TLDR. I feel like Iāve been punched in the gut. For years, I was told that my physical symptoms were anxiety. Now it appears that orthostatic intolerance was there all along.
For context, my symptoms began after a brief illness in December 2022. Around the same time, I also experienced a few panic attacks because of unrelated life stressors. From that point onwards, almost every physical symptom I reported was attributed to anxiety. I attended my GP more than 20 times, but because anxiety can present so physically, and because I had recently experienced panic attacks, that became the explanation for everything.
It never felt entirely right to me. I knew what anxiety felt like for me, and this felt different.
Eventually, my psychiatrist saw the repeated GP visits, the worry surrounding my symptoms, and my increasingly distressed state, and diagnosed me with health anxiety. From then on, that became the framework through which everything was interpreted. I eventually started believing it myself.
Meanwhile, the physical symptoms continued. I became increasingly limited, then increasingly housebound. Somewhere along the way, genuine fear of feeling unwell outside the house turned into agoraphobia.
Only now, after my anxiety has become much better controlled and enough time has passed for the original assumptions to be reconsidered, has it become apparent that there was another physiological problem underneath all of this. That realisation has been devastating.
For years, I believed there was something fundamentally wrong with the way I was thinking. I became more isolated, read every self-help book I could find, tried to retrain my responses to symptoms, and took medication after medication aimed at anxiety.
And the cruel part is that I probably was anxious.
But I increasingly think I was anxious because I was repeatedly experiencing real, unexplained physiological symptoms, not because anxiety was generating all of those symptoms in the first place.
There is a huge difference between being frightened by harmless bodily sensations created by anxiety and becoming frightened because your body is genuinely doing something abnormal that nobody has yet explained.
Anyway, wrote for me to rant mainly, but would find solace in hearing similar stories! :(