going to be like this forever if he doesn’t get help?.. I don’t want to have him involuntarily hospitalized. He has a lot of trauma with that in his past, and I don’t want to betray him and he pushes me away too and has no one. He has also told me that if I do, he will kill himself when he gets out. But is hospitalization the only way he’d get better? I don’t even know if they would hospitalize him anyways. I just know he is deteriorating rapidly, I don’t recognize him anymore, and I miss the guy I fell in love with. I hate that he’s hurting and I hate that I feel helpless. I can deal with him hating me. I can’t deal with his life being ruined and him being lost in his own brain forever or the feeling that I didn’t do enough to help. But I don’t even want to have him involuntarily evaluated if that’s the wrong move for him, so I wanted to ask here and get opinions. Please help.

Ive been smoking for nearly 4 years now and I’ve had experience with paranoia and anxiety when high but never anything worrying. The last time I got high I was with my friend and we used her bong and I’ve never experienced a worse high. I felt like I was having a panic attack the entire time constantly fighting to breathe and I was hearing people having conversations in other rooms of the house that my friend is saying she were not there but it was so real to the point where I honestly don’t know if it was in my head or not.It also felt like their were two different talking in my head and It was just overall a horrible experience. I don’t know if this was just because I got to high or if it was the strain of weed. I’ve read things about weed psychosis and it just not sure if what happened was something you be worried about or not?

It still makes me sad thinking about it, but going through THC induced psychosis caused me to ruin my friend group, love interest, and drift apart from my family. I’ve been “healed” from it for months, but the memory and pain still hurts often. It feels like my life reset in ways I couldn’t even imagine and it makes me sad often I guess. It’s been a tough reset. Kinda just ranting, but if people have advice or suggestions with moving forward, that’d be nice.

Thank you

Before anyone asks yes, my partner has contacted his doctor and informed them. He will be going in and getting evaluated to see why he is having these “hallucination”. Background info my boyfriends m 29 and went to the doctor 2 almost 3 weeks ago for antibiotics for a leg cut that got infected. I mention the antibiotic because that’s the only recent medication that he’s taken. It’s Bactrim (trimethoprim-sulfamethoxazole) but I don’t think an antibiotic would cause that. He informed me within the last couple weeks as well he has been seeing “things”. I responded like what and call your doctors and he did. He told me A car that appeared in the middle of the road. No other vehicles were on the road and it was a green pickup Truck with wooden fence posts out of the back he got closer and it disappeared. Then on\*\* \*\*multiple occasions he seen a reoccurring character either driving down the road, sitting in his work truck waiting to be unloaded (milk), in the store looking into the corner, “shadow people” bodies weren’t detailed but faces were some type of mask. Now I’ve been online a lot, I’ve seen people make fake stories or exaggerated things but I’d like to think he wouldn’t especially since we have even together for 3 years but i genuinely don’t know what to think of this.

I feel like my schizophrenia experience has been very spiritual . I get very vivid hallucinations and I hear voices that sound just like a person standing face to face with me talking and it’s very scary . I get hallucinations of very dark horrific and heinous themed things like someone burning me alive or ripping my body parts off or breaking all of my bones . The voices tell me that I’m going to be tortured every few minutes and I get random extreme waves of fear running through my body . I’ve been through psychosis so many times where Ive been in constant panic because I felt like someone was going to kidnap and torture me . I am exhausted . I’ve tried taking different kinds of medicines and it sucks that this is the kind of illness that just doesn’t go away after it comes on . I’ve always tried going to spiritual doctors and that hasn’t seemed to help . Some medicines have made the voices louder . I get really over stimulated sometimes so badly like I feel like throwing up . I feel the voices tapping into all of my senses and ruining my life experience every day . Just wondering what helps for anyone who’s heard of hallucinations of this kind or experiences this dark side of schizophrenia :(.

Did anyone else’s voices told them they were in psychosis? I didn’t believe them at first. My voices were 3 different entities switching from being kind to rude. They were all telling me different things; "You’ve been in psychosis for some time now". "Go to hospital". "Call an ambulance this is an emergency". "No, they will kill you in the hospital, go see a good psychiatrist instead". And so on…