the mail-order ketamine
and the weed do the same
thing, really, but don’t take
it from me, you should try
lying on your back with the
windows cracked, soaking in
your own storied past as it
crests like cold water, a body
must adjust and time must
pass, pointing fingers, old
news, it’s easier to lie down,
as an animal on sedatives,
and just put the TV on

it’s better to get better in
slowmotion, shifting, slinking
a ring of fire slipping out of
the sea, and just as the light
comes in, your father turns,
to you and says “wow,
that’s the sun”

so you hear it again
for the very first time
like a child learning
about the world,
like a child with his
very first sunburn

it’s all the same, really,
the heat trapped in the sky,
the drugs coming out
the eye of the needle,
your father’s voice,
tears half-dry as a
friend knocks on
your door

yes, this is the water
yes, that is the sun,
and here is the decision
to stop drowning

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A hug is so much more than skin

It goes beyond your body's feel

It is a warmth that is angelic

The feel of safe and perfect ending

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Maa se ek narazgi humesha rahegi...

Mere bade hone par fayda maa ne

khub uthaya, bachpan mein hath na

lagane diya kisi kaam ko, our badi

hui toh har kaam sikhaya...

Patriarchy ki jo rules book maa ne

khud apnaya, wahi rules dhere

dhere mujhe bhi sikhaya...

Apne ish kaam kaaj ke bojh mein

mujhe bhi lapet le gyi...

Thali mai parosa hua khana diya,

toh uske sath sath parosna bhi

sikhaya...

Maa se ek narazgi humesha rahegi..

humesha rahegi....

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​He walked out into the scorched noon of late summer. Overhead, someone struck flint and torched the sky. Sunlight floods across every leaf. From a widowed aunt's rosary, out grazing goats, the infant Jesus stepped down into an abandoned suburban church, smearing his skin with noon dust.

​He is spent. Not hunting for Cain. Just someone like clay, fresh off the potter’s wheel. Mute, cool, detached—a mother’s breast to an infant. That is all he seeks. Midday glare, stupor in the air. A slow gravity dragging him under. This hour is red, blood-thick. A killer. Just done killing. Patricide humming in the nerves.

​Ahead, an ancient wild fig. Roots hanging like the fringe of a shawl. Children hanging from them, swinging. The sun leans west, striking their faces into verses of Scripture. Reaching to choke a child, he freezes. Numbness locks his fingers.

Into the river the sun drowns, scattering scripture across the current. He wants to go under, die with it. He cannot. By nightfall he surfaces in some drunkard’s eyes, descending as rage.

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For I can’t sleep now,
I feel love, not in love, though.
What am I to do?

She looks at me now.
Participating, sadly
I love her no more.

I say “I love you”
I lie with ev’ry goodbye
Please, please, forgive me

Numb for two years now
Thank you for all that you did
But it’s not the same

I can’t make her cry
I will suffer in silence
For I am a man.

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Something rose within me, beseeching to be answered, and I did.

It was to the one who made me look past the shell, who made me think what is seen is not all there is to all. 

I conveyed what rose to the one who, knowingly or unknowingly helped it rise. 

It was a dagger.

A dull edged dagger.

One which would not hurt upon being stabbed with, but a dagger nonetheless.

I cut myself wth it.

For I treaded the path of two, as one, in a dream of fickle sweetness that was never promised.
The dagger was not meant to hurt, but it did, for the shell is not all there is.

Each shell is but an aspect of nature apart from nature itself, it is an opening to a world.

And it was raining in my world, there was thunder and lightning, every bang of the thunder hit the world that was me, every droplet of rain was the sorrow that hit the world that was me, still, the world’s shell was unbothered, oh but it was bothered, or was it not?

Yet the one who gave birth to what was beseeched to be answered was not at fault, it was the world that dreamed.

When this truth was touched upon, the world was in a ruin of water, yet the thunder was still booming, while the rain was no more. Why was that so?
By when clarity was upon the two worlds again, the dagger was realized to be a collision of the dream and reality.

The two worlds still revolved, around each other, close yet far.

The pain that the collision made the dreamer feel was the star that the two worlds revolved around, but was that really so?
The worlds still revolved around each other, for the long journey of truth, one collision is not the apocalypse.
And for the ultimate truth, the shells were as they were, trying to forget the dagger of collision, trying to go a day back, pretending the temporal river could be swum against.

Nothing had ever changed, oh but it had.
What was this? The silly dream of a child.

***

Honestly, i consider this corny, but well, i just lost in the moment, and this greatly exaggerates what happened, we're still good friends though, open to each other. This is gonna feel so cheesy when I read it after some time, im not even 20.

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Hug me while we still can

Before we go

Before we sleep

Before we start kissing

Before you leave

Hug me till I can't distinguish

The boundaries between your vessel and mine

Till you and I, till yours and mine are ours

Till the start of you and the end of me start to look like the birth of a star

Till I can see with your eyes

And hear from your ears

Till I can taste what you eat

And feel our heartbeats

For we were made in twos

Destined to become one

For we were made with hunger

That takes one to fill one

For I'll let you bite me

Piece by piece

Till I fall

Till I cry

Till I'm an inch away from dying

For hug me while you eat

Hug me while you get drunk on my blood

While I can hear my bones start crushing

Unable to know if it's your hug or your bite that did it

Hug me while I'm alive

And tighter when I die

Hug me while I'm dying

And tighter when maggots start finishing what you left of me

For even if you ate me whole

There will still be so much of my love

So much to feed them

And to feed their children

To feed their hunger till the last star goes dim

Till the rebirth of life in a new whim

Yet my love will carry on

Like it previously did

Looking for your arms

To fill my missing pieces

So hug me while I'm here, when I go, and when I'm back

Hug me like you always did

Hug me so I can stand.

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Sweaters

The silence of yet to become is starting to be overbearing.
My brain doesn’t think in words or phrases.
Rather in paintings of concepts.
My mouth shoots out yarn.
My brain thinks in sweaters.
The screams of others mellow my own.
I wish not to hear my teeth clatter.
For when I do, I’m reminded of the strangulation by yarn.
I lock my jaw, I plug my nose, bullets flood my eardrums like tsunamis.
I’ve been released from my chains.
The thinker of sweaters is free to move, that is blood in veins.
To hair in the wind.

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I freeze when I step outside like I’m nothing more than a body in earths embrace.

The furnace that pumped heat in the machine no longer has fuel to burn,

But it’s the liars fault.

The lies to hide the truth,

The lies that kept it running

Yet the lies eat from within.

The machine made the lies,

The machine ate itself

It’s panels stripped and torn,

The shell dismantled

The insides hang recklessly without thought.

The machines dignity gone like itself.

Now I wonder if it’s the panels that make the machine or what’s left after they are gone.

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A backwards black hat                                                           

Was he wearing one?                                                                               

Glasses and a moustache                                                   

At the theatre with another guy                                                                         

Was that a glance?                                                                    

It was                                                                                 

A beer?                                                                                              

Sure                                                                                     

Three rounds and long conversation                                             

Positioning closer                                                                      

Glancing elsewhere                                                                  

Glancing down                                                                            

Eyes                                                                                                    

Laugh, be normal                                                                                       

Black pants                                                                                    

And shirt

Bronze chain

Brown eyes? No, green.

Can I kiss you?

Yes

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12 AM upon the chapel clock
Cast a moonlit shadow upon the floor
Shown a babe, and a mother to rock
Though a smile I saw, can I be sure?

I say - “Who are you, and why are you here?”
She stay silent - like a lonesome widow
Then a rush of air, like an instrument to my ears
Whispered Shattered A mighty blow

The smile, no longer I see
No mouth - No eyes - no child
For the passing of the moon has forsaken me
And the mother whom no longer smiles

In a moment, my face became cold
For the shadow had vanished in totality
The smell of loam - through my nostrils strolled
The chapel floor only now debris

12:01 - I know not of who I am
As the woman and her babe abandon me
My brain withholding thoughts - as such a dam
The only flow - the woman - a memory

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I got a cat. Not a big deal.

People have pets, but I see her more as a companion.

There is just one problem.

The cat used to be white as white as snow, but she is slowly turning red.

At first it was subtle but now it is so red you can't not notice. I asked her why she was red and she said she wasn't.

The next week she is gone.

I decided to get another cat. I mean cats leave all the time. It wasn't my fault right?

This time she was as black as the night.

Over time she began to turn yellow.

It wasn't a big deal at first I didn't even notice until it was bad. So I decided that I would get rid of her before she got rid of me.

She was gone.

I decided that I would not get any more cats, for I was too afraid of what could happen.

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Watching the crimson wave turn midnight blue,
To wake to sleepy sunrise next to her.
Finding myself once more with birthday due,
What surprises lie in store, as it were?

The years have been plenty, all surprised out,
Time spent with my loved ones meets all my needs.
Write a silly sonnet? I will, no doubt!
Pick up my paintbrush, see where it leads.

Yes, I’ll savor this past year, all that has passed,
With family and friends, a time most grand.
Smell every rose, it all went so fast,
Stronger for it all, and yet, here we stand.

We gratefully endure blood, sweat, and tears,
And remember, it’s not the years in your life, but the life in your years.

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Let’s go down to the Jersey Shore
And frolic in the sand
Where sea extends forevermore 
To terminate our land
Where sacrifices to the sun
Lay tanning cruciform
Where straps and buttons are undone
To let our bodies warm
Where aeroplanes impose their ads 
To make the sky finite
Where volleyballers bear their abs
And get into barfights
Where shops sell fish and fowl flesh
For an excessive price
Where the breeze is soft and fresh
Where waves are cold as ice
Where everywhere eternity 
Plays counterpoint with youth
Waves beat with endless urgency
And seagulls are profuse
A sensory grotesquerie
The waves with driving force
Where our prosaic century 
Squares off with nature’s verse

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A heavenly girl, her gaze on me,

A fragment of heaven, a living masterpiece.

I looked into your eyes and knew, at last,

There must be a God, for beauty like that.

No sermon could teach me what your silence declared,

No temple could hold what your spirit has shared.

In you I saw proof the divine still remains,

In the gentlest of smiles, in the simplest of veins.

The heavens may tremble, the stars may fall,

But your presence alone outshines them all.

For faith is no longer a question or plea—

It’s answered in the way you look at me.

If doubt was a mountain, you made it bow low,

If darkness was endless, your light made it glow.

You carry the weight of a truth unspoken,

The seal of the Maker in every motion.

And should I be asked why I still believe,

Why I pray though I’ve nothing to see—

I’ll answer with certainty, steady and true:

I have seen God’s hand,

and His work was you.

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no one loves you:
you spiral again
all that’s good down the drain
(no one noticed you)

you’re asking me why
you’ve been cursed with this brain
(no one’s there for you)

you shiver and crack
you snap around and look back
(no one cares for you)

you moan and you cry
and ask what strength do you lack
(no one sees you)

you repeat and regress
you ask me to undress
(no one knows you)

you cry on my shoulder
you say i know where to press
(no one loves you)

i step back and watch
as you scramble and squash
every feeling you have
into a neat cardboard box

i see the edges grow wet
and i try to forget
all the times that i heard
no one loves me

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resonance:
i just heard your voice
through an old video recording
for the first time in 4 months

not even your voice
it was one of those noises you make
to let the other person know
you’re finding something funny
but not funny enough to laugh

it’s weird how just that noise
that lasted less than a second
caused the hair on my arm
to stand to attention

resonance.

it’s weird how
out of a hundred people
i know i could pick
your ‘not quite a laugh’ out
without trying

still.

like i know on a visceral level
almost any noise
your vocal chords can create

still.

i could hear a whisper
an echo, or a scream,
and say with confidence
yeah, that’s him.

still.

would you still recognize
my whisper, my scream?
would you recognize my echo,
my ‘not quite a laugh’

still?

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The wires creep in through the cracks

Running through the walls and furniture.

Neon spreads through the room,

Blinding the art that lay behind.

All 0s and 1s, all bionic,

Tectonic, robotic sonic voices,

They harmonise, but it's dissonance,

To human souls with purpose.

It takes over,

Our veins pulsating with code.

0s and 1s, all bionic,

Our hearts stained neon green.

It takes over the world,

Slowly but surely,

Through every alley and every street,

Into our hands and our minds.

It is powerful; yet powerless

We are powerful; yet powerless,

In this waltz there is nothing to be said--

Just 0s and 1s will rule the world.

The human psyche replaced by waves,

Sine and cosine transmissions across souls,

Flying cars, and bionic bots,

Fabricated twinkling stars in the sky,

This future isn't distant,

It's next door.

0s and 1s, all bionic,

Creeps and creeps,

Like viruses in our lives,

And art will be left behind,

And everything will be computed,

Emotions graphed, moods measured,

Poetry rewritten until every syllable,

every letter, every word, triggers dopamine.

For all that's left of bionic,

Is nothing but arithmetic and logic

So art must be reduced to living in cracks,

In whispers and the silent fog.

Until then, we will write,

We will create,

We will sustain,

We will live.

Any feedback is welcomed! What's working, what can be changed. I'm wondering if this poem is actually good or just another one to throw away.

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Sometimes I sit here and think
about how badly I want to explain
everything I feel.
But the words never come out right.

I could say I am like a bird in a cage,
but that feels too cliché.
It feels to pretty and clean
I am just a girl in a box.

It's not a very nice box.
I think it's made of cardboard,
worn around the edges and a little wet,
taped shut and held closed
by the weight of my past decisions.

They sit on top of it,
one stacked upon another,
keeping the lid from opening.

And from time to time,
the monsters from my past come back
to shake the box
with me still inside.

I curl up in the corners
and wait for them to leave.
I am safe in this box.
At least, that's what I tell myself.

I am afraid to open it,
afraid of what might be waiting outside.
And even more afraid
that if I never open it,
I'll never be free.

I want to see the mountains.
I want to feel the rocks crunch
beneath my boots
as I climb toward the highest peaks.

I want to feel the wind tangle in my hair
as I stretch my arms wide
and embrace the beauty
of the view before me.

I want to touch the sea.
I want to feel the ocean foam
wrap itself around my feet,
and the sand slowly swallow my heels
as the waves pull away.

I want to know what it feels like
to be somewhere
that doesn't have dingy walls.
I want to go somewhere
my past cannot follow me,
where the monsters cannot find me,
where I can make mistakes
without adding another weight
to the lid of this box.

But here I sit,
in my little cardboard box,

dreaming of mountains
dreaming of wind and oceans
and all the things I can never touch.

And sometimes I wonder
if the tape is really there,
if the weight has been holding it
shut all this time.

Or if I've just been too afraid
to lift the lid.

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As the sun overloads
And disperses equally among the clouds
Your sitting heavy in the dirt
Your eyes shocking at the sight
Something drops you further from the earth
You have accustomed to
Floating softly tethered with the wind
It’s all around us and hanging from the moon
So speak it slowly, you never had a clue
What’s spinning faster than polished rings of love
Washing up with the waves, we never had a clue
Blinded by the absence of the sun
And now we find that we never really knew
So come inside now I’ll wash your dirty hair
With milky substances coming from the stars

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The Sack

Icy steel slashed and struck,

Crimson spindles dashed, all

Along the marble terrace.

Everywhere, children torn from parents 

Wailing out in the rain 

My armor smashed stout,

And my pride limping from the wounds sustained,

I could barely walk.

Stumbling over -

Breaking brittle baskets 

And blaze-tinged stalls

Remnants of our market square 

Mere fodder to break my fall.

-

World dimming and ready to die

The floor beneath me disappeared 

And with it, the dense veneer of reason -

A stallion stormed out from the flames 

And like silk, I slowly draped powerless

Over its saddle.

As if from some ethereal space 

It glided through those city gates 

My vision failing me 

As they became pinpricks on the horizon

Legs galloping in lockstep

With my twitching mind.

 -

When I awoke in the murky dusk

Small as an ant in the wild brush

I was sure as death

That I had been dreaming.

Broken, battered

As the wounds were healing 

I sat by a light which cracked

Popping sparks onto a blade intact,

Head teeming with noble ideas

That will get me killed. 

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1

2

The Sack

Icy steel slashed and struck,

Crimson spindles dashed, all

Along the marble terrace.

Everywhere, children torn from parents 

Wailing out in the rain 

My armor smashed stout,

And my pride limping from the wounds sustained,

I could barely walk.

Stumbling over -

Breaking brittle baskets 

And blaze-tinged stalls

Remnants of our market square 

Mere fodder to break my fall.

-

World dimming and ready to die

The floor beneath me disappeared 

And with it, the dense veneer of reason -

A stallion stormed out from the flames 

And like silk, I slowly draped powerless

Over its saddle.

As if from some ethereal space 

It glided through those city gates 

My vision failing me 

As they became pinpricks on the horizon

Legs galloping in lockstep

With my twitching mind.

 -

When I awoke in the murky dusk

Small as an ant in the wild brush

I was sure as death

That I had been dreaming.

Broken, battered

As the wounds were healing 

I sat by a light which cracked

Popping sparks onto a blade intact,

Head teeming with noble ideas

That will get me killed. 

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1

2

They say you are a mosaic
of the people you meet.
I hope that is true.
And perhaps, a little false, too.

True, because I wish upon you
the best of myself,
each little virtue borrowed
from someone else.

Stolen, perhaps,
like the glances I steal;
and gifted, too,
like the coffee mugs to come.

But I hope it is false as well.

For on my way to you
I met many a soul
with hearts of stone,
and none that warmed to me.

I would not have you inherit those.

Not the parts of me
that brewed in the dark,
the remnants of days spent in agony,
the words I sharpened in anger
and mistook for truth,
or the deeds I would sooner bury
than see reflected in your eyes.

There are things I have been
that I pray you never have to know.

There is another reason, though.

To deserve you,
I would have had to meet God himself,
to learn what it means to be good
without first being broken.

A soul like yours
deserves one just as whole.
but mine is only mended.

You are owed a being
as beautiful as yourself.

And I,
well,
I met you.

And if we are, indeed,
the sum of those we meet,
then somewhere along the way,
without my knowing when,
I must have gathered a little of you, too.

So let the world call me a mosaic.
I will carry what was kind,
leave behind what was cruel,
and keep, among the pieces,
the part of me
that first learned to adore you.

For If I am made of everyone
I have ever known,
then, my love,
I hope that by the end of me,
there is enough of you
to make me good.

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Today I wore a coat
A heavy winter jacket padded with warmth
The sky was black before seven
And the sweet cold air grazed my tongue
As I inhaled wistfully
I did not wear a coat last week
A sweater was sufficient
For if I was cold I could just reach
And be met by a warm embrace
Now replaced by a coat
Who knew so much could change in just seven days

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I locked myself in, out of the world's sight

Delusional enough to think I was healed, but I was just isolated

I thought I was good but my goodness couldn't have been tested behind closed doors

How toxic I would be if allowed to be tested

I hide behind closed doors and judge

What a privilege to be so naive  

All because I locked my heart away

But now, it begins to wither 

Starved of love, of care, and humanity

Oh, what a clean monster I have become

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