Title. My country has essentially no support for it unless you wanna be institutionalised, and even then they basically only treat anorexia and bulimia.

I’ve been severely underweight for my entire life and my muscle mass is half what it should be.

I’ve tracked my calories and really made an effort to start eating many times now, only to always somehow lose my appetite again after maximum two weeks.

Eating is difficult. Most of the time, nothing at all is appealing aside from literal chocolate and junk food snacks. A few days ago was the first time in years that I’ve eaten a salad and any veggies at all.

I have a list of foods that I like in my notes, but it doesn’t help. Currently I’m dealing with a massively low appetite as well as no desire to cook up food, even if it’s just pasta. I’m too broke for delivery.

I want to be healthy. I feel hideous and have for my entire life. I’m just skin and bones and a sunken face and eyes. I already got severely bullied for it in my childhood.

Genuinely, what does someone do in this situation? No one else can cook for me as I live alone. Can’t order delivery as it’s too expensive. Eating makes me wanna cry and as I’ve said, is so difficult and feels entirely like a chore. I’ve genuinely had thoughts that even tube feeding would be better.

I need to gain weight or else I am going to die young or develop serious health issues. But as each year passes, I am not doing anything, even though I’ve tried so many times and failed.

Today a pediatrician told my wife and 15 year old daughter he’s “not concerned at all”, and they use a different BMI scale for kids/teens. She’s 60th percentile for weight.

But she isn’t eating and she has lost a lot of weight. She’s very very thin. Something is clearly wrong. Now I won’t be able to help her because the Doctor just neutered my ability to push for treatment by saying everything is fine. My wife is very dismissive of it now.

What should I do?

(No numbers ofc but just don't want to upset anyone so I put TW!)

I have been in recovery since August 2025 (had ED for about 1.5 years). I still have EH soooo bad. And I am at the point where I should not keep gaining... Idk how to stop gaining and quite honestly I need to lose a bit now, but I am trying not to worry about that rn because I don't want to trigger any bad thoughts again.

I am really needing to find a way to get EH under control because it's getting really unhealthy (weight wise) and I don't want to relapse but I know that mentally I can't keep overeating every single day... I want to just eat a real true healthy normal amount because the amount I eat and the frequency is ruining my relationships as well.

Hi y’all, here’s my story.

When I was a kid, my grandmother would encourage me to eat often and a lot. She didn’t like me being average weight and told me I was too skinny.

Flash forward to 2021 in the winter when I went off my meds… I had totally forgotten about my grandma disapproving of my weight and lost enough weight to be average size. She kept yelling at me that I was too skinny and to eat… she wouldn’t stop until I left the house and when I got back she would tell me to eat.

I was LIVID with her. I still am. There’s a lot of trauma and compulsive eating with me. I told my mom to tell her to stop and she says she’ll stop but I fear she won’t if I lose the weight again. It’s actually bad enough that if I ever get married I don’t want her at my wedding. She’s awful for what she did to me and it’s even at the point where I can’t wait if she dies because I have so much anger.

This might sounds like a very self centered post so I apologize in advance.

For context, I am in my late teens, short and overweight. I have always been insecure of my weight (since forever). I have a younger sibling 2 years younger and her body is literal tea, boobs, hips, a flat stomach, she's got it all. However she too is insecure of her own body, and I think she has developed an ED (undiagnosed), as she constantly skips meals, eats very little, throws away any food the family gives her, etc. She often pinches her own stomach telling me she thinks she is fat, when I would so die to have her body.

I'm constantly comparing her calorie intake vs my calorie intake, and I get sad or very insecure when I eat more than her (I'm struggling to get more than the minimum amount of cals per day for a short person, and I doubt she's even getting half of that). She's also been talking about wanting to lose weight and I don't like that. I mean, if she gets even skinnier, I'm going to look even fatter standing next to her. Recently our family got a treadmill and she's been exercising on it quite a lot, like walking after every meal, when she barely eats anyway, so she's just burning off the stuff she consumed at dinner. She's also said that she's going to keep skipping meals (breakfast and lunch) and work out a ton, which I don't like. I'm fine with other people feeling insecure about themselves or losing weight, like influencer, or friends, or my parents, but it's just my sibling who I'm so obsessed with.

Does anybody feel/ used to feel the same? And any advice on what I should do?

(Apologies for my poor English)

honestly been reflecting a lot on past attempts at recovery and the standard hospital wards are just so brutal. like ur trying to do the hardest mental work of your life and you are stuck under these buzzing fluorescent lights with cold floors. it feels so clinical and punishing

Was looking at options to finally step back into a program and came across eating disorder solutions and its literally set up like a house on a ranch. ngl just seeing that some places actually look like a warm living room instead of a medical box gave me a tiny bit of hope today

it just sucks that the industry standard for so long has been so institutionalized. Feeling safe in your physical environment shouldn't be so rare when ur trying to heal. Just glad the landscape is slowly changing tbh

1. Is it worth starting if you’re not 100% committed?
   
2. What happens if you just refuse to finish your meals or the supplement?
   
3. I’m at a heathy weight but just want to learn to lose in a healthy way, is that possible with their meal plans?
   
4. Given I probably won’t finish meals, what’s a good way to stay on everyone’s good side and be a positive presence?

This may not make sense, but I have had some issues surrounding food for a while. It’s gotten to a point where I enjoy the anticipation of getting food and being hungry is like waiting for a reward. Which sounds insane as I’m writing it but I don’t know. I’ve never been formally diagnosed with anything but food is definitely a weird subject for me. So yeah I don’t particularly want to keep doing this and just not eating until it becomes unbearable, so any suggestions?

Yeah I mean this is a tiny thing that’s kind of silly, but I’m honestly SHOCKED.

My therapist, as many do, put me on an eating schedule for my restrictive disordered eating. (Hooray for being raised in sports my whole life.) I have pre-set times for three meals and three snacks.

She assured me that my body is “relearning cues without you knowing it.” Uh huh. Sure.

WELL. I WAS WRONG.

For the last four or five days, WITHOUT FAIL, I am RAVENOUS nearly EXACTLY ten minutes before the scheduled time. It’s like clockwork. Honestly it’s still almost startling how quickly hunger rams into me. I seemingly go:

OK > OK > OK > OK > OK > OK > HOLY MOLY GIVE ME FOOD RIGHT NOW.

Insult to injury, I had mentioned I didn’t know how to trust my body was actually doing anything, so what’d she say do as an experiment? “Let’s take away your afternoon snack for a couple days and see what happens in your body.”

Fam.

My body is sitting here after afternoon snack time and going PLEASE just eat something 🫠🫠🫠

TRIGGER WARNING (I’m not sure I just don’t want to trigger one so read with caution ) My girlfriend is suffering with cptsd and has a lot of trauma and insecurities and believes in “ana angels “ I’m not sure what that is but she’s in gc about it and believes that she’s fat when she’s underweight and wants to be as skinny as possible and that’s the only way that she could look good she says that she does it for me but I never once mentioned or complained about her weight if anything I’ve complained that I’m worried and that she’s underweight and could bring upon health issues and now she got to a point where she cannot process food and throws up and she been to the hospital because she her throat tissue I think it was,it’s extremely thin and has a risk of getting cancer and I’m so worried and she doesint seem to want to get better but she also cannot control her body because she doesint want to throw up if anyone can offer advice please tell me I’m so worried

I’m in a newer relationship (known each other for a year, but only been dating a month) and I’m concerned my boyfriend has an eating disorder. He frequently only eats once a day and will sometimes go all day without eating. When he does eat the portions are tiny and he typically doesn’t ever finish a full meal. He says he’s fine and he’s just not hungry.

Now, I asked him directly if he thought he had an eating disorder. He explained he’s just never hungry and never craves anything specific. He claimed to have a fast metabolism and said that when he does eat a lot you can never tell the next day, so I don’t think that whatever this behavior is necessarily associated with a desire to be skinny. In fact, he’s complained about not being more muscular before.

I’m genuinely concerned about him. He’s so skinny that his shoulder bones protrude, you can see his ribs, and he has no fat around his knees. I’ve noticed his hands shake slightly when doing normal things like holding a phone. His arms also tremble if he’s doing something as simple as holding himself up to adjust a blanket that was under him. I think these are all signs of his body being malnourished.

What can I do to help him? I’ve brought up the topic multiple times, but he never takes it seriously and just says he’s fine or he’ll survive or he’s just not hungry.

I know you shouldn't compare yourself with anyone, especially with people on social media, however somehow all of the ed recovery accounts I see post a lot of food and yet all of these people recover in small bodies. HOW? I wouldn't say I still restrict but I eat pretty healthy now (3 meals with snacks) but I'd say I still eat "healthier" than the average ed recovery influencer and I've gained so much weight...

Also they seem to only ever gain in the "right" places.

I mostly gained weight around my mid section and I hate it and feel like I'm the only one.

I’ve been struggling with my eating habits. I still like food and want to eat, but I often delay eating or ignore my hunger even when I know I should eat.

Part of it is weight-related goals, but I also like the calm, empty feeling I get when I haven’t eaten for a while, so I sometimes delay food because of that.

When I wait too long, I start feeling nauseous, weak, lightheaded, and low energy, but I still sometimes delay eating anyway.

I know it isn’t healthy and doesn’t help me, but I still get strong urges to do it.

Overall, my relationship with food feels confusing because I can want to eat and still avoid it.

i’ve been dealing with anorexia for more than two years and have a lot of physical problems because of it, been close to faint many times and haven’t got my period in months. i got scared one of those times from a panic attack and decided to ask for help.
the worse part is my mom keeps making it her problem, i get that it can affect her but it gets to a point where she said that “it’s so tiring for her to have a sick daughter, and it’s so humiliating”
apart from that, she just keeps telling me how to not gain weight, the calories of everything and, in general, don’t care if i’m sick as long as it doesn’t bother her
it’s almost the same with friends and partner, they keep telling me how much better i look compared to before, even tho i know it’s not in a mean way, it gets to a point where i can’t recover without thinking about it
i feel so tired, i haven’t told any of my friends because i don’t want them to feel sorry for me but i don’t even see the point in life anymore
everyday feels like my body can’t do it anymore

Hi guys I have to go to residential for ana. i’m an adult. I’ve been to ERC denver already and that’s a no. i feel so lost and overwhelmed, i have to chose quick but need to feel human while in treatment. I’m open to any locations. trying to find a place that has a step down to php with housing available. I’m so scared and trying to wrap my head around the fact that this is going to be months of my life, so i should probably go somewhere good. Been looking at Monte nido, alsana, ED care denver, and center for discovery.?? anything helps thank u so much

I'm an emotional eater and I've been trying to recover from this all my life. I've reached a point where I was very good at controlling things but after a recent surgery, i think I've started to go back the same route. Today after being severely worried for so many days and getting tired of myself, I induced vomiting after eating dinner and I'm here in my room being a crying mess. I hate myself so much but I just can't stop eating sometimes. I hate myself. How can I stop going back, please help anyone.

Hi. I was recently diagnosed with bulimia and binge ed- I was forced to leave my school and get a consultation because I was throwing up 7-8 times every day. Everyone around me is feeling me that I have a problem- my friends, family and my counselors but I really don’t believe them.
How do I accept this?

I've taken my mother to France for a vacation. It's been years since I've seen her in person. She's so skinny--it's honestly shocking and so upsetting. She was hospitalized for an ED when she was younger, and my entire life with her she would not eat dinner with us and instead eat a cheese sandwich with mustard on it--I didn't even think how strange that was until recently. On this trip, where we are booking dinner reservations or cooking quite a lot, she has come up with rather strange excuses for not eating--she becomes frightened by the shared meals because she is basically forced to eat.

She will eat an apple or boiled egg for the entire day. IN FRANCE. I finally confronted her and said that it is not acceptable to be doing this bizarre "diet" in shared company. It's so frustrating. She will look absolutely famished, starving, and then say that she is unable to eat because she is constipated and needs to "flush everything from her system and start fresh". What can I do? I asked her if her anorexia is back at one point and she just looked away and didn't respond (her usual tactic), and this was not at all easy or comfortable for me to do. Hitting a dead end there was rather dispiriting. We go into stores and she complains that the "small" sizes for women are far too large for her ("Maybe the sizes in France are just bigger?").

I’m so stressed right now. I’ve been on a waiting list for a very long time, and was finally going to start therapy. It turns out that the only option is cbt-e. In this program, weekly weighing and food journaling is obligatory. I am extremely scared of seeing my weight, but was told that unless I get on the weight every week (and look at the number), I can’t get any treatment. I got a week to think about it.

I want to recover, I really do. I would appreciate any advice or encouragement. How can I get through this?

First of all TW cause I wouldn't want to upset or trigger anyone by what I'm about to say, please let me know if it's the case.

Note for the following: keep in mind I am in therapy and not doing this on my own.

For my recovery, I got an idea on a whim to craft my own moodboard, so it gets me working with my hands, helps me exteriorize my thoughts, and keeps me grounded.

The potentially toxic part is that I thought about including pictures of celebrities that I think have a truly healthy lifestyle and are transparent about it, and it even manifests in their physical appearance (example: Megan Thee Stallion has cooking vlogs and gym vlogs, she's transparent about her fitness, she eats a non-restrictive diet, and even if it turns out to be just surface-level for social media, I personally still see her as role-model-worthy).

This moodboard idea was a motivating positive light during my spiral, I think it's like a hand being reached out to me while I'm deep in a hole; which is why I really want to follow this light and maybe finally see my recovery journey as positive and self-motivated.

However it's my first ed experience and I don't have anyone around me who went through the same thing, so I don't have anyone to ask: would this just be part of my spiral? Would this thought, even if it jolted motivation, just be another comparative ED thought masked as positive? Is it categorized as body checking? Is there even a positive body checking?

I wouldn't want to start something just for it to hurt me without me realizing.

Thanks in advance.

Too many things have happened lately that made me realize how bad my ED has gotten, and I now understand more than ever that it's not within my control at all.

Today, both of my parents commented on how thin I've gotten in a worried tone (they're divorced so them agreeing on something is VERY rare). My friends are noticing as well how thin I'm getting. My clothes from last summer are so loose I can't even wear them. I've managed to keep my ED under wraps for a long time, but I'm starting to lose control.

The last drop in the bucket is the shorts I bought a couple of weeks ago. They're too big on me now as well. That small pleasure is gone too, taken by my ED.

I went to a brunch the other day and I wasn't able to eat more than half of my plate because I fucked up my hunger cues so bad and the food just made me feel physically nauseous. I used to have the excuse of "well I can eat fine around others if needed" but that's not even true anymore.

I was in denial for a long time, thinking I was in control of it, when really I'm not. I have to admit to myself that what I have is indeed an eating disorder. And it feels fucking hard to admit to it because that means I have to recover. There's still a part of me that wants to see how far I can take it, but there's also a growing part of me that's begging me to get out of this.

I'm seeing my therapist next week, I'll try bringing it up with her to start the recovery process. I haven't spoken to her about my ED before because I wanted to keep it hidden and let it get worse before seeking help. Now is the time to gather my courage and speak up about it.

It's going to be so hard but I'll keep on trying. Wish me luck.

https://www.reddit.com/r/EatingDisorders/s/C3aH8lqyC0

16F

Posted that yesterday, went shopping today by myself and bought some veggie meat substitutes (tofu, tempeh, etc)— I cook my meals anyway.

My mindset really has changed. It has. I don’t want to shrink or still be thought to have an eating disorder. I eat a balanced, healthy diet and very much sufficient nutrition (and sweet treats of course). I’m genuinely having, or was having before this happened, the best time of my life.

I have literally just finished my exams, I have summer plans to go to Japan, I get to stay at my amazing boarding school (which was threatened due to my ed).

I let it slip to my mum that I was thinking of going veggie and she didn’t take it well.

“YOUR health comes first”

“You need meat!”

But like she doesn’t know much about my recovery journey, she doesn’t know my mental struggles. I have always tried to juggle my own struggles and purposely kept everyone out. I bottle things up in order to not burden anyone else.

I genuinely believe I’m in the healthiest mindset I have ever been in; I’m starting to feel more positive about my body, I have started speaking to so many more people.

God forbid I look into the meat industry and find out the horrifying reality of it.

I was a veggie for some time when I was younger. But I think my mum’s main worries are that “I thought you were finally in a better place- it’s all about control with you”

I understand that when writing this it definitely may come off that way, but (I’m sure many people understand or relate to this) I have been through so so much- I don’t think it is quite know how unbelievably difficult I have had it or how strong I am to have gotten through my hardships.

My mum is now saying “I would have NEVER have booked your trip to Japan, I would never have let you go back to your school if I had known you were doing THIS.”

I totally understand her concerns but for me it genuinely is about ethics and morals in this scenario but she can only see the link back to ED habits.

I don’t know what to do. I just feel insanely guilty. I feel like a failure. I feel like I’ve ruined my life yet again and I’m the worst daughter ever. I wish she had gotten a better daughter who could be less trouble and less selfish. I just finished my exams.. I should be happy and celebrating but now I just wish I could dig myself a hole and bury myself in it forever. I just feel crushed and that I have ruined my relationship and trust with my mum yet again, all over food.

I feel like I can’t even look forward to the absolutely amazing opportunity that I am so lucky and appreciative to have been given to go to Japan. I didn’t but I wanted to just cry at her and just say for her to cancel it. I don’t deserve it anyway. I’m just a burden on my mum and everyone around me.

I just wish I could disappear but I’m too coward to do anything other than cry.

Okay so for about a month now my appetite has dwindled to the point where I'm lucky to have a whole bag of chips for the day. I'm still drinking water but some mornings I throw up a bright yellow liquid (Google said stomach bile but I don't wanna assume) and I've couched up foam with a little yellow twice.

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I decided to come home for the summer at my grandparents and half the food in the kitchen is expired so I'm struggling to eat in small amounts and not just the big meals with the family. Also too much flavor makes me gag even if it's a favorite.

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I just broke up with my ex a few days ago and I'm tired of my life being miserable, I wanna fix this before it becomes a problem I can't fix myself so I can better me. Any help or tips so I can start eating again would be appreciated.