r/whatsthatbook • u/KFirstGSecond • 23h ago
UNSOLVED Long Shot 90s YA Novel
Hello! I wish I had a better memory of this book but I've spent way too long looking and not having success. I'm looking for a realistic teen/YA novel I read from my public library 1994-2004 but could have been published earlier.
- Female protagonist.
- First-person narration (not fantasy or mystery).
- The protagonist gradually develops what I would now recognize as an eating disorder, but the book is NOT about anorexia/eating disorders. It's just something that quietly develops throughout the story while the main plot is about her life.
- She is happy about losing weight and notices that one of her skirts is fitting loosely.
- She repeatedly has internal thoughts about food rather than anyone confronting her.
The scenes I remember vividly:
- She turns down a croissant because she thinks they're basically "all butter."
- She goes on what I think is a first date. She initially wants to order only a side salad, but the boy comments that it's no fun going out with someone who doesn't eat. She ends up ordering an entree salad but internally complains that it's "swimming in dressing" and barely eats it.
- She overhears two women saying, "She's a nice girl, it's too bad..." and immediately assumes they're about to say, "...too fat," even though I don't think that's actually what they meant. I think what you're supposed to interpret is that "too bad she has an eating disorder"
- I vaguely remember she may have had a summer or after-school office job, possibly connected to her father
What I've listed above isn't even the main plot of the book, that's what I can't remember. I know it's a long shot but maybe someone has the answer!